Red Raven

16) Spilling secrets P.2

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"Xavier what the fuck are you doing here?" I shout whilst closing my eyes and rubbing my forehead "Sugar, I'm the capo of the Greek mafi now Can we please talk about yesterday?" He whispers the last part.
"There's nothing to talk about Xavier I remembered who I was and-" he interrupts me " no dont give me that shit you nearly said another mans name in bed with me who the fuck is this guy anyways to get in your head whilst we're fucking hmm?" He shouts
"don't you fucking raise your voice to me boy it has nothing to do with you! my business is my business not yours!" I shout back and forget where I am. I look around and see my family seething the gang pissed, he dared to speak to me like that al's fists are twitching and Carl.... Wait Carl " Carl what the fuck you doing here man?" I shout as I run over and jump into his arms "lil I'm the British capo, now you know why I'm here mind telling us why you're here with him, the German Don?" He asks as we pull away but before
I can speak Christian interrupts " yes baby girl I would love to have an explanation of everything that has just happened here" he says angrily damm he jealous haha piss of Chrissy.
"Well Chrissy I'm not with the German Don in standing here with the capo oh and also me and Xavier are fuck buddys does that answer sufise?" I reply smirking as I see he jealously bubble over but it is quickly covered by confusion.
Luke butts in thank god! "What do you mean capo we've been working together for the past two years?" He says looking towards all "well gents I regret to inform you that his position was only temporary!" I say whilst smiling and sitting down
"No that can't be right he's the Don he makes the rules" David says "no he doesn't sweetheart the Don does me!" I say getting pissed at these airheads and the room is filled with gasps except from Adrian the Greek mafia boss " don't speak like that to me child I know you have power as an assassin but German has a rule, no women steps into power unless-" I interrupt "unless the dons other half is the only surviving family, well I wasn't the Donna but I was his murderer and the mother of his child!" I say getting angry at this stupid prick "No that can't be true!" Matteo says "you would've told me if I was an uncle surely you would've told us your family!" He says as he begins crying " I'm a grandfather?!" Dad shouts "we're uncles?!" My brothers shout simultaneously and Chrissy just looks at me hurt and confused. I sigh and look over to my friends Cara, Carl, Simon and Matteo are all looking at me in disgust. I've never lied to them before and we all hate the mafia but me the most " ENOUGH!" I scream
"No I wasn't with Ubel let that be clear and no none of you are anything new let that be know also now will you let me explain?!"
They all nod and I stand up " al pass me a cigarette this ones gonna hurt!" I say as I turn to him , he nods and passes me his box and a lighter. Yes I know I shouldn't do it. I quit after I found out I was pregnant and haven't done it since but this one is gonna break me so why not!
I light it up and inhale feeling the calming burn and turn toward them " so when me and the guys got out of the academy I started my search for my father again I tracked down every 'Alan' in the world and hit a dead end, I know your wondering why I would search for Alan well that's what Victoria told me you were called anyways when I hit my dead end I got drunk like bad and I went to get my tattoo done and then when I walked outside I was surrounded by German soldiers I fought as well as I could but I was drunk I could fight then off" I rub my head " well it turns out that the German mafia and the Russians had an alliance and the Ubel sent for me to be kidnapped however when I got there he decided he wanted me instead to use as his toy .... He tortured me Daily but that didn't effect me, I enjoyed the pain and that pissed him off so one night he started a new torture routine he touched me, which also didn't effect me until he..... until he raped me, the first time hurt the most but after a while I became numb to it anyways a month later I escaped and ran I got to a bed and breakfast and stayed there but after a while I started feeling sick and fainted when I woke up in hospital I found out I was pregnant and I was raging!" I begin to pace "when I left the hospital I headed straight to his mansion I killed the first few guards and took their guns I killed everyone I saw and went straight to him, when I got there al was there he was the one who helped me run so I choose not to kill him however he did something he didn't expect" I turn to look at him " he helped me kill him, he stabbed him in the leg and held him down, I then took him apart piece by piece then shot him in between the eyes then tried to leave but then all those who remained kneeled before me , they told me I was there leader now and to be honest I didn't want it, I didn't want to be reminded of him everyday but I did I took it and made Aldrich my capo" I then look at the floor this bit is going to hurt " but I only stayed for five months I couldn't be around there any longer everywhere I looked I was reminded of him what he did to me so I ran I needed to find my family I wanted my baby girl to have a grandfather so that's what I did I ran away and stayed in every country for two weeks until I hit Italy..... I was there for a week doing my search on my father, doin small jobs here and there for the money but one night I got home and felt blood trickling down my leg" I pause and wipe the tear that has escaped " I rushed to hospital and the doctor told me I was having a miscarriage they tried to give me medication but I refused, it was the most escruciating pain I've ever been in and this time it hurt, it hurt because I didn't know weather or not my baby would survive.... Well  six hours later I gave birth to a baby girl with  blonde hair and a tiny button I never got to see her eyes or her skin tone or even hear her cry because she was still born, my baby died because I couldn't take care of myself properly!" I begin crying but my emotionless mask never slips "I stayed in Italy for a week I buried my baby girl and went home, I stopped all searches for my family and never spoke of my princess, my baby girl Rose Zion Black because no one deserves to know of her no one is worthy of her not even me" I close my eyes and let my mask come down, I allow all my emotion to play on my face " so that is how I became the German chef! Fucking fantastic story no!" I say as I throw my arms up and let them fall down I throw my cigarette on the floor and stomp it on the ground " but before anyone else says anything I don't want your sympathy, because unless you knows how that feels you don't get the right to say anything about this never!" I say coldly "princess I'm so sorry I know how it feels to desperately want your child back even though you know it's never possible, but it will get better you know that right, and it wasn't your fault no matter what you think no matter how you see it, she just wasn't meant to be in this world your right she was too good" dad says as he hugs me and I deflate I fall into his arms and cry my heart out " I just want my baby girl dad how hard is it for me to have one things good in this world, have I not been through enough!" I snap "ssh princess it's okay I know" dad coos
