my butterfly // heewon

Chapter 25

Jungwon was nervous. It's like he's never been to his own school. Minju didn't really bother him. The thing that bothered him the most was himself. The whole night he couldn't really sleep. All he was thinking about was about the next day in school. He knew if he sees Minju in school he couldn't defend himself. All this burden he felt was heavy on his heart but he didn't wanna bother Heeseung about it. Even though the older male noticed.

"Are you feeling nervous?" Heeseung asked when he noticed the younger looked uneasy.

"I'm fine." Jungwon answered not sure if that's really true but not wanting to worry Heeseung, he decided to keep it to himself. He needs to learn how to overcome some things alone. His biggest motive was Heeseung. It was no lie, Jungwon from the very start wanted to be like him — brave. He wanted that courge Heeseung had to speak up for himself and not be afraid of anyone. Jungwon may be smaller and more emotional than Heeseung but that didn't stop him from wishing he could be like him one day.

By the every step they took and were getting more closer to the school, Jungwon's anxiety was raising.

It was only then when Heeseung left him at his first class and parted his ways with him, he realized how nervous he really is.

Before stepping in the class he took a deep breath, ready to receive death glares at which he was right — he did get them. But it wasn't like always. Before whenever Jungwon came to class they wouldn't take their eyes away from him and just waited for a chance to say or do something to him. But today they just turned away from him and continued talking with each other — completely unaware of Jungwon's presence.

Jungwon frowned in confusion before he took a seat at his desk. He was so afraid of how they would treat him but so far they didn't even care about his existance. They were only focused on talking with each other or studying.

Jungwon's corner of lips curled into a small smile which he hid before someone would see and ruin this so far so good day.

He could be less bothered at the way they didn't care about him just peacefully sitting and looking out the window. He never experienced a peaceful morning in the school and for a change it felt nice.

Jungwon's thoughts suddenly traveled to Heeseung. Even though they parted their ways just few minutes ago he wanted to be with him.

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It felt like forever until classes finished and it was time for lunch. Jungwon almost immediately started packing his books excited for lunch for the first time. The reason he was excited was no other than Heeseung.

He quickly got up from his desk and exited the classroom. He and Heeseung decided in the morning they would meet in front of his class so because of that Jungwon waited outside.

His eyes lit up as he caught glimpse of a familiar boy. He approached him as soon as he saw him.

"You're pretty excited to see me, aren't you?" Heeseung's laugh followed that question as he embraced Jungwon in a hug.

Jungwon softly hit his chest with a smile. It was a sign Heeseung was correct.

Heeseung pinched his cheek before they started walking. His arm was around younger male's shoulder as they both started chatting.

"What made you happy?" Heeseung asked. It was really rare to see him so joyful in school.

"Uhm, it's just that not many students bothered me today and it was pretty chill." His response was like someone stabbed Heeseung's chest. It stinged. In Heeseung's eyes, he's too pure and the world doesn't even deserve someone like him. Everyone should have great time in highschool; make friends, go out, enjoy your teenage years. But Jungwon never had that. He never experienced how some teenager can't wait for school to finish on friday so they could just hang out with their friends. How they laugh until their stomach hurts, or how it's relaxing when you go with your friend for a walk and how you're both unhappy when you have to part your ways.