Growing up Lilith's life from a young age was driven by her desire to complete her three aims in life; to earn enough money to survive, to run from her mother's hatred, and to find her father.
But each of these aims all came with its own challenges;...
Hi guys!! Sorry I took so long, these exams are killing me! Anyways I hope you enjoy!🖤 ——————————————————— ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ Flashbacks: age two Today dada picked me up from school, i love when dad picks me up because we always have fun but i know he is busy so he can't always pick me up, after he picked me up when sung disney songs in the car then when we got home he told me to go pick out my favorite dress because we were having a princess tea party, i ran upstairs as fast as i could and found my red sparkly dress, red is my favorite colour but that isn't why this is my favorite dress,its my favorite dress because dada picked it out for me. Once I put on my dress I picked a tiara for me and dada then put on some of my heels. I LOVE playing princesses. I feel so special!
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When I got down the stairs , Dada had put sandwiches, cupcakes and chocolate strawberries on my little tea party table, "wow dada it looks amazing thank you so much!" I say jumping and clapping, causing dada to laugh and walk over to me and kiss my forehead " im happy you like it princess, you deserve to world" dada says as he fixes my crown, "oh dada i nearly forgot here's your crown!" i say as i reach up to his head trying to put it on but can't because guess what MY DAD IS A GIANT! Yup I know it's so unfair I'm tiny and he has to duck when he gets in the car! so unfair, dada ducks down so i can put the crown on his head then smiles "thank you princess lilith now we both look like princesses, shall we?" he says as he pulls my chair out. We talk and eat and dad's friends that always here pretend to be our servants and do silly things i ask them to do, like i asked dada's friend elliot to let me do his face paint and he said yes! Later on we watch ' the little mermaid' my favourite movie as we eat chocolate ice cream, i must have fell asleep because later on when i heard a big bang and woke up i was in bed wearing my pyjamas, i hop out of bed to see what is wrong i see mama sitting in the corner of my room with a bottle of the spicy juice dada keeps in his cellar, "mama you scared me can you cuddle me to sleep please!" i ask but when mama hears me she laughs and stands up then walks over to me very fast then pulls my hair so im looking at her properly, i cry out but she puts her hand over my mouth " shut up brat, god you always want something don't you, if it wasn't for you your dad might pay me some attention but no all he ever does is work and spend his day with his precious 'princess' but that's not fair i used to be his world but no he cares more for an attention seeking selfish bitch, god i knew you would be a mistake!" she says through her teeth almost a whisper i begin crying then she slaps me making me cry even more,"mama i'm sorry did i do something wrong, i love you please forgive me!" I whimper as I try to soothe my cheek. "Yes you did, you brat, your alive still and that's enough now sleep oh and also if you tell your father about this I'll make you wish you were never born!" she grunts out causing my eyes to widen then she stumbles towards the door slamming it behind her. I wont tell dada because i know mama didn't mean it, she just had too much spicy juice, Next flashback: age three Mama hits me everyday for silly things, sometimes i don't even have to do anything she made me avoid dada and spend more time alone or with her or my cousins but i miss dada and he misses me too i know it, the last time mama allowed me to talk to dada properly was a few months after she started hitting me she told me she would stop hitting me if dad gave her another baby so she didn't have to be so disappointed in me, it hurt but i wanted a brother or sister to so i wasn't so alone, i asked dada and he seemed shocked but he said yes and we played for a little while then mama came in and told me it was bedtime she hit me that night for taking too long and i knew never to trust her again. But now mama is in hospital with dada uncle mark told me they were picking up my sibling but didn't explain anymore than this morning he got me dressed very fast and brushed my hair as i brushed my teeth because he said mama has had the baby when we got there mama and dada were smiling whilst looking over a little bed , i ran inside and dada smile grew as he looked at me but mama looked angry i ignored mama and went to dada "did you pick a baby yet can i meet them please?" i asked raising my eyebrows hoping i was allowed, dada laughed and ruffed my hair , then picked me up and kissed my cheek as he put me on his lap, "meet your brothers lucas and brendan'' dada say and when i see them both i smile and stroked their cheeks but my smile fell and i got scared "no dada