Growing up Lilith's life from a young age was driven by her desire to complete her three aims in life; to earn enough money to survive, to run from her mother's hatred, and to find her father.
But each of these aims all came with its own challenges;...
Hi, Sup Bitches, enjoy!! ——————————————————— I wake up naked and angry, ive only had about three hours sleep and even those were filled of the nightmares of them, its 7am and everyone else still gets to sleep now fucking unfair! I grab my workout gear and head to the gym in the basement, i need to burn off some steam and it turns out a quick fuck isnt the solution. Once i enter the gym i make a beeline to the punching bag and begin smacking the shit out of it, how the fuck did he slime his way inside of my head? i was thinking of him all night even when i was with xavier that stupid asshole didnt help me get my mind off of him, ugggh i cant... i can not have feeling for a Don! their evil and self centered some are fine like my father but i cant put myself in danger not again i will die before that happens, i space out thinking but my train of thought is rudely interrupted by the punching bag imploding and a load gasp behind me, i turn to see who it is and see cara standing there in her pajamas looking confused and scared. "Babe why you scared you know i would never hurt you chill the fuckout!'' I say I'm trying to be kind but I just end up sounding cold, great! "I-ii i know it's just i've never saw you do that before it was bad ass but are you okay you look livid" she asks trying to calm herself down, "yeah i'm just working through some stuff hey i need to go out for a bit but there is a mafia alliance meeting at 11 same place as yesterday you and the guys need to be there i'll meet you there" i say as i try the sweat off my forehead with my towel. "Umm okay but why we don't have any alliance yet and as far as i'm aware you don't want any?" she questions "everything will make sense when i arrive don't worry"i walk over and look her in the eyes "you guys will always be there for me right?" i ask as my insecurities start to seep out, her eyes pop out of her head and she looks hurt "of course lil your our best friend and without you we wouldn't have a job, a house or maybe even our lives" she says and i let out a sigh "okay, thank you for that by the way, right i'll see you later bye"I say as I walk out of the gym and upstairs into my bedroom. I get shower , get changed and put some light makeup on feeling like a badass. I put on my stilettos and nod at my reflection , I strap my guns on my thighs and put my knives in my inside pocket.
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I put my hair up in a pony tail grab my purse put in my phone some red lipstick, a spare gun and amo then head out, when I reach the door matteo and Simon call for me with cara trailing behind them " lil what the hells going on why are we going to this meeting and where the fuck are you going?" Simon says looking very confused I sigh and rub my forehead " do you all trust me?" I ask and they all nod " of course we trust you Lilith me trust you with our life but we also know how you act before you fall of the wagon and we need you to come to us instead of running of again!" Matteo says and I lost it " I NEVER FUCKING RAN OFF TTEO IT WASNT MY CHOICE!" I scream " you know what I can't do this right now I'm too nervous and I'm already pissed at myself so please just meet me there at 11 and don't ask anymore questions till I explain okay? Im sorry im being a bitch im just scared and i dont do scared im never scared" I say and look at them. They all look hurt, sad and confused. In all of the years of our friendship I've never lashed out like that towards them. "Okay lil see you there I guess but please can you do one thing for me?" Simon says and I nod " stay safe please I don't know what we would do without you" he says and cara and matteo nod in agreement "okay I promise to stay safe now I've got to go love you!" I say as I shut the door behind me and get in the car. Once in the car I call Aldrich on speaker as I drive to the cafe down the road. L- are you here yet or what? A- yes boss we're currently at our hotel L- we? Who did you bring? A- just some of the higher ranked members in case of any incidents boss L- right okay well I'm going to send you an address meet me there just you and bring the files I asked for A- okay boss I'll be there as soon as possible L- you best be, bye I say as I put down the phone god this man will be the death of me, I don't remember asking for extra members but he also doesn't know of my ties to the Irish mafia so he is probably trying to look out for me. I pull into the cafe and park my car then get out to order a black coffee, collect my order then sit at one of the tables outside, I drink my coffee then a few minutes later he arrives and sits next to me. "Her you go boss everything you asked for but may I ask why did you ask for them here not at the meeting?" Al asks as he hands me the files "thank you,we'll i need to know everything before the meeting so I know what I've missed" I reply as I flip through them " okay makes sense so what are we doing before the meeting?" "Well I need to do something I should've done two years ago and I don't doubt you've got some questions for me so you can do that there" I reply as I finish my coffee up and stand up " come on then" I say as I walk towards my car I get in and so does he I drive us to the tattoo shop I was at on Wednesday I get out and walk inside with al following behind looking confused , I see a old tattooed guy sitting next to his table in the first room I enter. "Hello I'm lilith and I need you to do something for me today , you free?" I ask and he looks taken back and scared he probably knows who I am. "Umm yeah I'm free for the next hour will that do you ma'am?" He asks I nod and turn closer to him and see his mafia tattoo is showing " can you do this in that time?" I ask as I point towards the tattoo on the back of his neck " of course" "right we'll I assume you know omertà, once I leave this room you are