Growing up Lilith's life from a young age was driven by her desire to complete her three aims in life; to earn enough money to survive, to run from her mother's hatred, and to find her father.
But each of these aims all came with its own challenges;...
Im so sorry I haven't updated in a while, life's been somewhat chaotic lol, enjoy and if there's any issues please do tell! x ⚠️Contains sensitive topics including abuse, PTSD, scars and panic attacks.⚠️ ——————————————————— He sits up and removes his rolls up his sleeves, I furrow my brows in confusion but allow the scene to unfold, he points to a tattoo on his bicep of three stars one green two blue " my brothers and I got these when my mother passed because of her love for the night sky."
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I raise my hand and trace the centre star "my first kill was a man trying to strangle his brother although I know I did the right thing I sometimes still have nightmares of the blood" I look into his eyes, he does the same to me I furrow my brows further and take his hand, he takes a deep breath " M-my trainer would beat me whenever I wasn't perfect, had the perfect form, perfect aim anything, I never told my father because I was a scared little boy however when mum found out she shot him and told me to never tell father."
I pull myself closer to him "you don't have to say anymore if you don't want to Chris I won't feel anything more than admiration you know that right?" He runs his arms around my waist "I only have two more to tell anyways, what's the harm" he wets him bottom lip "even though it's been five years I still leave messages on my mum's phone whenever I need her advice" he looks at the grass beside us "and I never allow anyone to get close to me because..... no matter what they always leave me like mum like Phoenix everyone and if they don't leave they use me for there own gain." he looks into my eyes and bites his lip slightly as he scrunches up his lips "but you don't seem to want anything from me yet where ever I go I find you some how we've bumped into each other time after time and I feel as though you might help heal me" I smile "we can heal each other, you've been so much fought through so many storms and I'm not going to lie and say I won't push you away because I will, like my life depends on it, but I am saying I'll try because no matter what happens I can feel something here weather that's just lust or something more but I can feel it" I put my hand on the back of his neck and lean forwards his lips melt into mine, pushing and pulling at each other dying to get closer, he pulls me on his lap and bites my lower lip as he pulls away he looks into my eyes and smiles as he puts his forehead on mine "I wasn't expecting that so soon I must admit" I laugh lightly "I wasn't either but your transparency ignites me Christian" "and your kindnesss ignites me" our lips meet once more only this time he lips my lower lip asking for entrance I ignore his request and continue kissing him, he squeeze my ass causing me to groan he uses this to his advantage and pushes his tongue inside my mouth I don't bother fighting for romance I just allow him to explore my mouth, he lifts me up and lies me down in the grass , he balances his weight on his arms as he leans over me his chain falling down ticking my neck, I pull back so I can look at him and the sight of fucking all mighty mother of god! How can a simple gold chain on a handsome man make me lose my mind, GOD that look in his eye makes me so wet it makes me want to just climb on to him and- wait wet, why did I bring my suit if we're at a garden? "Why did you ask me to bring my swimming costume if we're at a garden?" I ask as I play with his chain "well baby girl I have a little surprise for you, well rather three" my eyes pop out of my head "No no thanks I haaaate surprises can you just tell me please?"he sits up and shakes his head "sorry baby but I love surprises so your gonna just have to deal with it" he raises his brow as he smiles ugggh this dirty man using his sex appel as an advantage! I groan as I sit up " fine but only if we can play truth or dare after?" He stands up and puts a hand out for me I grab it and he pulls me close " anything for you baby girl" I rub my hands over his chest as I smile "I could get used to that" he puts his hand in his back pocket and pulls something out "as you should'' he walk behind me and places a blindfold over my eyes "don't open your eyes until I tell you baby girl" I groan "unless you guiding me to your bedroom I don't see why i've got a blindfold on" I cross my arms "and if your planning on killing me may I just remind you that I'm an assassin, more importantly an assassin who was trained to kill binded to a chair, chained to the floor and yes wearing a blindfold" he grabs my hand " wow I'm truest impressed even my training wasn't that intensive'' I tighten my jaw "it wasn't exactly average training, I was being chased by the Russian mafia remember" "ah yes that makes sense but rest assured I'm not going to kill you baby and the Russians wouldn't dare interrupt our moment or I will castrate the lot