Red Raven

1) Present Day

I woke up to something poking me in the forehead I smack my head in an attempt to stop whatever it may be from awaking me from my slumber but my attempts are pointless as they continue, I open my eyes to see what has awakened me and my eyes meet with a pair of grey entertained eyes, uggh Matteo.
"Well good afternoon lily thank you for finally joining us in the land of the living," he says trying to charm me as he is using my nickname, what did he do?
"Morning matty what's up", I say as I rub my eyes to ease the acing that is already beginning to creep in and start to sit up.
"Girl you're asking me what's up? It's nearly half one in the afternoon and you're still asleep. What the hell did you do?" He questions me as I begin to walk to my bathroom.
"Well.." I start as I begin to wash my face, "I may have got wasted after my mission last night, can you blame me though I had to go back there" I say as I begin to think about last night I went back to my home town to track down my target, I also got back some info on my mom, apparently, she went back to her home town in Mexico and got married to some rich jerk, big surprise there she always was a money-grabbing whore, now I'm not gonna say I was upset but I was annoyed that she was still alive I thought that her dead tracks meant she was well... Dead but no luck, every time I come close to getting near her she crawls back into her hole then a couple of months crawls back out to taunt me, bitch.
"I know it's hard Lil but you gotta move forward you can't just focus on her you gotta stop trying to get revenge or it will kill you,'' Matteo says as he begins to tear up, Jesus why you gotta be so emotional bro?
"Hey, hey I'm okay I just got a little annoyed at the info I was given and had a few too many stiff ones, I promise I'm not gonna disappear again," I said as I dried my face and walked over to him.
"I know but Lilith you don't know what that was like last time we were all so worried we didn't know where you were it was heartbreaking, you were gone for months!" he said as he sat on my bed.
"I know Matteo I didn't mean to hurt you guys I just needed to be alone, I had just given up on looking for my dad and I was hurting more than ever to know that I will never find my father whoever he may be," I said as I put my hand on his shoulder in attempts to calm him, maybe I should tell him? One day but not today.
"I know, I just thought you might do it again, I mean this is the same situation except it's your mom"
"No! No it's not, I hate my mom I want her dead but I wanted to meet my father they are two very different things" I reason with him, they can't be the same because in that case, I would feel the burn in my chest as my heart breaks but instead, I just got infuriated as my desire to kill her grew.
"Okay, I get it you're okay then let's go get some lunch because you've got a mission tonight, surprise!" he says with fake enthusiasm probably in hopes that I won't get mad at him for springing it on me.
"Ughhh what now Matt you couldn't have told me sooner so I would have not...I don't know? Not get drunk!" I exclaimed as I dragged my feet to the stairs.
"I know lily, I know I was asked if you were available tonight last night and I and Sam were a little busy so I just said yes and didn't remember about it till this morning when I got sent the info," he said as he caught up with me and showed me his phone.
I take it from him and my jaw drops, 35 million for one job, what in god's name?! I continue to read further.
" tonight 8:30 at our shipment docks in the US, you will meet our tech guy who goes by whistler he will take you to a Russian club in the city all you need to do is charm the man there called Dmitri Ivanov he is one of the Russian capo's and shouldn't take too much persuasion, take his phone from him give it to whistler and kill Dmitri, once complete you will be paid in full, don't be late"
"Oh god matt what did you get me involved with? which mafia are we dealing with?"
"The Italians," he says with his eyes to the floor in shame he knows I don't do jobs for the mafias.
"I don't blame you '' I say, taking us both by surprise. "You don't, oh god I could have sworn you were gonna kill me," he says nervously as we both reach the bottom of the stairs.
I giggle wtf is up with me being nice?! And wait, I giggled?! Did I take crack or something last night cause I don't fucking giggle!
"I could never kill you, Matteo, you know all my secrets and are my best friend, plus Sam would kill me for killing his snuggle bear," I tease.
He rolls his eyes and hugs me " thank you lily I know you don't do these jobs and I promise I won't mess up again"
I mumble an okay as I pull apart from the hug and walk into the kitchen and am greeted by Simon shoving aspirin, water, and pancakes my way as I sit at the counter.
"Morning," he says in an amused way but I ignore it.
"You are the best si I can't believe you made me breakfast you're amazing I swear" I give him a high five and he laughs.
"What?" I question if he isn't usually this happy. Oh no, what did I do last night!
"So you really don't remember?" he questions as he leans on the bench next to me.
"Ooh, is there tea? do tell Simon no need to keep it to yourself" Matteo says as he claps his hands and walks over to the coffee maker.
"Why should I tell you when I can show you guys?" he says as I walk around the bench and reach towards my shoulder.
"What are you doing simo-ahhh, what the fuck man what was that?" I question as I push his hand off my shoulder in an attempt to ease the pain.
Simon starts to giggle and I stare at him with furrowed eyebrows, what on earth.
"You still don't remember, Jesus lily you must have been more pissed than I thought," he says after his laughs die down.
Then it hit me, after the bar, I went to a tattoo parlor and got...
"Oh god no please no, just no it can't be?!" I scream as I pull my hoodie over my head so I'm just in my sports bra.
And there it is a giant tattoo that will ensure I can never go undercover without some serious cover-ups.
A giant raven is situated on my shoulder and from as far as I can see a pocket watch? I get the raven but why the- I don't even care.
I stand up and run to the mirror so I can get a good look at it.
Great now my job is 100 times harder, I get angry and punch the mirror how could I be so stupid.
"Hey, lily calm down it's okay it's not that bad it isn't exactly perfect but unless they know about you they won't even guess" Matteo tries to calm me down as Simon begins to pull me away from the mirror.
"Don't lie to me Matteo I'm not stupid!" I say pulling my walls up.
As Simon begins to bandage my hand he looks into my eyes in search of my emotions so I let my guard down and show him, he must have seen my regret and self-hatred because he then begins to talk.
"lilith I'm gonna be straight with you, first of I'm sorry I laughed I didn't know you had got a raven tattoo never mind a red raven I just saw the pocket watch part, hence my laughter and I know you're beating yourself up right now but don't be, if anything it just shows your not scared and feel you no longer need a cover." he reasons and as he talks my frown is replaced with a small smile.
"Yeah he's right plus it isn't like this is your first tattoo now is it?" Matteo says as he kisses my forehead.
He isn't wrong I've got seven so far but I definitely want more I've got that raven, then I've got a wolf on my wrist, my medusa on my right srm , my hand tat on my left, my angel, guns and rose petals on my waist, and finally the symbol from my dad's bracelet on my collarbone, I don't know why I did that I did it when I found out I was at a dead-end, I couldn't find any information about him so I got the next best thing a constant reminder.
idiotic? Maybe, do I care? Nope!
"Yeah you guys are right those who don't know of me will never guess and those that do will be no better than to mess with me anyways, I love you guys, where's cara?"
"She's in her room upstairs on her laptop upstairs no doubt with her headphones in getting into somewhere she shouldn't be, anyways you need to eat up it's nearly 3 pm, Jesus we talked for a while!" Matteo replies as he looks at his watch with his eyebrows reaching the roof.