Ante Mortem

|| A Forgotten Letter ||

To whoever is reading this,

Thank you for choosing my book to spend your time with. I hope my words and opinions do not hurt you, for that is not my intention and will never be. My opinions and thoughts in this book, are just that. Opinions and thoughts. Nothing more nothing less. They may be wrong from your perspective, or maybe you never thought of them, and (hopefully) maybe you will agree to some of them.

Having said that, opinions and thoughts, not only mine, but anyone else's, are never solid. I would like to compare them with tiny letters in a bottle thrown in the sea. Some reach the shore of our consciousness while some drift farther away. Some get overruled by better and more soulful letters, but some are there to stay perhaps for forever or at least till someone shows a better letter (those are always appreciated for what are we if not bodies craving more and more information, knowledge anything that would sate our never-ending curiosity). Thoughts are tide if our mind is sea, and new tides are often stronger than old ones.

Beliefs, opinions, emotions, and if I am to be bold almost everything that is based on our thoughts, or more rudimentarily our mind, is fluid. Changing and modifying as we grow older, mature, and sometimes more like Dumbledore with cryptic messages and quotes.

Maybe I won't agree with my own beliefs and opinions tomorrow. Maybe I will forget them and need to be reminded of the forgotten promises I had made to myself. Maybe someone will manage to change the way I see the world. But that's for the future. A future I can never predict, no matter how much I wish to. A future that I look forward to with the same enthusiasm I look forward to lab days (oh the woes of being a science dork!).

I am not expecting everyone who reads this book to agree with me right away or at all. I am not expecting you to think your thoughts and opinions are invalid or wrong. I am always open for discussions maybe even night-long conversations on things that matter. For anything that can keep us awake, must matter a lot more than we would like to admit, and anything that matters is important. But, as much as I respect the notion "everyone has the right to have their own opinion", does not mean I will accept any kind of oppression of my thoughts and beliefs. I may not agree to or respect your opinions (let's agree not everyone has respectful words to say), and I expect you to do the same. But I hope you wouldn't "bash", or argue aggressively over them, just like I won't. We all have the right to have opinions, doesn't mean everyone will agree or respect them. Just respect the notion.

Last and hopefully least.

It's not a love story with damsels in distress and their knights nor is it an adventure containing dragons. It's just a collection of millions and millions of words that kept me awake at night (or kept me company during the shower). I had never thought of sharing my opinions before. Because by default I thought, the majority thinks like me. Maybe they do or maybe they don't. I am no psychic.

What compelled me to publish this book was the fact that many people like me can not express their thoughts in proper words. Sure in front of the mirror, we can give the speech of the millennium, but words evade our minds where it matters. This book is for me and others like me. Rather than just a collection of thoughts, it's also a collection of all conversations I wished went well, and explanations of habits I couldn't leave. Maybe it is just me giving my speech of the Millenium, just not to mirror anymore.

In the end, all I want to say is,

"Life is too short to live with misunderstandings and mindless arguments. It is too beautiful to be seen with tinted glasses of hate. Too fascinating to not love. So instead of drowning in the regret of not saying my heart, I would rather regret letting my words flow."

Sincerely,

Amor.

PS. I don't mind using this book as an indirect way of saying your words. I don't mind you using my book to say the words you want. Tag whomever you wish to sing your thoughts to. Just don't steal my work or argue in the comments. That would make me mute you and publicize it (just the plagiarism).