oh and also" he leans down as we continue to walk. " I'll keep the blindfold for later if you wish to get fucked senseless wearing a blindfold" I bite my lip and rub my thighs together to relieve some pressure who said it was for me? I think to myself I laugh lightly and shake my head "you truly are a dirt man aren't you Christian?" He wink "only for you Lilith" my eyes pop out of my head uggggh I haven't ever heard my name sound so fucking good! "Stop here" he turns me "okay and in three take it off okay?" He removes his hands from me and steps away "okay" I toy with my necklace " 1........2.......3" I remove the blindfold and I'm met with a pool looking over the sea, there's champagne in buckets at the side and a wrapped box sitting near , I look at Chris and smile brightly "this is beautiful but what's this all for?" I feel as if he's went through wayyy to much effort for little old me he steps closer to me and slips a piece of hair behind my ear "well baby girl I believe it was your birthday yesterday was it not?" I smile "yes it was but I hate celebrating my birthday so you shouldn't have went through all of this for me" he frowns "a vixen like you should have her birthday celebrated properly and you should know baby girl this is nothing compared to what you deserve" I lean over and kiss his lips lightly "well thank you Prince Charming it's much appreciated" I joke "well Cinderella your happiness is all i strive for" I'm automatically shocked OMG let me get this straight, he's hot, Italian, covered in tattoos, kind, considerate, super tall, he likes good cars AAAAND HE KNOWS HIS DISNEY!! "Who was Nemo's dad?" I ask trying to figure out if he is one of my people, he raises his brows and looks at me like I'm a weirdo "well that was out of the blue but Marlin why?" I squeal "your one of mine! You're a Disney guy aren't you don't lie!" He laughs "you truly are something else Lilith but yes, me and my brothers were obsessed actually my best fiend got me into Disney" his smile falters, his jaw clenched and he shakes his head "anyways I'll be back in a second I'm just going to change" umm okay that was weird PLEASE tell me he isn't in love with some other stanky bitch cause I ain't got time for that babe. None! "Oh okay but where you going to change?" He points to a little hut in the corner "over there is the changing room I'll be just a moment" I nod and go sit on the bench near the gates that we must have come through all I can think about is how crazy these past two days have been, I find my family, I take the German throne, then I find out I have the Irish throne, the Russian are causing trouble oh and some sexy mafia man is trying to wine and dine me and my memory is starting to come back again, maybe it's just a one time thing but I hope things keep going this way. "Can you turn around please?" I hear and I turn towards it "no no I meant away from me!" I frown and do so "why,is something wrong?" "No well yes but no I just wanted to warn you.....I'm covered in scars, everywhere and people don't usually have the best reaction so I thought I would warn you" my frown deepens "you think I won't want you if you have a few scars? Are you mad you've been the kindest gentleman all day, you took me to a rose garden because you listened when I said I love roses even without having to say those words and the best one your fucking gorgeous!" I turn to face him and my eyes are immediately filled with lust jesus fucking christ he's a master piece, his whole body is littered in scars and tattoos some cover up scars other are surrounded by them, his gold chain shines in the light and the nervous expression on his face for some reason makes me want to cry and fuck him at the same time "h-holy shit!" I stutter out, he frowns and looks at the floor "I knew it, everything was rainbows and sunshine until you actually saw me, this is what happens when your raised a monster Lilith everywhere I look there's scars each one deeper than the last" oh no he think I meant that in a bad way not a I want to jump your bones way , I walk over to him and cup his face "I meant holy fuck as in I nearly exploded at the sight of you Christian not a bad way your a fuckinng masterpiece, you should be proud of your scars these show the battles you've fought, the struggles you've brawled through and most importantly the fact that you are strong enough to be here today, there a good thing Christian don't you see?" I ask and he looks at me with admiration, he kisses me softly then pulls back "thank you Lilith no one has ever been so kind or sweet to me in my life, maybe one day you can teach me to see the good in the bad" I smile "okay i'm going to get changed now, same rule applies I want you to turn away okay?" He nods and I walk through to the hut, I quickly get changed and take a deep breath, I adjust the costume so my biggest scar is covered up but remember his actions and pull it back down allowing my biggest insecurity and weirdest weekends to be on show, I shake off my nerves pull my costume to cover it up again and walk back to him, I tap him on his shoulder and he turns "oh god your beautiful Lilith, your costume accents