fall for you{jegulus}

brother

11:30 pm
Narrators pov:
Regulus sat on the astronomy tower crying it was starting to get hard to breathe he knew Bellatrix would react bad but he didn't know it would hurt so bad. "hello is someone- oh reg are you alright" regulus looked up to see sirius "i don't know" the younger boy said trying to stop crying "reg what happened? did someone do something to you? did you tell them the truth? did any of them say anything mean to you?" Sirius asked worried for his brother "i-i told th-them and bella started yelling at me and said I was a disgusting blood traitor and a fag and I knew she would be mad but I didn't expect her to say what she said and for it to hurt so bad" regulus sobbed "oh reg I'm sorry I shouldn't of had you spend the night! shit she's not gonna tell are parents isn't she? well of course she is! it's Bellatrix she lives to make other people's lives hell" Sirius yelled throwing his arms up in the air "yeah she is....... but can I tell you something really really important" regulus said looking up at Sirius for a second before looking away "yeah course reg you can tell me anything" Sirius said sitting down and putting his arm around regulus shoulder "well I think that I'm non-binary and use all pronouns but I'm not completely sure" regulus said pulling his knees up to his chest "oh? well- I- um uh I-. I have no idea what the hell I'm supposed to say but congrats on finding yourself! is that what I'm supposed to say? I don't know! no one has ever really come out to me till well till right now" Sirius rambled not knowing what to say "Sirius?" regulus asked playing with his finger's "yeah reg" "do you think Bella will calm down and not be mad anymore" "no reg I don't think so but no matter what I'll be here for you" "promise?" "I promise"
*Time skip to 3 hour later"
2:22 am
Sirius pov:
I'm laying in my bed reg is dead asleep next to me he told me about nightmares he's been having and about how he was scared I would leave him again and only 30 minutes after I left him at his dorm he was at my door sobbing so now Remus is in his bed I'm laying here bored and reg is cuddled up on my chest just like how he used to do when we were little. "hey pads you awake" I opened my eyes and James was standing over my bed looking like he was on the verge of death "yeah what's up? you ok prongs?" I asked and he just sat on bed sighing "I feel like I'm going to die" he said quite loudly "SHHH! I finally got reg to sleep" I whispered kicking him "why is he here was he having a hard time sleeping?" James asked sitting up a little bit having his elbows support him "yeah and he thinks I'm gonna leave him and that I don't actually love him and other stuff so if I'm being honest I'm a little overwhelmed" I said looking at regulus "oh well shit I'm sorry for waking you then it sounds like you need a good night's sleep" James said standing up "nah you're good I wasn't sleeping also are you ok? you look a little sick" I asked him trying to sit up only to be reminded of regulus who is still on my chest "well I think I caught that cold Evans had last week" James said with a cough "oh well then you should probably try to get some sleep" I said pulling reg a little bit closer cuz he felt cold "well I was trying but I have this splitting headache and the feeling like I'll throw up any second" James leaning on my bed for support and just then reg woke up and started sobbing  "hey hey hey what's wrong reg! did you have a nightmare? just tell me what's wrong" Sirius said rubbing regulus back trying to make him feel better "i..it was a-a night.....m-mare a r...really really b-bad nightmare" the younger male sobbed "it's ok reg I'm right here! you're ok. you're gonna be ok" Sirius assured his little brother and giving him a tight hug "Sirius....please don't go" the smaller boy begged half asleep "I'm not going anywhere reg! I promise" Sirius said holding regulus close to his hart "shit" James muttered running into the bathroom "is he ok" regulus asked trying to keep his eyes open "uh I don't know... can I go check on him without you freaking out?" Sirius replied looking at the bathroom door worried about his friend "mhm"
regulus hummed rolling away from Sirius
and curling up in a ball.

"Hey uh prongs you ok in there" Sirius asked knocking on the door "oh uh yeah just thought I was gonna throw up but I'm good" James said walking out of the bathroom "oh are you sure you're ok because I'm here if you need me you know that right?" the black haired boy asked "yeah of course I'm ok pads why wouldn't I be" the taller boy said looking a little shocked "well it's just that you've been more quiet then normal and you have been being quite rude to anyone who even looks at you and it's kinda worrying me" Sirius explained "well if I'm being honest with you I feel a little stuck" James whispered leaning against the door frame "stuck? what do you mean stuck" Sirius asked confused "well I just feel stuck like everyone else is falling in love and growing up but I just can't I mean I've tried believe me I've tried but I just can't find anyone I like and want to spend the rest of my life with and you all make it seem so simple but it's not it's like I meet a nice girl and I think I'm gonna fall for her but then I realize I only like her as a friend or sometimes I spend but enough time with her and then I feel like she's a sister and all I want is to find my soulmate I want to just be able to look at her and know that she's the person I want to be with you know" James explained looking a little embarrassed "oh James I'm sure you'll find someone soon and if you don't it's not a big deal I mean we're only sixteen there's no need to rush to find someone" Sirius said giving James a comforting smile "how can you say it's not a big deal you know that the wizarding world is quite small so if you don't find someone in Hogwarts you will most likely be alone for ever and I know you don't have to worry about that since you have already found the love of your life but I haven't!" James replied almost yelling "shhh! you're gonna wake someone! and you don't have anything to worry about I mean you're James fucking potter! everyone wants you" Sirius said trying to make James feel better about himself "everyone might want me but I want my soulmate someone I really really love not just someone I settle on because I can't find anyone better" James complained "alright alright I get it! Tomorrow me, you, moony and wormtail are going out to find you're soulmate!" "and how are we gonna do that" James asked laughing a little "I don't know that's future me problem" Sirius giggled out "ok fine tomorrow we'll go and find my soulmate but I think we should go to sleep so we'll be well rested" James taking a step in the direction of his bed "yeah good idea! night-night prongs" "night pads"

A/N: sorry it took me so long to get this chapter out I've been having a little bit of writers block and I thought my great grandma was going to die but she's ok anyway thank you for reading this I love and appreciate all of you <3