their to small what if someone hurts them, you need to keep them somewhere safe until there big and strong!" I pleaded as I looked at them and a tear fell from my eye as I got scared. The only person I feared to hurt them was mama but I couldn't tell dad that mama would hurt me more, "oh no! Princess do not worry i will protect you and your sibling with my life you should never fear for anything like that i am always here!" he said as he wiped away my tear i nodded and kissed my brothers forehead, oh dada if only you knew, you can't protect us from anything worth fearing. Next flashback: age five Mother hates me more now, she ignores me except when she's hitting me or ordering me to do things, my cousin sam asked me why she treated me like her 'skivvy' i don't know what that means but i told him i like doing jobs for her because i love her and she does so much for me which was a massive lie but i got scared that he would tell his dada. No one sees the way mother treated me but they see how close me and my brothers are so when i tried to stop mother from hitting me and she hit lucy( my nickname for luke) dada was shocked and angry i don't blame him luke had a bruise on his cheek and it looked sore but what surprised me is dada didn't hit me, he's never hit me but i expected him to because mother always instead he told me that i was going to start boxing to focus my anger somewhere else and that we were going to spend more time as a family this made me very happy because i love spending time as a family because mother didn't hit me around dada and boxing sounded fun. I continued my life avoiding mother at the best i could until one day dada told me i was getting another brother he was very happy but that night when mother came to give me my beating she said that if he wasn't rich and making her famous she would runaway, i wish she would but i knew she would never make my life that easy. It's been a few months since then and now me lucy and brenny are at uncle Mark and auntie Else's house playing with our cousins; Sam, Elliot,Kyle,Thomas and Sean it was nice to play with children my own age because usually i'm with the twins or hiding away so people don't accidently see me limp or see my bruises because mother is VERY strong, but all of a sudden auntie Elce picks me up and spins me around as she squeals "lily it's time to meet your new brother are you excited?" she asks and puts me down i clap my hands and smile "yay lets go quick!" i say as i run towards the twins on their play mat and pick up lucy and place him in Else's hands as i pick up benny and walk towards the door, "not so fast princess you need to put your shoes and coat on and wait for everyone else to get ready speedy consolo!" Uncle Mark says as he laughs and picks Benny up out of my hands, I nod and run around and find my things. Once I'm ready i lookup and see everyone else ready. I jump into the car and look out the window as the world spins arounds up but the sun always follows us isn't he weird i think to myself but i was snapped out of my thoughts as uncle marks picks me up and puts me on the floor and i wait until everyone else is ready, uncle tells aunt to wait with the boys in the waiting room as we walk into the hospital room and i run in and look and see dada holding the baby and mother asleep in the bed, "hello princess would you like to meet your brother?" dada asks and i walk towards him and see a pair of bright green eyes staring back at me making me smile even bigger "what is he called dada?'' I ask not to move my eyes from the baby "we haven't named him yet. Lily, can you keep it down? I'm tired. '' My mother says and I jump a little not releasing her awake "yes sorry mother I didn't notice but..... Can I ..... No it doesn't matter ''I say hitting myself at my own silliness "no princess what were you going to say?" dada asks and i look at him and smile smally "i was going to ask... c-can i give him a name please?" I ask not to look away from him and he smiles "what do you think ronie do you think we should it would be nice just as long as she does name his prince poop head or something but you wouldn't would you princess?" and i laugh and shake my head "fine" mother says coldly and dada looks confused but smiles anyways "well princess what will it be?" he asks and i scrunch up my face thinking then a light bulb goes of in my head and i smile as i walk closer to dada and the baby "you pretty little baby will be called connor and i will always protect you" i whisper the last part as i kiss his forehead "that sounds perfect doesn't it my love" dada asks but i don't pay any attention to them as i stare at the tiny baby ' i will always protect you coco always' End of flashbacks ——————————————————— ⚠️Trigger warning over⚠️ I'm sorry if that upset anyone it was hard to write in itself however the next chapter won't be as dim! I hope you all enjoyed and if not please tell me what I can do to improve, I love criticism so feel free! Thank you for reading and have a fantastic day! 🖤
