Open Up My Eager Eyes

Chapter 23

I'm starting to think that bottling up our emotions is one of those many traits that my sister and I share. When Sam and I reached our apartment, she tried to pry the problem away from me. She told me that I could, or rather, should tell her what happened back in the restaurant. Although I trusted her with all my heart, I just couldn't bring myself to do it. It involved her and I too damn ashamed that my sister tried to do such stupid act just for her own benefit. I just don't get why she hated Sam so much. Never have I ever imagined my own sister doing this to me.

Eventually, Sam gave up on trying to make me open up to her which led us to just lay together in bed, enjoying each other's company. I was trying to wrap my head around everything that I just heard. Basically, everything was a lie. Everything was planned. Everyone was faking. All those 'friends' that I thought I made, they were all a part of a stupid role play that my sister managed to direct. I felt so stupid. How could I not see right through their over the top friendly smiles and gestures? See, that's the problem with me, I easily hand out my trust to anyone. I actually thought that Hayley was this nice and bubbly girl. Hell, I was wrong. She was too friendly with me because she was asked to act that way towards me. Which lead to that mini get together that happened in this very apartment. That's where it all started. That's when Vic and I first kissed. That's when my head started to be poisoned by pure lies and manipulation. I always knew that Vic was up to no good. Fuck! How could I be so naïve! I was so careful before. Why did I let him get through my skin?

With frustration flooding through my head, I pushed the covers away from me and went to the bathroom to take a shower. Showers are my personal therapy. I could actually feel the problems swivel down the drain together with all the filth that was washed away by the warm water traveling down my body. I was so exhausted. Man, they were not exaggerating when they say that their everything hurts. It was as if someone used me as their test dummy, not being careful to leave scratches or marks anywhere.

Vic. I actually let myself fall for him. It wasn't love, no. I was nowhere near that point but god, I just feel so fu.cking stupid. I actually liked him. I was having weird feelings but you know what? I'm glad that those weird feelings stop right before they get out of hand. He's no good and he only brings me trouble.

I got out of the comforting shower, dried off and pull on a new set of comfortable clothes as I tiptoed my way back to our bedroom. I was nowhere near sleepy so I decided to search for my phone in the living room. I slumped down on the comfortable material and opened my phone. I wasn't surprised at all when I saw 33 texts and 18 missed calls. I was expecting to see that because by now, Kelly probably told her friends that I finally found out about their filthy plan.

I couldn't bring myself to just ignore the messages so I scanned through them. Of course majority of the texts were from my sister. Two are from Hayley and the others are from Vic. However, all missed calls are mainly from Vic. What did he want now? To victoriously laugh at my face? I didn't need that. Although they haven't rubbed it on my face yet, I could assure them that they succeeded in making me feel as if I was as useless as a filthy and tearing rag. I threw my phone back to its original place as I felt it vibrate once more. I didn't care. I just let it vibrate until the person got tired of calling me. Unfortunately, they were so persistent that it actually got to my nerves. I grabbed my phone, checked the caller ID and saw his name. You might think that I might've pressed the 'ignore' button but that's the exact opposite of what I did. Without a single hesitation, I answered it and put it to my ear.

"Kellin! You finally answered. Listen-"

"Fu.ck off and don't even try to reach me. Don't call me, don't text me, don't go anywhere near me or I swear to god-" I was the one to cut myself off. I said all of those things in one breath and really, I didn't have a strong threat.