your curves and your tattoos'' I smile then place my hands on my stomach "before you get too excited there's....there's on thing you should see, I usually wear high waisted clothes or long shirts to cover this one up, it's the only one I haven't had the balls to cover up yet and I....I guess I'm scared to show someone" I look at the floor ashamed at my emotions, Christian puts him fingers under my chin and raises my head to look into his eyes ''your beautiful no matter any mark on your body, if anything these scars, tattoos, freckles,stretch marks make you more beautiful every single one making you more desirable than the last'' I look at my stomach whilst smiling "okay then if you're sure" I pull the waist down to where it should be and expose the scar, 'WHORE' scratched into my body with what appears to be a dull object due to the scratchy marks, Christians jaw tightens and his brows furrowed "who did this to you?" I look away "it doesn't matter" I exclaim embarrassed yet again at my true answer "yes it does, someone scarred you for life, engraved there horrid thoughts and if they live I wish to fix that issue so please tell me" he places his hands on my hips, his thumbs over the scar almost shielding me from its scrutiny "I.... Ugh!" I sigh "I don't know who did it... when I was fifteen my mum gave me up to her dealers who I now know to be the Russians and they drugged me, the next night I found myself naked, beaten and scarred in a dark alleyway somewhere across town" he strokes my stomach with his thumbs ''Jesus! I can't wait until we can find them bastards, if anything hearing all they have done to you has given me more instinctive, those pigs deserve to die slowly and feel the pain they have caused others especially you!" His face contorted with anger and he leans his forehead against mine "but know this, it makes you more beautiful than you will know, because I know the story behind it, the strength you muster when you look at it" I kiss his lips and smile deeply "who would have thought the big bad mafia man is actually quite sweet?" He laughs "only for you baby girl" "come on then let's take a dip" I then drag him to the pool and when we reach the lip I kiss him in the cheek and push him in but unfortunately my plan backfires as he pulls me down with him "can't pull a fast one on me baby girl" I splash him "well I tried!" I grit out but laugh as I see his shocked face " did you just splash me?" My eyes bulge out of my head "no?" I say nervous as he stares at me like a snack "lying is bad babygirl I might have to punish you for that" I bite my lip as my pussy becomes drenched, I swim away from him but he catches me ankle "not so fast baby I haven't even got started with you" his eyes darken "oh yeah and what you going to do with me?" I ask, becoming less nervous as he pulls me towards him by my ankles, I reach him and my hands automatically land on his chest, "ooh baby wouldn't you like to know? But unfortunately there's one thing I must do before I devour you" he sits me on the lip of the pool and walks over to the other side of the pool and picks up the wrapped present, he walks over to me "now just so you know I umm I bought you a gift before I knew your identity and it's really shit so please open the top one first it's much better" he says as he hesitantly passes me the beautiful black and gold box "I will promise Christian but honestly I've known you for less than a week basically only a few hours all together so you trust had no need" I smile up to him "a birthday is a birthday baby girl no matter how close we are and hey I wasn't going to let our first special occasion to fly bye so easily!"I shake my head god this man is so dramatic, I don't think he truest understands who I am because I HATE my birthday I open the paper and find two boxes sitting inside of the bigger box, one gold one black the gold one being significantly bigger "which one should I open first then they were side by side" I say showing him the box "oh the real one is the black box" I smile and nod and take it out but put it down next to the big box I decide I should jump out of the water and sit next to Christian and the boxes invade I drop it in or get it wet, I squeeze my hair dry and look over to Christian to see him already staring at me but not where I thought his eyes would be, I assumed he would be staring at my boobs or ass like a weirdo but no he's a perfect gent and is currently just looking into my eyes so I do what any normal person would do, I pull a weird face then shake my eyebrows at him, he snaps out of it and begins laughing at my faces ''oh god baby girl you truly are one of a sort!" He says laughing causing me to laugh along "I know I'm weird sorry I just never know what to do when people look at me for long periods of time, usually I would stab them or something but for some reason I don't want to stab you" I say genuinely avoiding his gaze god well done Lilith you sound like a deranged serial killer confused by their emot- Finish that sentence I dare you! Because we both know that's true you cow?! Sorry babe! Christian puts his hand over his heart sarcastically " wow Lilith