Red Raven

21) I might just go psycho

⚠️TRIGGER WARING⚠️
Mentions of self harm and cutting, please of your triggered by this please think before you read. Reading a book is not worth loosing your progress over 🖤
Also a pretty graphic description of torture because some people are just evil
⚠️=Warning
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A/N GUESS WHAT? I'm not dead! Hi everyone sorry I've been gone for forever, life has been....busy to say the least! Anyways here's a chapter for you and I hope you love it! If you see any problems then send me a message or leave a comment so I can fix that up! Have fun! 🖤
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⚠️Flashback⚠️
I stand in my dorm room at the academy staring at the box on my bed, they've sent another gift but I can't open it, I know whatever it is will hurt me but I'm to scared to face it.
I shake my head and walk towards it, the pink box with white ribbons sits intimidating me, I place my hand over the ribbon and pull, slowly the ribbon falls and I pull the lid from the box, the walls fall along with the box and I look down and see a small blue dress, the same dress they forced on me when I was seven and first met Grigori, I was drugged so I don't remember all of it but I remember the hands touching me, the laughs of those around me and the sting of my cheek whenever I protested anything, that was the first day my mother watched me cry as a man touched me and forced me to do things I didn't want to do, things a child should NEVER do.
I begin to gasp for air as I feel the tears rushing down my face, that was the day I worked out that she doesn't love me, the day I realized that no matter what she will never be my mother she will always be Victoria.
I walk into my bathroom and stare at myself "why are you so fucking weak huh? You know what their doing, you knew what they were doing what she was doing but you just let them, you just let her use you are profit from your abuse, your pathetic!" I shout the last part as I punch the counter , my eye is caught by the shiny metal of my golden knife, gifted to me by Simon, a boy I met a few months ago, I pick up the knife and twirl it in between my hands "well you would be so pathetic if you just took away what there all after would you? If you just left so there's no more prize" I glide the knife over my scar on my stomach "maybe there all right maybe I'm just a useless slut and I should just own it" I take the knife and place it over my wrist "but no I can't even do that" I dig the knife into my wrist and drag, I feel the sting the relief the air floating back into my lungs but it's not enough, I ignore the blood already dripping on the floor and drag the knife further, I pull it out and drag it from the top to the bottom once more "pathetic slut"I mutter as I go to do the same thing again I'm interrupted by a knocking at my door.
Shit! No! No one can find out about this, not again matteo will be so disappointed and Simon will be so hurt, I drop the knife and rush into the bathroom and grab a T-shirt out of my laundary basket, I run to the door "hello? One second" I open the door just a crack so they can only see my face, I see miss moon standing there, my combat trainer, the woman who has made my time at the Academy worth while and actually educational is standing there shît!
"Hi lilith I was if your okay, I saw how out of it you were during your break and then I saw the gang without you, they said you weren't very well so I thought I would come and check on you, is there I can get for you?" She asks with a smile, her dimples popping inwards , I shake my head "thank you miss moon, no I'm okay just a cold hopefully it's just one of those 24 hour ones you know" she smile "of course love well yo-" she stops mid sentence her smile falls from her face and she stares at the floor, I follow her line of vision and see the pool of blood next t one on the floor "Lilith please say you didn't do something again"I panic and begging to loosen my hold on my arm, the blood begins to quicken its pace but I can't seam to care , no I'm so fucked and I can't breath!
⚠️Flashback over⚠️
I feel my whole body buzz as the serum pulses around my body, my eyes shoot open and I turn over and grab the box next to me, I sit up and open it up, I go through all of the files seeing all the monsters who tormented the innocent, the murders who broke apart families, the pathetic excuses of men who raped hundreds and feel my body shine of anger and pride because thanks to me these disgusting humans are dead, burned alive or stabbed to death however it may be they are no more.
