Growing up Lilith's life from a young age was driven by her desire to complete her three aims in life; to earn enough money to survive, to run from her mother's hatred, and to find her father.
But each of these aims all came with its own challenges;...
We've hit Double digits!! ——————————————————— Waking up feeling pissed off i go to the bathroom shower and do my normal routine then go downstairs to get breakfast everyones eating breakfast already, they try to talk to me but i ignore them and grab a cup of coffee and a banana and walk outside into the garden of our house, i sit on the bench in the bandstand and try to prepare myself for the day ahead of myself. I eat my banana and drink my coffee in silence then run my hand through my hair pulling at the roots. "I know you don't want to do this lil, we can always cancel but just know i know why your scared, they won't be there i promise" matteo says as he walks from behind me and hugs me i dont hug him back "i'm not scared of them tteo, i'm a grown woman and i need to do this for me" i say pushing him back slightly, my walls are up today no one can get them down not til the day is gone at least. "Okay babe i get that and if that's what you want then we'll do it but if i see them i WILL kill them okay, i don't care what come in my way" he says kissing my forehead then grabbing my hand and walking me back inside ---------------------------------------------------------- It's now 2pm and the ball starts at 4pm giving us two hours to get ready cara tried convincing me to get ready sooner but i ignored her pleads and waited, i decided on getting ready alone the guys understand why as they were all there the last time they came for me, they know why i hate the mafia so much why it makes me sick to the stomach when thinking of being in a room with them all day and they know that that is why my walls are so high today. Once I get out of the shower I see Cara sitting on my bed, "what can i do for you C'' i say emotionlessly she winces at my tone and turns so i can see her, she was in her dress with her hair curled, she was the image of perfection. "Well...um..I was wondering if you would do my makeup for me. I've been trying to do my eyeliner for ten minutes and it doesn't look right please?" she says looking nervous probably due to my cold exterior today, "of course just let me get my dressing gown on" i then get my dressing gown on and finish her nearly complete makeup, i set her face with spray and powder, "okay done" i say then immediately begin to get ready,"thank you lil and happy real birthday by the way" she says smiling but i just nod at her and get dressed. ------------------------------------------------------ It's been an hour and i'm just about.........done! I put my brushes down and apply my deep red lipstick completing my look, perfect. I grab my clutch i received from matteo for my birthday and tie the daggers from cara on my thigh even though they are visible to others, i stand up and look at myself in the mirror, i look beautiful i must admit i look almost regal if someone handed me a crown i would look born to wear it however i feel like something is missing so i grab my fathers bangle and smile as i see my outfit complete. I grab my glass of whiskey from my side table and down the contents enjoying the fire it causes to erupt in my stomach, i give myself a once over and smirk at my reflection time to intimidate lots of nobodies. (her outfit)
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I walk downstairs and see everyone ready and smiling causing my cold exterior to fall smiling back "wow you all look amazing, we all match as well" matteo is wearing a red tie and simon is wearing a red vest matching caras red dress i laugh almost causing them to be taken back at my sudden burst of emotion, "oh my god lilith you look breathtaking let me tell you girl if i was straight i wou-" matteo says but is thankfully cut of by simon. "Okay okay thats enough of that, yes you do look stunning princess and i see you are wearing all of your gifts on display tonight" he says wit a gleam in his eye taking in my tattoo, the pride radiates of him of his work and honest he deserves it,this might just be my favorite tattoo. "Yes I am , after all they are my favorite things from my favorite people but we need to leave now it takes 45 minutes to get to the location" I say walking towards the door putting my walls all the way back up. During the ride in our limo I didn't speak to anyone ,they allowed me to keep to myself knowing my walls would fall once I knew they weren't here, I couldn't allow myself to be vulnerable not for a second. Once we arrive we all step out of the limo and the paparazzi immediately begin bombarding us with questions taking pictures of us but we don't all them to affect us we walk past them without even blinking once we enter i see we are in a waiting area the main doors to the party locked, i scan the room for their faces and once i see they're not here i nod towards matteo and he nods back acknowledging my secret message, we continue to walk ignoring all of the eyes on us women looking lustfully at simon and matteo and men looking lustfully and me and cara also, people trembling as they feel the power radiation from me causing me to raise my head higher,once i find the bar matteo orders my drink knowing i will only speak once i see the irish mafia leader whom i have never met but now knowing my father was a member i feel as though i need to learn of their business hopeful i can learn about him, the bartender places my glass on the counter with a shaky hand avoiding eye contact causing a sick smile to form on my face, poor boy, i down the content of the glass and tap it signaling for a refill he catches on to my meaning and fills the glass but before me can put the bottle back i raise my hand "leave it" i say and he quivers and nods "yes ma'am" he whimpers out , i shake my head at is stupidity, poor man child. After about three more drinks i decide to do another sweep feeling as though something is going to happen but when i look around the room i catch a pair of grey eyes, how the fuck is he here? only high members of the mafia are here and well established assassins and dear satan what is he wearing??