never to speak of this incident again okay?" I ask as I raise my brow and turn all back around. " yes ma'am of course I'm ready whenever you are '' he says without missing a beat, it seems this isn't his first. "Great i'm ready now!" I then sit on his table and he walks over to Al and he sits him down next to me and traces his tattoo. " Boss, are you sure of this, I'm not trying to undermine you but I know this tattoo reminds you of him" al says as he looks towards me with worry evident in his eyes. " Al this has been a long time coming and even though it reminds me of him I cannot rule without being apart of something that was once his" I say not taking my eyes from his he sighs and nods " of course boss as long as you're okay with this" he says pacing scared likeim going to have a fit or some shit men are so fucking dramatic. " dude I kinda need you to stay still, '' the tattoo artist says and I laugh. '' Yeah, al stay still. '' I say amused at the authority the guy is trying to take over this 7ft monster. Once he's done with his trace he moves all from the table and asks me to lie down, he cleans the area and places his trace down then begins. "Okay fire away the questions" I say as I begin to relax into the table " Why did you leave so suddenly?" "Well I knew that you wouldn't want the role so I knew I had to do it behind your back and also everywhere I looked all I could see was what he did to me, I needed out" I reply as I look straight forward, looks like he ain't gonna play same and is going straight for the hard ones nice. "'Makes sense okay how is the baby?" He asks and my whole body freezes. I forgot he knew shit! " she didn't make it, I had a premature birth and she was stillborn" I say coldly , I don't like speaking of her no one deserves to even know her name they aren't worthy! " shit I'm so sorry lilt-"I cut him off, and this is why I didn't tell anyone I don't want sympathy! " next question" "Okay well did you ever find your parents?" "Actually I did find my father, I found him yesterday and my mother is still hiding somewhere like a little pussy" "I'm so happy for you lilith and she'll pop up somewhere you just have to be patient and I guess that answers my next question I assume that is why your back now right?" "Yeah my dad is the Irish Don't actually" I say nonchalantly "What the fuck really?!" I laugh " yes Aldrich I wouldn't lie to you tit!" "Okay okay Jez....can you tell me why you left me in charge?" "Well Al I left you in charge because I only trusted you there after all you did help me kill the son of a bitch so knew you had enough fight in you to thrive until I got back, but it turns out you're a little of a lazy prick aren't you?" I say with a sour tone "No boss I'm not lazy I'm unqualified and I was pissed that you left me out of all people in charge. I was only capo and yes I was 27 but come on I was and will forever be a child at heart!" He says raising his voice "Aldrich, don't you raise your voice at me! And yes I may have made a bad decision but I thought you had it in you it just turns out you got in your own head and messed up but I am still to find out how bad" "Sorry boss" he says putting his head down slightly " it's okay I'll allow it after all I would be angry to if I was in your situation" I reply with as much sympathy in my voice as possible, which really wasn't much cause your a cold bitch Lilith. Oh shut the fuck up! "Okay I've got one final question .......how have you been?" I sigh and close my eyes "I was a mess I'm not going to lie I was drinking all day and blocked everyone out for the first few months just killing for the thrill but after that I started doing more high rank jobs and making a better name for myself and now I'm actually known as the Red Raven and have the respect I deserve after all we all knew I would be someone I just didn't know who and who knows maybe my angel is proud of her mama" I say thinking of my sweet baby girl who I never even got to meet, she was so pale and drained of any colour when I met her, my heart brakes and I put my walls up "okay enough if that pass me a file I need to find out what the duck you've been up to!" I say ignoring the soppy ness that was once myself —————————————————— 39 minutes later "YOU DID WHAT?!" I scream as I push my head up ignoring the papers that fall on the floor. My tattoo was finished 20 minutes ago but I decided to stay and finish reading up and the guy who I now know is called Rob didn't have any argument. " Boss I'm sorry but I didn't know what else to do. We were under attack and I had no access to the money so I made a mistake. Please forgive me!" Al cry's out "NO AL A MISTAKE IS DROPPING YOUR PHONE OR MISPLACING SOMETHING, SELLING WOMEN IS NOT A MISTAKE ITS A FUCKING DISGUSTING ACT, WOMEN ARE NOT PROPERTY! WE ARE PEOPLE AND YOU THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA, PEOPLE ARENT FUCKING OBJECTS?!" I scream, that fucking idiot is so dead! "No boss I promise I didn't want to do it but when I read our past transaction history it said that the most money was brought in by human trafficking, I knew it was a bad idea after the first time and then we didn't do it again I swear please don't do what I think your going to do!" He pleads, thinking I'm going to shoot him again. " just once?" I raise my brows " Once I swear and then I accept the second round of women and let them go free. I swear on my life!" He puts his hands up. " fine but I swear to Satan if you ever try that shit again I will castrate you then kill you I promise!" I say calmly and he gulps and nods "Okay fine" I walk toward him and punch him in the face he screams in pain and holds his nose " sorry al as much as I love you man you fucked up big time and that is nothing compared to what I would've done back then now come on let's go!" I say as I walk through the doors and into the waiting room, rod stands up " Hello ma'am I just need to wrap your tattoo and you're good to go!" He says as he gets the required equipment and asks me to sit he wraps me up and I walk towards the mirror grabbing another mirror so I can see properly.