My eyes connect with my mothers name on the file I forgot I had placed in here, I see images of her, the scars she inflicted on me, the memorabilia of her torture and the effect she had on me and I scream, I grab my glass of water and throw it at the window "TIMES UP VICKY?!" I scream but my attention is grabbed by Matteos phone in the box blowing up with notifications but I don't want to harm them, they could be innocent, in for the money not for the blood no today I need the worst of the worst those who deserve the pain I long to inflict, I jump in the bathroom brush my teeth and wash my body in the bath, I tie my hair up as it's now wet I put on the leather jumpsuit and I put my weapons belt on, I pick up the box after placing everything back inside and open the door "the offers weren't good enough I need phedophiles, murders, enslavers, rapists anything stat because tonight ladies and gents there will be a blood bath!" I say walking past everyone but stop at tteo and pass him the box back "I appreciate that one tteo thanks, now let's get moving because if not I fear I will hurt someone I care for!" I say and he nods, I walk over to his car and start the engine but just before I'm about to drive away I open the window and shout to the gang who have followed us to the parking lot "I should have cooled down in a hour, meet me at our house and I'll explain, sorry for being rude but I'm more than raging right now, ciao!" I say then I speed us away, I hear tteo mutter something under his breath but I'm too aggravated right now to care, Satan I've got your next order and it's ready to be collected.
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⚠️Torture⚠️
I open the file of my tenth victim and look at him as he sits there tied to the chair "so Calum you thought it was okay to sell 15 girls to be sex slaves did you?! What type of fucking human is so disgusting they would subject not only anyone but children to be raped on the daily?! No one that's who because humans don't do that shit, no monsters do and when monsters are caught they are killed and that's what I plan for you!" I scream in his face and he begins to laugh "oh yeah? What you going to do pudding because from where I'm sitting it looks like some little girls having a tantrum that's all" he says whilst laughing, I join in and he stops and looks at me with fear on his eyes, I punch him in the jaw "yeah your right I am, but I don't just throw my bottle i through fucking knifes pal!" I say whilst smiling he stills with fear but I roll my eyes "okay im bored now" I say and I cut off his ear , he screams and I breath in the sound smiling at its perfect melody, I cut of the other, then proceed to cut of his dick because although he didn't rape anyone, he sent those poor children to be raped that makes him just as bad, I chop up this dick in sushi like bites then force then down his throat, he chokes on his dick and I laugh at him, I grab the bucket from underneath him and pour all of his hot blood over him, his screams are silenced by him choking on his own blood, for the final blow I calve out his heart and throw it on the floor "perfect, now his body matches his insides.... He doesn't listen to their cry's.....he sends them to rapists......his mouth is full of useless shit......and he is heartless" I say to myself and walk over to the fire grab the stamp and burn it onto his body.
⚠️End of torture⚠️
I open the door and walk over to matteo "all of the children on sight are in the van waiting to be sent wherever" I nod and walk outside to the van I wipe the blood of my face as best as I can and open the door, they all remain pin drop silent but I can see the tears wet on there faces "hello children my name is Lilith and me and my friend here and here to save you, now I can send you to the police station so your family's can be contacted, or I can find a family for you also those who are over the age of 13 can stay with me however if so I need to be told ASAP as there would be a few thing we have to go over but of course it all your choice" I say and they look at me like an angel but I'm far from that, seven of the children asked me to contact their family's, four asked to find them a family and two of them asked to stay with me, there is also a pair of twin toddlers who I have yet to decide upon, I take the two young girls who want to stay to the side "okay well before we go any further, I'm the boss of the German mafia so if you stay with me you would be living in the group house, I understand you might not want to due to whatever you may have lived through so I can make arrangements if that is the case, if you chose to stay with me I will find you a family from my gang and contact them asking if they want to take either of you in, you will have the option to stay with them or just have a guardian who will take you through basic training and protect you until you reach eighteen after that you will be able to decide if you wish to stay here or leave the options are always open" I say and they begin to cry, the blonde young girl hugs my stomach and I tense but calm as soon as I feel the other brown haired girl attach herself to me as well I stroke there backs "your safe now girls I promise, can you tell me your names?" The blonde girl looks at me "I'm Amy" and the brown haired girl "I'm Lisa" I nod "hello Amy and Lisa let's take you and the girls back to my house"
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We pull up outside of my house and I open the doors to the back of the van, I'm met with lots of smiling faces "that's definitely an upgrade to the reaction before" I giggle and watch as the girls all hop out I stay beside the door as I see the twins ivy and blossom running towards us , I pick up ivy and tteo picks up blossom "let's go girls!" I say as we walk towards the door, tteo walks slowly making sure none of the girls get lost or hurt themselves on the way and I walk in front to ensure everyone's safety.
