shapeshift

Chapter Eighteen

"Spence, you have to talk to him" Lottie says following me out to the buses.

"Do not" I say slamming the door shut. I walked to the back of the lounge.

"Yes, you do. You won't solve anything being mad. You've gotta tell him it hurt you" She says, following me back there.

"It didn't" I say. "Morgan and I aren't even...a thing. "He's a star, and I'm the girls manager. That's it. I'm not hurt, because he and I have no strings".

"Bullshit" She says. She was right. I thought we were really developing something, and maybe I was being over dramatic, but no one else would ever do that if they were with someone. Like I said, Morgan and I weren't together, but I thought thought those things he told me were real. I guess I was wrong. I stood up.

"Just...let me be alone" I say and crawl into my bunk, shutting the curtains. I heard her sigh. Then, I heard the girls enter the bus.

"Where is she?" Maddie asks.

"In her bunk. Just...leave her alone tonight" Lottie says.

"Morgan is in his way out" Tae adds.

"Good. I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind" She says before slamming the bus door closed. 

**Morgan's POV***

"Man, that show was wild" I say to Lottie. She met me halfway to the bus. "Those girls were drunk off their asses and spilling beer everywhere. It was crazy".

"Are you done?" She asks. She was folding her arms across her chest. I'd known Lottie for years now, so I knew that couldn't be good.

"What?" I ask.

"Did it not occur to you that signing some other woman's tits might make your girl mad?" She asks me. I put my head in my hands.

"Oh, shit. I didn't think about it. I didn't even know she'd seen that sign or would be watching the show" I say. Normally, Spencer just watched half my show because it ran so late. My guess is the girls told her they saw the sign and she watched the entire thing to see if I did it.

"Of course she watched you. She didn't think you'd do that" She says.

"I've got to go talk to her" I say.

"No, you need to leave her alone. The girls already locked the bus, so you need to wait" She tells me. I kick the ground.

"Man, I'm stupid. I really didn't mean anything by it, Lottie. I didn't think. I mean, I guess...I'm not used to having someone in my life that I care about like I do Spencer. I didn't want to hurt her" I explain. I truly did feel something for Spencer that I had never felt for anyone else. I couldn't explain what it was, I just never wanted to be away from her. I never wanted to be without her. I always wanted her nearby. Lottie and I started walking back to our bus.

"You've been on your own for a while now. You've been used to doing what you want, when you want and not worrying about repercussions. You've got to think about her now. It was pretty disrespectful. You don't see Thomas Rhett doing stuff like that on stage. I'm sure a bra gets tossed every once in a while, but you don't acknowledge it when you've got a good woman to go home to at night. And, she isn't used to this stuff. Cut her some slack with being upset, and talk ti her when we get to Arkansas, okay?".

"Okay. Yeah, you're right" He says.

"Now, get to bed" She jokes. I laugh and we pile onto the bus. Usually, I would've had a drink after the show but I hadn't been drinking for a while now.

"Not even a glass of wine?" Lottie asks, holding one up.

"No" I answer. "I haven't taken a sip of alcohol since Spence got drunk that night. She doesn't drink and if she and I have whatever we have, I'm not going to either" I explain. Lottie looked at me with soft eyes. "What?".

"Who knew Spencer Stiles would be the one to soften you up" She says.

"God knows I didn't" I say, she sat down beside me.

"You best do something to fix it. You won't find another woman like that" She says. I unlock my phone, I had a picture of Spencer set as my homescreen.

"Yeah" I say staring at the picture I took of her looking out at the ocean during the sunset that she didn't know I had. "I sure won't".

**
I had stayed up for hours, thinking about what to say to Spencer. I didn't mean to upset her by any means. I just wasn't used to having to think about someone else. I would never intentionally hurt her. When we got to the venue, I had a dozen roses ordered along with her favorite drink from Starbucks. Caramel Macchiato, extra espresso and caramel. I was really falling for her and I wanted her to know that I wasn't going to give up on making sure she knew that.

I walked over to the girls bus and knocked on the door. Maddie opened it.

"You come to make amends?" She asks. I smile softly. "You look ridiculous, you know that?".

"I gotta talk to her" I say.

"She's still sleeping" Tae says, joining us at the front. "She was not happy when she went to sleep".

"I know. I know I messed up. I wasn't thinking right. That's why I need to apologize. She needs to know I care about her, and I wouldn't do anything to ever hurt her on purpose. I mean, hell, I even stopped drinking for her. I care about her so much" I plead.

"Why stop drinking?" Maddie asks. I went silent for a few minutes.

"That's...not my business to tell" I say. "But you two can make her see that I'm sorry, so help me. Wake her up, do something. I just need her to know that I'm sorry". Maddie just looked at me.

"We can't make her do anything, Morgan" She says before walking away. Tae just looked at me. I turn to walk away.

"Hey. She knows you care" She says. "She cares too. Why do you think she's so upset".