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he is wearing a all black suit with siver chains hanging from his chest pocket and tie looking like a damn wett dream casing me to push my thighs together hoping to dull the ake i bite my lip and close my eyes and pull my walls backup, i turn to cara and whisper 'toliets' and she nods and we find them and open the door, once i step inside everyone looks at me with wide eyes and quickly leaves, i wait til there all gone and put one of the chaise lounges against the door and sit down "okay so they arent there but some guy i keep bumping into is here and god damncara hes so fucking hot i just needed to escape from him, shit i think i might call xavier" i say grabbing my phone after my little ramble "i think the fuck not!" she screams as she grabs my phone, "he's toxic and we all know he's not that good in bed. just try for me will you,try to have a conversation with someone you actually want to get to know please" she basically begs as she puts my phone in her bra, "fine i'll give him one conversation but i tell you i am fucking xavier tonight and you can't stop me its a birthday present from me" i say with a wink causing us both to laugh, "fine whatever let's get back out there" she says then pulls me up from the seat and we put the chair back and walk back into the room causing all eyes to fall back on me when all of a sudden the doors open at the other end of the room slowly people start entering the room and having their name announced. I pay no attention and walk to the bar and tab the counter and the bartender grabs me a glass and the bottle i had before "goodboy" i mutter before downing half a glass full then serving myself again and walking back to the guys just as they were about to be announced, we walk through the door and before we ascend the stairs matteo tells the man at the door our names ''The Red Raven and her trusted associates her Crows!"' he shouts causing many gasps and inadiable mutters as all eyes widen as they see us descending the stairs with our heads high as i sip my whiskey, once i reach the bottom of the stairs i glare at those who look at me causing them to wince and look away but when i look around the room i drop my glass as my eyes widen casing the eyes to fall on me once again. Pictures of me as a child are all around the room, pictures of birds and wolves are around the room as well as red balloons ''what the fuck!'' I shout, causing everyone's eyes to divert from me, probably sensing the tension radiation from me, "IS THIS SOME TYPE OF JOKE? WHO DARES TO DISRESPECT ME IN THIS WAY?!" I shout grabbing the attention of everyone in the room,silence falls on the room until someone speaks up "whats all the commotion here lilith what seems to be the issue" i hear from behind me Luke, "ARE YOU JOKING?! WHAT SEEMS TO BE THE ISSUE? MY PHOTOS ARE ON THE WALL, HOW DARE YOU AND WHERE DID YOU GET THESE FROM!'' I scream and his eyes widen and tears form in his eyes, "do not dare cry boy! What a fucken birthday! I knew i shouldnt have entertained your idea of an alliance!" i sign and nod towards my guys and begin to walk towards the stairs when someone walks through the doors at the top of the stairs not noticing us, he has ginger hair, a ginger beard and sad green eyes and a small smile on his face as he opens his arms ''thank you all for coming here, as you all know this is my lost daughters annual birthday party even though she's not here we use this day to spread awareness or her kidnapping in hopes of bringing her home another day so today whilst celebrating try to talk to your associates about my li-" but he stops talking, his smile falls and his eyes widen when he sees me and my group at the bottom of the stairs, tears fall from his eyes and he falls to his knees ''LILITH?!" he cried and i furrow my brow "how do you know my name i only tell those i trust" i say looking into his eyes with my mask tightly secure hiding my confusion, "my child do you not recognise me? i know i have aged but surely not that much'' he says and when he finishes my eyes widen and i step back "james?" I question and I see the hurt flash through his eyes as he nodded and I start to panic, he's my dad, he's not dead, no this isn't possible I would know surely?? Before I know it I've bolted from the hall into a toilet and am staring into my reflection as a single tear escapes. Is my father alive? ——————————————————- Oooh!! It's all kicking off isn't it?! What do you thinks going to happen next? Do you think she'll run or face the fight? Who's this Xavier and who's the mystery man? Guess we'll have to wait for that one! Thank you for reading and have a great day! 🖤♥️🖤