I let everyone inside and walk to the living room bouncing ivy on my hip "hey pretty girl are we going to find your mama huh? Yes we are because you ivy deserve the world" I say and she giggle, I tickle her side and she laughs louder and louder "hey your back I was wondering what that-wow what did you do Lilith?" Dad says sounding concerned oh god there all here "it doesn't matter what I did give me five minutes please" I turn to lol at tteo and take blossom from his hold and put her on my hip "tteo can you go get si and cara for me we're gonna need help" he nods and runs of, dad comes over and takes ivy from my hip "well hello sweet heart arnt you an angel?" I laugh at his silliness, I turn to all of the other girls "hey girls can you please all do something for me?" They all nod, I walk around the corner and find my Polaroid camera perfect! "Will you let me take a picture of you and tell me your names please?" They all nod "perfect, from youngest to oldest" I take a picture of ivy and dads arms and dad takes a picture of blossom in mine, we write there names on there pictures then I place them both in dads hands "can you go lay them down on my bed for a minute please?, it's in the third floor second room to the right" "no problem angel I'll be back in a moment" I nodded and turned around and saw all the other girls looking at me nervously "hey matteo said you needed us" I saw cara and Simon come out of the theatre room down the hall "oh yeah I need help taking pictures of all these little princesses first" I said and Simon smiled "perfect who's next" he takes the camera out of my hands and I walk over to the stock cupboard and pulled out two more, I handed one to Cara and we took pictures of all the girls and collected there names "perfect! Okay now cara do you mind taking the girls to the spare rooms, one each and giving them any hygiene products they need" "got it lil I'll just go get some shower stuff from the basement" I nodded and turned to Simon "do you mind getting me fifteen outfits from sizes 2years through 12 women's please I just want them to feel comfortable you know?" I asked si "of course I'll make sure to get them some shorts and T-shirt's too, so they can sleep comfortably, I'll be back up in a minute" he then walked down just as cara was walking up "okay girlies let's get you all settled in for the night" cara said and held a little girls hand as she walked them to their rooms "hey princess why do you have a floor full of spare rooms and shops full of clothes and other necessities?" Coco asked I smiled "hey Connor" I hugged him " well you see it's my job as an assassin to take down bad people but I quickly realized that no one ever takes care of their victims, soo instead of ignoring it or just sending them to the useless police I decided to cater for as many people I can, I actually have more spare rooms downstairs and a few upstairs just in case and I have clothes in sizes newborn through to 2XL in men's and women's because everyone should be cared for, no one should be left alone" I say and cocos eyes pop out "Lilith that is so kind, how many times have you done this?" I smile again "ummm I don't actually know many sixteen or seventeen times I don't know" he nods with his eyebrows at his hairline "now I have to go and make sure these little stars have caring homes to go to" I say and walk over or matteo, who was sorting the girls in groups (stay, go, home) "okay I'll take the home group, you take the go group and I'll do Amy, you do Lisa" "got it lil" I kiss his forehead and walk in my office and get to work
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Half an hour later I'm finished, it turns out two of the girls who opted to go home actually don't have a family anymore, there siblings and have no more living relatives so I looked for a family instead I found one and have printed off all the information, I tap all my papers straight and staple them together going from oldest to youngest, I hear a knock on my door and see Caras head pop over the door a smile on her face "hi lily they all had a shower, have changed clothes and are in the living room playing with the toys from the storage cupboard" I smile "let's go then, I'll cook dinner then they can all go of to sleep" she nods and I follow her into the living room and the sight nearly brights tears to my eyes , all the girls look so happy, their all dressed in colourful clothes, have their hair done and have big smiles on there faces, some are eating snacks others are playing with their toys together and the little girls ivy and blossom are in Christians arms, he looks over the moon a big smile on his face as he ticked their bellies and ... wait he looks so familiar like I've seen those eyes somewhere else, his dimples look like the boy from my flashback and the scar WAIT THE SCAR he said the girl was called Phoenix DAD SAID I WENT BY MY MIDDLE NAME FOR SAFETY THAT COULD BE ME?! IS HE MARCO?!
