Red Raven

9)Getting prepared

AN) I'm so sorry I took so long to update it's been one hell of a week and today is Tuesday! Have a good day and enjoy! Tell me what you think at the end!
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After my birthday celebration i decided to keep thursday on the DL i couldn't exactly do i as i always do as i had already watched my movie the day prior so i decided to make cara's dreams come true and go dress shopping with her (insert regretful groan) and right now i'm currently trying on the ELEVENTH dress as she keeps going on saying ' its not quite right' honestly if i didn't love her i would have broken at least fifty of her bones by now , but hey what can i do.
Once i've got the dress on i dont even look at it all i know is it is black and i want a stiff drink, i walk out of the changing room and look at cara  and sigh flopping my arms down "well...?" once she see's me in the dress her eyes widen and she jumps to her feet and grabs my arm "holy fuck lil your gorgeous , this, this is definetly it" she whines as she twirls me, "okay" i say as i walk back into the changing room but before i can she grabs my arm again "hey have you even seen it yet?" she asks looking confused at the lack of reaction on my part, " no cara no i havent seen the dress, i cant be bothered" i say whilst trying to rub away my headache, "okay okay but just once i swear you wont regret it promise" she says as she draggs me to the mirror, i roll my eyes and mutter an okay then look at the mirror but once i do my eyes nearlypop out o my head, thats me WTF holy shit boo im looking fine as fuck, dressed as a queen as i should, perfect i smile at myself and look at cara " thanks babe you were right i did have to wait for the perfect dress, i love it however lets get yours before i combust into ash"
"Oh i already found mine when we walked in, it is perfect look" she then points to a short red cocktail dress with an open back,"HOW THE FUC-you know what never mind im too tired to ask lets go back home the boys should be back by now" i said, i wonder how simon and matteo found suit shopping i know si hates it but tteo loooves shopping there exactly like me and cara but i atleast have some fashion sense, "yeah lets go!" cara says and we get any alterations needed take them home.
"SUP HOES YOUR PRINCESS IS HOME!" I scream as we walk inside, "AND WE BROUGHT STARBUCKS AND DONUTS!" cara adds just as the boys are turning the corner, "finally your home we missed yall lets eat then go to bed im too tired for tomorrow , how about we three stay here and you go alone" tteo suggests as he pulls us into a hug but once i'm out of his embrace i scold him "this was your mistake and plus its my birthday i don't want to be trapped in a room of pretentious arseholes alone on my birthday" i argue as i cross my arms, "okay, okay princesa but you owe me a dance!" "WAIT THATS NOT FAIR" cara and simon said at the same time causing them both to blush, i roll my eyes "okay i owe you all a dance how about that" and si and cara did a little victory dance together, "omg yall are such geeky love birds just fuck please i cant take it anymore" matteo says rolling his eyes, oh no my toxic traits have been inherited, oh well at least it's not my IED, hehe.
We eat then watch netflix before we all go to sleep.
But I couldn't sleep. All I could think about was them, would they be there? Would they recognise me? Would they fear me now? They should do but they also know I fear them after what they did to me with her permission, for her benefit. Would I be able to face them? NO no I can do this, I am the red raven and I will not be repressed by old memories by powerless people who are below me, who can't hurt me anymore, who will kneel before me once I find it inside myself to face them again...... someday.
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Thank you for reading, I hope you enjoyed it! Have a great day!!🖤♥️🖤