the sweetest revenge (eren x reader)

direct hit

You're walking home, as a cool breeze hits your face. It's more of an actually cold cool, not a nice cool. You put your hands up in your sleeves, trying to keep them warm. You think about how your hatred for Eren had melted so suddenly.
"What is it about that dickhead that makes me tolerate him? He gets this sweet, almost sincere look in his eyes when he's flirting with me. Or...pretend flirting, right? How is he able to look at me so lovingly when he doesn't have those kinda of feelings for me?" As you're walking, you cross paths with Levi.

"Captain!" you say, and salute.
"Y/n. Where are you off to?" Levi asks.
"Just home, sir." you reply.
"Hange showed me your pictures with Eren. What're you doing with that boy?"
"N-nothing, sir. It's not what you thi-"
"I'm not gonna jump down your throat about it, don't worry. I was actually going to speak good about the stupid brat. He's a goddamn fucking menace to society, his anger issues are through the fucking roof, and he's horrible at showing how he feels.But he's a good kid. I can tell he really likes you. I've never even seen him look at Mikasa the way he's looking at you in the pictures, and that's saying something. They've been in love with each other since they were born." Levi says.
"You think he does?" you ask, shocked by Levi's statement.
"He doesn't show it, but he does, trust me. I see myself more in that little shitbag more and more every single goddamn day."
"I'm not sure what you mean, sir." you say to Levi.
"Eren comes off as a cold hearted son of a bitch. He tries to keep this tough persona up, but he's a big ass softie. If I didn't know any better, I would say he's acts so cold to you all of the time. But that's not true, is it? He's actually nice to you in some moments, correct?" Levi asks. You nod.
"He told me I looked good at Armin's welcome home party. He also called me pretty when he was drunk. He fixed up my cut hands, that was after he broke my mom's plate though. He also let me stay at his place because it was too late. But he always has something awful or stupid to say. How did you kn-"
"He makes you feel like shit, but that's only because he doesn't want to get too close. He's afraid."
"Of me?"
"No, dumbass. Just because you're part of the scouts doesn't mean you're automatically a scary bitch. Of falling in love. That's the prick's biggest fear, despite what he'll tell you. Kid's always been scared to let his true emotions out, but god knows why. Wanna know something?" Levi asks. You nod.
"Mikasa and Eren have always been on the rocks, she's just finally fed up with his shit, Mr. Cold Hearted gave a bit too much to the selfish and cold act. Do you see that in him, y/n?"
"See what?" you ask, confused.
"Let me rephrase. When you look at Eren, do you see a cold hearted piece of shit?"
"Well...no. He's extremely cruel sometimes, but I don't think he means it, for the most part. I think he just does without thinking sometimes. I see the potential of being a good guy. I can tell he wants to be a good guy all the time, but he stops himself sometimes. Well, not sometimes. More like almost all of the time." you respond.
Levi looks you in the eye.
"Mikasa can't see that anymore. You've got something she doesn't. Shit, you got something most people don't. The ability to see Eren as a good person. Not just sometimes when he's being friendly, all of the time. A person capable of love and of being loved. He's said things to hurt you, and will continue to without even thinking about it, because it's just in his nature. He tries to push people away to avoid getting himself hurt. It's his way of keeping at a distance. I would say he's not aware of it, but he is. He doesn't do it on purpose, but he does, if that makes sense. Next time he does, tell him. Give him a direct hit. Make him aware of how much of an asshole he's been to you. It doesn't matter if he's doing it to not fall in love again."
Levi walks away, and you keep walking to your house.
"A person capable of loved and being loved." you think to yourself, Levi's words ringing in your ears.
"Captain's got a point. I do see that in him. But...what about me? Is the reason Jean wouldn't go after me because I'm not capable of being loved?" You start to overthink as you walk home.
"I guess...no one's ever really loved me in that way. Hell, that date was the first one I've been on! Does Eren see me that way too? Well, I guess it doesn't really matter. He doesn't like me, that's definitely something Levi is wrong about. We're just doing this to make Mikasa and Jean jealous...right?"