"Hey lil are you okay you look like you just saw a ghost?" Cara says putting her hand on my shoulder shaking me from my little heart attack, I continue to stare at Christian and he looks up to me and his eyes meet mine his brows scrunch and he frowns "baby girl what's wrong?" I bite my lip, if I call him Marco it can go two ways he will look at me like I'm a weirdo or freak out because I know that name. Ooooh I could call him marshmallow and if it's not him I can just say we should make s'mores! That's a lot less weird then just coming straight out with it , okay here goes nothing "oh nothing marshmallow I just missed you" I say and he smiles then it hits him, he looks hurt then confused then sad "wait did you just call me marshmallow?! why would you call me-"he stands up putting the girls on the play mat looking confused and starstruck "Mia Regina" he says tears streaming down his face, I smile and nod "oh thank god it's you I though I was seeing things, thinking you were her, everytime you giggled or strunched your nose it was like I was staring at an old memory" he walks over and pulls me into a hug my heart beats in my chest a million a minute, all the memories of us playing, us sneaking away, us being together came crashing back when he strokes my back it was like I was hit with a bullet I ricochet and gasp "I-I remember everything, every day I spent with you, I remember the day we first met, I shook you awake when you feel asleep at lunch and we're all alone in the dinner hall, you asked if you were still asleep because you had never saw a real life angel I told you I wasn't an angel but the devil in disguise and you told me that it was even better because your papa said the devil knows how to have fun" I pause and wipe away one of his stray tears "I also remember the last time I saw you, I told you everything about my mother and you told me about your issue and we told each other we would run away together, you told me you would marry me in a church in Sicily and would have millions of babies with me, I said yes but that day never happened because my mother...took me away from everyone, from you from my best friend" I said and he leaned his forehead against mine "baby girl I never thought I would ever see you again" he said sounding defeated and rejoiced at the same time "I've got you" I say as I hug him with my full force "O-oh my g-ood that was so beautiful, my heart is about to explode and I'm also about to be sick at the same time, it was perfect!" Guess who said that? Nope your wrong and so was I, it was Lucy oh and he's crying , I turned around and saw all the kids watching us smiling and my family sitting there smiling wiping away their tears "oh god I'm sorry guys that was so mushy and cute I didn't mean to make you feel awkward or anything I'm sorry!" I say hiding my face in my hands and Chris snakes his hands around my waist "I'm not sorry! Not one bit I've got Mia Regina back and I currently feel like I've won the lottery so if you don't like it then oh well" I smack his shoulder "Umm no if they don't like it your going to have an issue because them right there are my family and if Simon or Lucy or dad or anyone there don't like this then we're going to have to make them like it!" I say and scolding him "don't worry angel I love this, I actually am over the moon that you and Christian have history because otherwise the infatuation he has with you would be extremely weird! Oh also I'm so happy that you found little Marco again even if he's not so little anymore because you two we're inseparable as children" dad says and walks over and hugs us both Chris and me stand there mouth open and eyes wide "oh calm down, I know I've been a bit dramatic with everything but I'm happy for you!" Dad says and I smile I jump on him and hug him "it's so nice to have a dad, I've dreamed of this my whole life thank you dad thank you" I whisper and he strokes my hair "I've dreamed of this too angel and although it hasn't been as pretty as it should have been for you, your happiness is my main priority" I look up to him and jump down "Is breá liom tú daidí" I say hugging him again.
