Red Love (Kuroko no Basuke: Akashi Seijuro Fanfiction)

Chapter 22

Ai's Pov 

Days has passed and my stomach was getting bigger and bigger everyday. By this time, me and Amaya decided to get a dog, so it wouldn't be so lonely out here. His name was Yukio and he was a husky. He was so cute! He made me feel better after everything I had been through. I just wanted to forget about everything for the time being, but the child inside me kept reminding me about everything. 

Me and Amaya decided to go for a stroll since it was so nice outside. I needed to clear my mind. I was emotionally unstable right now and being pregnant didn't help at all. It was the season of Spring and it was beautiful outside. 

"Isn't it beautiful?" Amaya asked interrupting my thoughts. I smiled and nodded, "It is.." 

I soon felt something kick my stomach. I looked down and I just wanted to cry. He was kicking. 

"Amaya.. He's kicking!" I said as I put my hand where he was kicking. Amaya turned towards me, "Really?" She put her hand to my stomach and felt him kick. 

She looked up to me and smiled. 

I wish Akashi could feel him kick right now for the first time.. 

I smiled trying to forget about my thoughts. "Ai, we need to stop by the grocery store. I need to buy some ingredients for dinner." I nodded and followed Amaya to the store. 

Akashi's Pov 

"I do not want to fuck-iing go.." I slurred at Suki as I drank more of the liquor that was in my hand. Suki stared at me angrily and snatched the bottle from my hand. I glared up at her. 

"Stop being so pathetic, Akashi! We are going! The car is already ready for us!" She grabbed my arm and pulled me out the door. 

"Let go of me." I demanded. She didn't listen and continued to pull me along outside where the car was. We were going to Tokyo, because we were going to get married there. We were going to look at wedding venues there. That was what Suki wanted. I didn't give a fuck about anything. 

She managed to get me in the car even though I was cursing at her every second. We didn't talk the whole car ride. If she did talk to me, I would ignore her. I was annoyed with her. I was annoyed with everything. 

 We had finally arrived in Tokyo by the bullet train. It was only for a couple of hours. We ended up looking at a venue and I had to admit, it was really stunning. The landscape outside was beautifully done and the inside looked like a ballroom. 

This would have been her dream wedding. 

Ai's Pov 

We had got all the ingredients and we headed out of the grocery store. I felt bad, because Amaya was carrying all of the bags because she was afraid that if I carried a bag then it would harm the baby. The bags were heavy. I was only holding onto Yukio's leash and walking him. 

We crossed the intersection where there were a lot of people and I mean a lot of people. I tried my best not to bump into people. Amaya tried to stay close as possible to me despite all of the people around us. 

Akashi's Pov 

We were done with looking at wedding venues and it was time to go home. I was tired and I just wanted to fall asleep right now. I was finally getting sober a bit as we crossed the famous intersection in Tokyo. 

Suki held onto my sleeve like a little child. I didn't bother to listen to her or look at her. I just wanted to go home. 

I turned around and something caught my eye. From a far, I saw a familiar face. A beautiful face. Her long black hair. Her everything. It was the same. 

I blinked a couple of times and then she suddenly vanished from my eyes. I sighed. 

The alcohol is probably messing with my head. 

Ai's Pov

Amaya had grabbed my hand quickly out of the crowd. We rushed back to the apartment. I was so tired especially, because I was carrying a lot of weight around. 

I let Yukio rest in his bed, because he was really tired from all the walking we did today. It was already 6:46pm and it was almost time for dinner. I walked into the kitchen to check up on Amaya. 

"Do you need any help?" I asked as I leaned on the counter. She continued to chop up carrots, "No, I'm fine. You should rest right now." She smiled. "Call me if you need help with anything." She nodded and I walked out of the kitchen. I walked upstairs to my room and shut the door. 

I grabbed my journal and my pen which was beside my bed. I sat in my desk and began to write my feelings. 

The Words I Couldn't Yet Say.. 

Is it wrong for me to miss you? I chose this path by myself. I could have fought back and be selfish. I'm regretting my decision even though I told myself I wouldn't regret. Do you still think about me? Do you still love me? I want to be beside you. I want it to be like the old times where I was by your side. When you did sweet things to me and it would make me smile. I can't go back. Time won't let me. I still love you with my whole heart, but should I let go..? 

I'm sorry.. 

I love you so much.. 

4/04/15 

A single tear drop fell onto the page. Then another fell, and another. It was endless and my heart could only take so much. The heart can only take so much. I just let the tears fall wishing for it to stop and forget everything. 

I wanted to be happy. 

I wasn't happy. 

I needed someone to heal my broke heart. I was so unstable. I didn't know what to think. I have no one. I have no family. I don't have the person I love. 

I was alone. 

I got off from my bed and walked into the bathroom. I closed the bathroom door and stared at myself in the mirror. I looked like a mess. 

"You're so fucking pathetic." A voice told me. 

It was right. 

"I'm so fucking pathetic." I repeated. 

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Sorry for lack of updates. I'm extremely busy with grades and personal stuff. I hope I didn't make anyone cry or frustrated LOL 

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