Private Detective Wang [ZhanYi FF] with MPREG special / Complete

Chapter 28 - Just listen

EGO POV Zhan

The whole time we were still sitting with Seungyoun, eating and then spending an hour in the living room watching an episode of Yibo's favorite series, I noticed that Yibo was clinging to me very tightly and avoiding looking at Seungyoun. It was clear to me that he was just pretending to be strong and could just put what happened to him completely behind him.

But then in the bedroom when he snuggled up to me and I asked him, "How are you really Yibo?" he had tears in his eyes and shook his head.

"I don't know. I wanted to kill him."

"I can understand that."

"You know what's weird?"

"No, what?"

"I was just afraid he was going even further and having sex with me. Because it can't be that someone other than you, that was my first. I thought only my Zhan alone had the right to be my first, no one else. And then I thought, if it was him and not my Zhan, then I'll kill myself."

"Yibo..."

"ZhanZhan, do you understand? Since our first meeting in the guest bathroom at the restaurant, I knew it could and should only be you. Something inside me tells me that I could never and should never have had sex with anyone else but you. Since you came into my life and I gave up my protective wall and let you get closer to me, I feel that you are the only one for me. Even before I understood what I felt for you, I felt it inside me. But I didn't understand it and couldn't put it into words. It felt like I was being drawn to you by an invisible force. As if this was predestined to happen to us. Everything in me screams that I belong only to you. Therefore, only you can and must be the one who was, is and remains my first man. And there was this voice inside me telling me that if it wasn't Zhan, then I have no right to live. Then I have lost my destiny."

"Your destiny?"

"Yes. That voice inside me said, I am pre-destined to you and I belong to you."

"But..."

"And you know ZhanZhan? Right now I'm trying to stay strong because of Youn. I don't want anyone to see how upset I am about what he did to me. I hate him for that. I feel dirty. The thought of how he manipulated me and made me do these things is disgusting. I feel used, soiled, betrayed, lied to, angry, grossed out, disappointed and yet I also see the years we were best friends. We were always there for each other and gave each other support. And I know how hard it must have been for him. Yes, really. He was 15 years old, in love and in puberty when he first noticed his abilities. And I also believe him that he had no control over it. But did he really have to be so selfish and go on?"

"I..."

"ZhanZhan, I'm afraid that you're seeing me through different eyes now. That you're disgusted by me and can't love me anymore."

"I love you Yibo. I still see you the same as before. Nothing has changed. And you don't have to play the strong one."

"I just want to cry, you know?"

"Then cry my cute little vampire. You can cry all you want. And I will hold you in my arms while you do so, until your tears have dried. You're allowed to be weak sometimes. You don't always have to be strong. I will be strong for both of us when you are weak." I said.

And Yibo cried. He cried and cried until he had no more strength to cry and fell asleep in my arms. I held him tightly in my arms until Yizhan woke up and I saw that we had forgotten to put his litter box back in our room after we cleaned it.

So I carefully got up from the bed, took Yizhan and went with him to the living room to get his litter box. I sat on the sofa for a moment, petting the little cat and listening to him purr. Yibo's words and how he felt really touched me. And I didn't know how to help him other than just listening to him while holding him in my arms.