Red Love (Kuroko no Basuke: Akashi Seijuro Fanfiction)

Chapter 31

Ai's Pov

We stayed like that in the night for awhile.

Suddenly, I felt Akashi release me from his embrace and turned away from me. He ran his hands through his hair, "I'm sorry."

I stood frozen as my feet were glued to the floor. "Wha-"

"I shouldn't be acting like this." He turned his head to the side, "You should go."

It was as if he had stabbed a knife through my chest. It hurt so much. I was sad, frustrated, and mad.

"What do you me-"

"Just go!" He raised his voice at me which startled me.

My vision started to become blurry. My head was spinning and my chest hurt. Without a word, I walked out of the room slamming the door shut.

I just stood near his door and wiped my tears away with my sleeves. It was late at night and no one else was awake. Everyone had gone to sleep already.

I looked back at his door and started to walk away as more tears began to fall. We both knew we still loved each other, but then we knew we shouldn't love each other. I had mixed emotions engulfing my body and mind.

I felt hot and frustrated.

How could he do this to me?

Kiss me and just say, 'go away' when I was trying my best not to love him anymore.

I hate it.

I closed my eyes and bit the inside of my lip.

I shouldn't be crying anymore. I should be happy for Akashi and Suki. They will soon be starting a family after they are married.

Suki really loves Akashi and I shouldn't pain her anymore. I should be acting as the person who I have become.

A simple house maid.

I need to move on, because Akashi will move on.

He has probably already decided to leave me. It has already been decided and there is no coming back.

I walked outside into the beautiful garden. The moon was out. I sat down on a bench and stared up at the moon and stars. It was incredibly beautiful outside yet it felt so lonely.

Akashi's Pov

I looked out the window and saw her there sitting on a bench looking up at the moon and stars. I shouldn't have acted how I was. I was so rude to her. She was in pain and I caused her even more pain.

She was the only woman I had ever loved besides my mother.

She was my life.

It pained me, because I had caused her even more pain. I wanted to keep on loving her, but I can't. I need to move on.

Even though I had said I would bring us back together.

I'm really pathetic.

I felt a substance touch my hand.

It was my own tears.

I didn't wipe them away. I let them fall. I let myself weep to tell myself how pathetic I am. I deserve this pain.

She has probably shed more tears than I have.

She was my first love.

Ai's Pov

I stayed outside for awhile. It was probably midnight by now. It was a chilly night, but it felt nice. 

I got up from the bench and started to walk through the maze landscape. I felt so lost. I didn't know where I was going.

Our love was a maze. 

I didn't know where our love was going. 

I stopped in my footsteps as I heard footsteps behind me. Someone was behind me. I slowly turned around. I saw a replica of myself.

Suki.

"What are you doing out here?" I asked.

"I should be asking you the same thing." She was in a black night gown. My eyes met the small bump forming on her stomach. My chest was stabbed. 

"Umm..I heard about..the news." She stared at me confusingly. "The baby." I finally said. 

She looked shocked, but then her hand met her small bump. "Ah..yeah." I looked down at the ground and kicked a small rock that was on the ground. "Me and Akashi are through, so don't worry about anything." I felt like my heart was being stomped on by the words that were coming out of my mouth.

She was silent. 

"..Thanks." 

I looked up at her. We stared at each other for a second until she turned away. She cleared her throat, "I should go to sleep." She started to walk away from me without giving me a chance to say anything.

This is for the best. 

Suki's Pov 

I walked back inside my room and shut the door while locking it. I laid down on my bed while staring at my reflection through the mirror of my vanity which was across the room. The curtains was open, so there was light from the bright moon outside which was shining through the room. 

I wasn't who I was.

I couldn't recognize the person who was staring right back at me through the mirror. 

It was someone much more wicked than the past me. 

It scared me.

I didn't like what this person was doing. I wanted them to stop, but the person wouldn't listen. My eyes were dull and lifeless. My innocent soul have left me ages ago. I ached for it. I want it back. It was taken from me.

I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. It pained me, because I wouldn't weep.

I know that I have committed a grave mistake long ago and the same as now. I just want to be loved. I do not even know what the feeling of being loved is. 

The pain in my chest wasn't just from not being loved, but from causing others pain also.

The look on her face. Pain was written all over it. She was able to sacrifice her love for a complete stranger who she didn't know her whole life. She had given up her true love. 

She had a son. A son who would no longer have a 'father'. 

A broken family broken by one woman. 

A woman who is helpless in love who wants the love to be returned to her. 

That woman is me.

I began to sob and picked up glass vase that was on my bed side table. I threw it across the floor.

*shatter*

Sobs filled the room. 

I knelt down on the ground continuing to sob. 

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