Bullets of Chances

Chapter 13

"What's that? Zyani asked as is entered the car.

"H-huh?"

"Maybe next time." inulit niya pa ang sinabi ko kanina. "What's that for? Anong meron huh?" she utter withouthumor on it.

Napalunok ako sa reaction niya. So she's listening huh! "I-idont k-know." Utal kong sagot. Bakit ko nga ba sinabi yun ha?

"Kung ano man iyang nararamdaman mo ngayon, hanggat maaga pa ay itigil mo na." nalilito ko siyang nilingon. Bihira lang magseryoso si Zyani and this time I can tell that she's deadly serious. Seryoso niyang tinatahak ang daan pauwi at panay ang buntong hiniga niya.

"Why?" I asked curiously.

"Just do what I say. It's for the better Zal." Yun lang ang sinagot niya. Gusto ko pa sanang magtanong ngunit pinangunhan ako ng pagtataka sa kinikilos niya. Hangang sa makarating sa bahay nila ay hindi na siya kumibo pang muli. Pagkatapos naming mag-paalam sa isa't-isa ay aga na siyang pumasok ng bahay nila. I sighed as I watched her entered their house. Bakit Zyani? I uttered and sighed again.

Pabagsak akong humilata sa kama at ipinikit ang mga mata. The while time I'm taking my bathed and eating my dinner, Zyani's sudden change of mood earlier kept bothering me. Bakit ayaw niyang ituloy ko kung ano man itong nararamdaman ko? For the better of what? I don't understand her! Tsaka hindi naman ako sure kung ano itong nararamdaman k okay Hassi. Maybe I'm attracted to him but I guess it is because of his physical feature? And if that's the case, for sure it will vanish soon. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang ilit na akong napabuntong hininga mula kanina. The crap! This is so frustrating! Napahilamos ko ang mga palad sa sariling mukha. What to do, Zal?

"Hey whats up?" bungad ni Dio pagkasagot ko ng tawag niya.

"Hey." I replied while entering my office.

"Did you receive it?" he excitedly asked.

Nangunot naman ang noo ko sa tanong niya. "Huh? Ano—" then there I saw a bouquet of flowers in my table.

"Galing to sayo?" I asked as I get the flower.

"Hmm.Good morning Zal." Lambing niyang sabi. Bagamat nasa kabilang linya ay alam kong nakangiti siya.

"Thank you." May ngiting ani ko.

"You're always welcome." He softly uttered. "I guess I need to go. Eat your lunch and don't stress your self Zal. Bye, I love you." He said then ended the call.

I stared at my phone. Why you're always like this Dio? I'm afraid I get you hurt. You're too good and I don't deserve your love. I sighed at my thought.

"Why don't give him a chance?" nabitawan ko ang cellphone dahil sa pagkakagulat. Zyani's standing there at my office's door.

"H-huh?"

"Tch. He really loves you Zal. Dio deserves a chance."

Nang makabawi sa pagkakagulat ay seryoso ko siyang hinarap. "I already told you about that Zyani."

"But don't you think you're giving him false hope?"

"Sinabi ko narin sa kanya ang tungkol dyan Zyani. I already make myself cleared to him" nauubusang pasensyang ani ko. What's with her?

"Do you think that's enough?" she remains serious.

"Enough or not, it depends on him." I don't get what she's pointing in this discussion. "Wait, what's with you Zyani? What's with this sudden outburst?" pigil ko sa kanya sa akma niyang pagsasalita.

She gulped and looked away. She didn't answer directly and seems bothered. "You're acting weird." Dagdag ko pang sabi.

"I'm not. I'm j-just t-trying t-to help Dio." She explains without looking at me. She's even stuttering.

"Why?" kunot noo kong tanong. This is so strange.

"H-huh? She gulped again."B-because he's my friend."

"Tss. It's so not you." I frankly said.

This time she looks at me with confused eyes. Her lips were half open trying to say something but her phone rang.

"Yes hello?" She then glanced at me. "Now? Alright. I'll be there soon." She ended the call let out a heavy sigh.

"I need to go. Something came up." She explained.

"I see." I give her a short nod. Tinanguan niya naman ako at tumulak na palabas.

"Zal!" I was about to sit when she called me. I stare at her and give her a "what" look.

"Please, give him a chance. You both deserve each other. Just please, give it a try." She said and takes her exit. I was left confused and dumbfounded. I'm sure some thing is up.

Buong araw akong inabala ng mga sinabi ng Zyani. Should I listen to her or listen to myself? Am I giving Dio false hope? As far as I remembered, I already made things cleared to him. Not that I'm blaming him for being persistent but it was his choice. Oh crap! I don't even have a love life but these things keep messing me!

Maybe I should talk to Dio and make things clear again. As much as I don't want to get him hurt, I guess this is better. Our friendship matters to me and before it's too late and makes things worse, I must do something. Right! Talking to him will give me peace.

Because of spacing out and having a deep thought, I didn't notice that I'm already at the parking lot. I was about to open my car's door when someone called me.

"Cazzaleira." Deep baritone voice sent foreign feelings to me. I closed my eyes before turning my head to face Hassi.

"Hey." I greeted him as a gaze his handsome face.

"Can I take you home...this time?" He never left my eyes as he asked me. He seems hopeful waiting for my response.

"I-I—" hindi ko mahanap ang salitang nais kung sabihin. I'm so distracted with his gazes.

"I hope the next time you're talking about is... now." He then added.

What to do? What's with this? What's with you? Why need to take me home? Lahat yan ay gusto kong itanong sa kanya ngunit tila nahihirapan akong magsalita.

He walks close to me without breaking his gazes to me. I gulped again as I feel his breath. "Please." Puno ng lambing na aniya.

What the fuck!

I step a back and looked away try to find some words. "I-I have my car." I'd like to congratulate myself to finally say those words.

Nilingon niya ang likuran ko kung nasaan ang kotse. He murmured something but I didn't have a chance to hear it because I'm still catching my breath silently.

"Then I'm gonna tail you. We live in the same building so I guess it will do." Sobrang lapit parin niya habang sinasabi iyon. Hindi man nakatingin sa akin ang mga mata niya dahil sa kotse fo ito nakatuon, hindi ko parin maiwasang habulin ang hininga.

Tanging tango lang ang naisagot ko at dali-dali ng pumasok sa kotse. Doon ko lang naibuga ang malalim kong hininga. Bakit ganito? Ano to? Napahawak ako sa dibdib at ninamnam ang kakaibang sakit.