Glass Girl ~ Melix → Book 1

Roll The Dice [CH9]

                 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Marzia~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

''No..'' I breath, covering my mouth with my hand. My eyes were changed to the wet and steamy, feeling my warm tears coming down my face.

''I'm..I'm so sorry..'' Daizo apologized. I could hear from her voice, that she's going to cry too.

''No, don't apologize. I should have knew that this was coming..'' I yanked, letting another sob.

''There was even this moment, when I kicked Felix out of bedroom. He was pretty penitent, and wanted me to listen. Obviously, I didn't. And then, his phone buzzed. He pick it up, and then he turned again such a big jackass.''

''And that's not even it. Yesterday, I guess he talked thought the Skype to someone, surprisingly nicely and he was polite. It didn't sound the same way, as he talks to me, or his other gaming friends.'' I finished, looking with my wet eyes to the screen.

''Well then.. It just confirms it.'' Daizo said, putting her hand on her forehead.

'' I still can't believe that Felix would do anything like that to you.''

''Neither do I. I just..'' I couldn't finish my sentence, since I burst to cry. I didn't cry loud, just quiet sobbing, shedding my tears. I tried to mumble something, but it just didn't work out. My lips were jolting. This isn't actually happening, right?

''Marzia..'' I heard Daizo sniffing. She sounded too pretty sad and wounded - Now we can cry together, 'great'!

''You have to talk to him, that's all you can now do.''

''I-I know!'' I lifted my head, holding my sobbing.'' I will, but now I just have to take a break.''

''I can believe that. But now unfortunately I've to end up. Are you gonna be alright?'' She asked with a concerned voice tune. I shrugged my shoulders, smiling a weak smile with the corner of my mouth.

''I hope so.'' I noted.

''Call me anytime, when you need so.'' She promised, smiling this time too.

''I will.'' I nodded. Then we shared a quick smile, before ending.

''Bye!'' Daizo whooped, waving.

''Bye.'' I said, a little bit boring way. I waved too. Then the call ended.

 So, what now? I have my battle scarfs, and I'm way too weak to do anything. The most disturbing fact is that, Felix mind me cheating on me. How could he? I was loyal and gave him my body. He betrayed me, and broke me inside. The shell of me has stayed. Now I'm just an emotionless skeleton - devoid of love and care. I loved him. I'm afraid to even look at him. Who known, if he next time would hit me. I couldn't even cry anymore. I was just sitting on our bed, looking into the emptiness. But one thing I'm really glad - Daizo listened me, and helped me. I don't have anyone else to talk to.

 I guess I've lost all my trust to guys.

 All I can now do, sit in here, and somehow spend my time. I'm way too scared to go to downstairs. I'm afraid of Felix. I've like never felt this way to him - this is weird. I hope I won't starve to the death in here..

--------------[Huge jump to the 2 weeks later]--------------

 It has been 2 weeks, since I last talked to him. I can't even say his name anymore. Still, I'm glad that I haven't starved to death. But there's still this thing, that I can only get away from the bedroom, when I hear him going to outside. He has almost every night exited the building, sometimes coming for a night to back home, and sometimes he doesn't come back home. This has been going on, this entire two weeks. I don't even know, have I get fat, or thinner. The fridge is empty, and there's nothing else left. I've actually eaten all the food, since it seems like he don't eat here - he eats somewhere else. He doesn't even visit at supermarket to buy food, and I'm afraid to exit the building. For this last one week, I've been ordered some pizza, when he's not home. I can't even know, if he comes a little bit earlier, so it's just basically a Russian roulette. But for now, he hasn't show up, when I've ordered some food. I eat junk food, once a day. How about my YouTube channel? I only make for it some animated videos, because I can't show my tortured and bruised face. I've actually made one video with my face, after me and he fight. Others are animated, and my subscribers are rebelling against it. Others are keeping my side, others just complaining about it. I haven't yet told them about this situation, because I want to see if this keeps going. I've noticed too, that he had unfollowed me on Twitter, and unfriended me on Facebook. I don't even want to know, if he has deleted my number, and anything about me.