When I Find You

Chapter 10

When I woke up, everything seemed perfect. I felt safe next to Ian. I rolled over to Ian's side and watched him breathe in and out. His face was beautiful and he looked so peaceful.
His eyes began to flutter open and as soon as our eyes met, a smile crept upon his face. He grabbed me by my waist and brought me closer to him. He burrowed his head into my chest and our legs criss crossed.

"Good morning Jess" he said in a sexy deep voice.
"Morning Ian" I replied.
Ian removed his head from my chest and slowly untangled himself from me. I groaned in displeasure and Ian sat on the bed facing away from me.
"What's wrong." I asked.
Ian's smile had turned into a frown and he quickly got up from the bed.
"No. No no no no. " he said rapidly. He ran off into the bathroom. I quickly jumped out of the bed and ran after him. Before he could lock the door, I swept into the bathroom and stood in front the door, So he couldn't escape.
"What the hell was that?" I screamed.
"What do you mean? Do u not understand what happened?" He shouted back.
"Yeah I do! We kissed. We made out! So what?!?" I yelled back.
"So what!?!? We're not supposed to do that...IM NOT SUPPOSED TO DO THAT!" He screamed even louder.
"Well what the fuck does that mean?!" Our voices kept getting louder and louder and I'm pretty sure we woke up the boys.
"What happened between us means nothing do you understand?!" His voice went cold. "You only kissed me because you missed Blake. You needed comfort. And I only kissed you because I haven't been with a girl in a while. Ok!!? What we did means nothing. I completely regret what I did!" My head dropped down to the floor. How could he regret everything that happened. And how could he possibly believe that I kissed him because I missed Blake. I don't miss Blake. He didn't even kiss me because he liked me. All of these thoughts just rushed through my brain. I couldn't believe what I heard.
Wow and to think I liked him.
"What?!" Ian said. Oops I guess I said that out loud. I turned around and walked out the bathroom. I grabbed Ian's wallet and took out a $50 bill.
"What the hell do you think your doing?!" He screamed from the bathroom.
I looked up at him " it's cab fare. I don't have money." I said softly and lowered my head once again.
"Where do you think you're going?" He said in a quieter voice.
I looked back up at him and gave him a soft smile. I closed my eyes and breathed "home".
I walked out the bedroom door. I didn't have time for him to yell back at me.
I walked into the living room and found the boys standing up staring at me.
"Bye" I said quietly and I made my way to the door.
"No. You can't leave. They will kill you." Mathew yelled.
"I've got nothing left to live for." I chuckled.
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I opened the door quietly and walked into the living room. My mother was sitting on the sofa facing away from me. I could hear her sobbing and it hurt like a bitch.
Jeremy was sitting next to her stroking her face. I could tell that my mother did not enjoy it. I wonder how much pain she must've suffered.
"Ehem" I coughed. Jeremy's head shot towards my direction and his eyes opened wide. My mother turned and looked at me. She probably didn't think I was real. But when she finally noticed she ran away from Jeremy's side and came to me. I hugged her.
"You little bitch" Jeremy aid in a villainous tone.
"Hey...Daddy" I shot back.
"Did they hurt my poor princess!?" The sarcasm in his voice was Uncanny. He was talking to me as if I was a little girl. HUH. Two can play this game.
"Oh no papa. In fact they bought me clothes and cooked me food and they told me these amazing bedtime stories." I squealed In a little girls voice. I let my mother go and pushed her into a corner far away from Jeremy.
"Oh yeah what were these stories about baby girl." His voice bothered me. It made me want to scratch his eyes out.
"Oh there were so many. But they were all about a bad, bad guy who lied and who hid his brother and tortured him." I continued. "Oh daddy. If I ever find this man.... I swear I'll kill him" I gave him my evil smile and he grinned back.
"I wanna see you try." Suddenly twenty men came running into the house. I was completely surrounded.
"What? You can't fight your own battles?!" I laughed. "Guess someone's scared a girl is going to beat him up." I continued to laugh at him.
"Laugh all you want princess. This might be your last time."
First two men came at me, so I put my martial arts skills to use. They fell down like a couple of babies. Soon more and more men were charging at me. I grabbed a bamboo stick that stuck out from a vase and used it as a bo-staff. Soon half these guys were down and I could see the smirk disappearing from Jeremy's face.
I was completely out of breathe, but I didn't give up. I saw my mother in the corner, crying her eyes out and I knew I had to keep fighting.