"Lilth if you don't mind me saying something?" Adrian says and I pull away from my father and straighten myself up and nod " I too have lost a child, when we were young my wife gave birth to a still born boy we named him Ajax and to this day we still talk of who he could have been anyways I just wanted you to know that revealing your pain doesn't make you weak actually it's rather the opposite if I speak for all of us I would say it actually gave us more respect for you" he says send I smile slightly "however I must ask why do the Russians want you?" And I freeze I look over toward the gang and they all hold the same face anger "well I didn't think I would be telling this story to day but where it goes!" I turn to my father and give him a small smile " so do you remember when I started to pull away from you as a child?" Dad looks confused but nods non the less "yes of course I do one day we were spending the day with each other playing games and watching movies then the next morning it was like you wanted nothing to do with me" hurt flashes through his eyes and I close my eyes and shiver slightly " well that night Victoria came in my room drunk and started rambling on about how I was stealing you away from her and how she used to be your world and so on , I was hurt by her words but not as much as the beating she gave me, that then turned into a regular thing until about two months later when I started passing out and I assumed that I just forgot her beating me because I was always sore still however I was wrong.... She used to sell her own daughter to the Russian mafia to use as a sex toy" I whisper the last part  and tears fall from my eyes as matteo comes up and hugs me and whispers " well done Lilith I'm so proud of you, I know how much that took to say" and kisses my forehead " but unfortunately that's not all, apparently they didn't like the fact that she stopped there little ordeal because ever since I got out of the academy they've been after me, after the first attempt I had to tell these weirdos and that.... Hurt but I felt better and I feel better now, so yeah that's why" I say as I wipe away all of my tears and turn to Carl and hug him, he instantaneously wraps his arms around me and hugs me hard, I look up and see his face is covered in tears I then look around and see every single person in this room has been crying too, Christian's eyes meet mine and all I see is sadness and pity "don't look at me like that!" I shout he furrows his brows "baby girl I didn't mean to upset you I just-"I interrupt "you can stop calling me that too, now you know why I don't trust don's fully you will understand why this little flirty shit can't go anywhere else" I say looking him in the eyes " no" he states "what?" " I said no, you gave me a chance and I'm not going to stop just because you feel you can't trust me, I understand that but I will help you trust me I promise" I roll my eyes "don't make promises you can't keep big guy" I turn to the others and see them all staring at me, my family with a scold on there face, my friends looking amused and Xavier looking pissed my eyes pop out of my head " guys" I worn but they continue anyways.
"Why is this man calling you baby girl?!" Dad yells
"Stay the fuck away from my sister?!" My three weirdo brothers shout
"Omfg yes bitch he's fine as fuck I ship!" Matteo shouts
"I swear to god if he hurts you lily I can't promise he'll keep his dick!" Simon shouts
"How long has this been going on girl, how big is it?!" Cara shouts
"GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY GIRL?!" Xavier shouts and his father holds him back
"I SAID NO BUT YOU ALL OPEN YOUR FUCKIN MOUTHS, WHO RAISED YOU? WHEN YOUR TOLD NO THEY MEAN NO NOW STOP!"
I shout at the top of my voice using my Don voice authority  ousting out.
"No liliith fuck no, I thought we were together not you and that Italian rat!" Xavier shouts and Chrissy growles I look at him and his eyes soften but he then gets angry again as Xavier advances towards us " that's enough Xavier keep back and also I never once said we were a thing plus it isn't like you can't say anything your fucking other bitches too!"I say and hurt flashes through his eyes and he stops walking towards Christian and turns to me " no I'm not lil I stopped the moment I met you, your different and I thought we were something but obviously not!" Oooh shit umm how do I tell him I've been fucking other guys too hahaha oops guess I'll just come out with it , poor fucker!
" Xavier let's be real we all know I ain't a saint I've been sleeping with other guys and there was never going to be anything between us I'm so sorry but I just don't think that could ever happen, I mean I first met you through cara cause she told me you gave good head I mean that's not exacting how you meet someone you can later on love now is it?" I ask and I think I may have made a mistake, oops! I slap my mouth "fuuuuck"
" YOU SLEPT WITH HIM?!" Simon yells and punches Xavier, cara screams and pulls simon back restraining him " what the fuck Simon what was that for he did nothing wrong to you?" Cara asks si as she cuffs him to the chair he was sitting in my kinky traits be rubbing of on them " did nothing to me? Did nothing to me, he slept to the women I've been in love with since I was seventeen that's not nothing cara!" Si shouts but when he's done his eyes pop out of his head and he heads but the table " oh god! Oh no please just pretend that never happened and -I" but he never forgot to finish his sentence because instead cara kissed him and me and matteo scream " FUCK YOU TTEO YOU OWE ME FIFTY BUCKS I TOLD YOU IT WOULD HAPPEN THIS YEAR, HAND IT OVER BITCH?!" I scream at the top of my lungs and do a happy dance but I then bump into someone and stop and look up and see my dad looking very amused " sorry dad!" I rush over to tteo and cash in my reward "I cannot believe you did that, you bitch you did all of that on purpous didn't you?" Matteo accuses " hey don't be a bad sport!" I reticulate " shit it's been an hour already guys we need to start getting down to actually business and you know not write my autobiography come on!" I say as I look at the clock.
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