(I love you dad)
I feel droplets on my hair , I look up and see my dad with tears streaming down his face "Is breá liom tú ró-aingeal" he says with a smile on his face
(I love you too angel)
"Oh go okay enough tears and life changing events okay! I'm hungry let's get food now! Please" says matteo wiping away his tears, I turn to him and do the same "I can't be bothered to cook anymore" I turn to the kids and crouch down "who wants McDonald's?" I ask and they all chear, I kiss the closest little girls forehead and stood up "okay then dad can you order, coco can you put on a movie and brenny and Lucy can you help me with something please and thank you?" I ask "of course sweetie" dad says "on it sis" coco says "of course sis" Lucy says and brenny agrees "okay come on then" I then walk back into my office and hand them both the pictures of the girls "can you both please take pictures of these and put them on the respective tablets, which are on the doors to all the rooms, it makes it easier for the kids to track what room there in" I say and Lucy smiles "that's so cute, of course" I smile back "wait how are we going to know which rooms are which" Brendan asks "well I'm sure cara will help you" I say and they smile "okay we won't take to long" "okay well I'll be in here with tteo" they nod and I walk back into the living room and see tteo "hey tteo can you help me please?" I ask and he puts down ivy and walks over "course lil what is it?" I walk back into my office "well in my flashback I remember the son of Grigori was called victor and I was wondering if we could use him to track his father" I say and he tenses at hearing Grigoris name, I don't blame him I hate the man too, "are you sure you want to do this today? Your having such a good day?" I smile lightly "I know but I need to do it now, when his face is still fresh in my mind" I say and we sit down and do some research.
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Half an hour later and still nothing, we continue our search until we hear a knock on the door, "come in" I say and I see Lucy and brenny "all done sis!" Brendan says "okay thank you, we should stop now anyways otherwise we'll be here all night" I say and we all go into the living room and see all the kids in a makeshift pillow fort watching frozen all enchanted in the screen, I go and sit on the sofa next to my dad "hey dad everything going all right?" I ask and he hugs into me "of course my angel I ordered the McDonald's, the girls gave me their Order and cara told me to order you a nugget meal, we put the movie on and the girls have been angels, I gave them some cucumber sticks until dinner arrives which should be in 10 minutes and that's literally it" i look up to my dad and smile feeling a sudden wash of sadness hit me "thank you dad, it's moments like this when I think of how my life could be if I haven't been taken from you all those years ago, I missed you so much dad" I say looking away letting a tear fall from my eye "hey angel, no tears I understand you feel you lost something but I will always be here for you, no matter if it's over a decade to late" he says wiping my tear away.
Once food arrived we ate our McDonald's watched the movie then one by one we put the girls to bed, "okay now do you want the light on or off sweetie?" I ask Chloe who is nine she sits up in her bed "ummm can you turn it off please but leave the nightlight on, I'm a little scared" I walk over and sit on the foot of her bed "Chloe you know there is nothing that can hurt you here and soon enough you will be with your mama and papa" I say looking at her with empathy "no one will ever hurt you again I promise" suddenly she jumps up and hugs me i immediately embrace her back "T-thank you Lilith no o-one has ever been this kind to me" I stroke her back "Chloe I promise you once you get back home you will get treat like the princess you are I have no doubt in that my love" she pulls away "do you pinky swear?" She says as she pulls out her pinky finger and pouts, I smile and grasp her pinky with mine "I pinky swear" a gigantic smile blesses her face "okay then I have to go to sleep so I can meet my mama and papa faster!" She cheers as she jumps back under the covers, "yes you do!"I walk over and tuck her in end turn on the night light next to her bed "goodnight darling" I say as I walk towards the door and turn to her before I close the door "goodnight Lilith" I smile to her and close the door but not fully, I turn around and immediately two tattooed hands snake around my waist I turn around and see Christian "hello mi Regina" he says as he dips his head between my shoulder and my neck "hello marshmallow" I giggle a little bit and turn around fully "so is that everything done for tonight?" I smile up to him "sort of why?" He furrows his eyebrows "because I wanted you to sleep in my arms, what do you mean sort of?" I frown slightly and pull away "weeeell unfortunately that will have to be a no,it's there first night out of that torture house so nightmares are to be expected meaning I'm staying up to comfort any or all of those angels tonight" he smiles at me "not you baby girl we, I have been away from you far too long" I smile back and kiss his cheek "okay I'll make the cookies you can make the coca just in case" he holds my hand "I would t have it any other way" and we walk downstairs in preparation of any bad dreams.
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Well I hope you enjoyed it and again I'm sorry I've been gone forever but hopefully things will get better now! Love you all and I hope to hear from you 🖤
Thank you for reading🖤