that is an amazing honour thank you for not stabbing me!" He says I laugh sarcastically and shake my head " but seriously I like that I can feel safe around you that's what my fucked it mind was trying to say" he smiles like a phyco "I'm really happy you feel safe around me to baby girl" I roll my eyes "come on open your gift then!" Christian says getting impatient , I laugh lightly and shake my head I pull the lid from the box and see a red and gold watch inside, I pull it out and admire its beauty "wow it's amazing Christian thank you I love it!" I say smiling and look at him "turn it over" he says and I do, and my smile grows as I see Red Raven engraved in the back "this might be one of the best things anyone's ever bought me!" I say looking at Christian who seems to look relieved "thank you however beauty isn't the only power it holds, look at the bottom of the box" I do so and I find a handwritten list of all of its abilities Jesus this is one bad ass watch it's a taser, a knife, a heart monitor, can dispense morphine for pain, a tracker, it's voice activated and only works for its owner, it can call and text, facetime and contacts your emergency contacts when you heart rates drops "Jesus this thing is bad ass thank you so much it's perfect!" He smiles back to me and kisses my cheek "your welcome baby" I look back to the watch and notice that the only two buttons that don't have controls for are the black ones "wait why do those ones do?" Christians eyes turns dark "nothing please don't ever press them you have to promise me please?" I become confused "can you not just tell me please Christian your getting me worried" he shakes his head "no I'm sorry Lilith but you have to promise me you won't press those buttons!" I sigh and nod "okay I won't, I promise" the tension in his shoulders melt and he smiles lightly "okay let's put it on you, or do you want to wait until later to set it up?" "I'll wait til later thank you" "okay perfect I'm glad you like it honestly I was kind of nervous" I furrow my eyebrows, "wait I just realized you said you got this after you knew me but we've only known each other for barley a day! Did you get this today?" He blushed and looks away "kind of... well I had some help from someone" "who?" I ask curiously "my dad, you see he made me a similar watch, this one here and he told me that he had made me one for my son in the future but I asked if I was aloud to gift it to you as I know how hard it is to take over a mafia when you have a war at your door steps but not only do you have that your also taking over two mafias almost simultaneously so I thought I could give you this one and just use my own for my heir" he says smiling nervously and I can't help it anymore, he's perfect,so kind, so considerate, so amazing and he wants me? The next thing I know I find myself sitting on his lap kissing him, I bite his lip and rake my fingers through his hair earning a deep throaty moan to travel its way into my mouth through his own, my pussy vibrates at the sound and no matter how hard I clench my thighs nothing is working, with one last stroke of his tongue Christian pulls away from the kiss and puts his forehead against mine "what was that for baby, not that I'm complaining" I laugh lightly "I just wanted to show you how much I appreciate everything you've done for me in the little time we've known each other" "baby girl all I have done is given you what you deserve, you are worth the world and one day I'll ensure you see that" I looked at the watch and smiled "thank you Chris this means a lot" "your welcome and if you want I can get rid of the other one it's kind of embarrassing how little though I put into it, it's so stupid I feel I should hide it to rid myself of the embarrassment of showing you it" he said embarrassed, I see a small tint of red on his cheeks and smile "hey no I'm sure whatever it is it's amazing plus even if it isn't I don't mind you already gave me the best gift I've ever received" he sighs "well if your sure but don't forget I warned you" he picks up the other box and hands it to me, I hand him the watch whilst I open the new box, I pull of the lid and my breath becomes uneven, I begin to shake and I blink away the tears and see a wooden jewellery box with a heart on the top, I shakily open the lid and see the ballerina spinning and I push myself away from the box and all of a sudden black dots begin to cloud my vision what's wrong why am I acting like this? "Christian lie me down on a soft flat surface and bring me to matteo or bring him to me I don't care I need him now, please" I don't hear his reply I don't even know if he heard me because everything is spinning, the darkness begins to seep in but before I pass out I hear the song from the jewellery box, it makes me feel sick, I push my body to the side and throw up the content of my stomach what's happening to me?! ——————————————————— That's all I have for you today, thank you sm for reading and I hope you enjoyed it, my chat box is always open so you can pop in whenever you need someone to talk to. I hope you have a fantastic day and do something that makes you smile. Love you all bye 🖤
