im not dead. SURPRISE. its been like THREE FUCKING SECONDS. angry, so mad, IM PISSED. and numb. i dont FUCKING CARE ANYMORE but i do BUT I DONT but i do.. I DONT WANT TO. LET ME GOOOOOOO. i wanna go, im such a pussy, why cant i fucking let go?? let go you idiot! they hate you, fucking let go, you're such a menace, no one fucking loves you and no one fucking cares.
FUCK
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FU-
STOP CARING, LITERALLY NO ONE GIVES A SHIT, THEY HATE YOU, I HATE YOU, DO EVERYONE A FAVOR AND END IT.
they pretend they care though, i wanna be saved but that most likely wont happen because i "have to save myself" what a load of bullshit! just say you dont care about my feelings, and fucking leave.
like everybody else. i fi dont leave first, they'll leave me. FUCK. im so fucking weak.. why cant i leave.. i love them too much, and obsess over them constantly.. i just want to feel okay but im starting to think god didnt have that planned out for me..
...i feel ignored, it hurts. im trying to communicate the best way i can without scaring them off.. they dont seem to care, end it. no, i cant, i care about them too much, end it. i cant. end it. no! end it. no.. end it. stop saying that! they car- end it.
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i can't.. im helpless when it comes to them.. i'm so fucking helpless slash worthless.. why would anyone care about me ? doesnt matter anyway.. i'll probably be gone soon, gone in the blink of an eye.. and then, they'll be sorry.
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HorrorWe hold absolutely nothing back in this book; these are unfiltered thoughts btw. We write in this book to vent / rant; whatever we need. We will update this book as we go on. This is a Diary of sorts for a Complex DID System whose been through RAMC...
