Glass Girl ~ Melix → Book 1

Soldier [CH22]

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Felix~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!" I yelled, half blinded throwing the phone away. How was I blind? Oh yeah, by my tears. After I made to throw it, there was a huge crack noise. Immediately, it fell down to the floor. Of course it'd be broken. I didn't care, that it was Lauren's phone, I didn't care about anything.

"Everything she said was true!" I yelled once again, causing my throat to get even worse. I just couldn't take this no more.

I hide my face into my cupped hands, groaning against them. I just couldn't handle the stupidly of myself. The most horrible thing about this was that, if I'd have cut the end away, I'd have lied to myself too. And thatcould be even worse. Now, I've lied to my fans, my bros, and the most of all, her. Where's my feelings and loyalty? They all has just disappeard into the wind, like everything of myself.

I've lost it. I've lost everything that's possible to lose. How convenience. If I can't take care of myself, how am I suppose to take care of her? There's no hope for that. I should get back on my feet, but I can't. I'm not able for that. It really did hit me, what she told me. There's no words, that could possibly describe me the best way possible. I was completely worthless piece of nothing.

"Felix, what did you do?" Someone called me, as I heard footsteps coming closer and closer to my bedroom.

''Go away, I don't need you here!''

But why would she listen to me anyway? She stormed inside, the door hitting to the wall. I couldn't see her, but she was there for sure. Keeping my face in my hands, I let out a frustrated grumbling. There was a silence above us, which made me want to run away from here. Just why she needed to come here, right this moment?

"Felix! You threw my phone! Now it's broken!" Lauren muttered, still clearly understanding every word. I still didn't bother to lift my head up. Why would I, if there's nothing to see?

"You idiot! It was expensive! How can you do that?" Lauren took dead loud steps to the phone, I guess picking it up. I could hear, that she was mad, but I didn't care. It'd be just great, if she's just move out. I don't need anyone else.

"Answer me, you fucking lazy bastard!"

I didn't react.

"Fucking hell, Kjellberg! This is all your fault!" She kept shouting, this time earning my poor attention.

"This is the reason why she left you! You just don't care about anything! All you need, is just lifting attention, which you want and never care about other people! You don't care about anyone, just you. No wonder why no one liked you before, and nowadays!" She threw her already broken phone at me, but somehow she didn't hit me. It flew past me, hitting to the bed. I wasn't bawling, I wasn't tearing up, I wasn't almost even breathing - technically, because I wasn't mentally breathing.

"Marzia hates you, because of this. I haven't done anything, shithead."

That's when I snapped out of my control. My almost congealed veins were boiling, as all the rage started to become out like lava. I lost all my respect for her, by saying that one sentence. I didn't mind about her mocking me down, I didn't mind her calling me empty (as I am) and worthless, but when she says her name, I'll burn. That's the last thing I want to hear.

"How you dare to say that?" I asked, my voice being in the lowest as possible. I pulled my face up, my cold eyes nailed into her. She was pretty brave looking, but I could see it from her, she wasn't anything she looks.

"Is this your cat and mouse play? You're playing it all wrong, young lady."

I immediately stood up, heading to her. Then, Lauren started to take footsteps back, now hitting to the white wall. She wasn't so confidence anymore, as her hard and thin lips started to quiver.