Glass Girl ~ Melix → Book 1

Despair [CH8]

                 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Marzia~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

 I can't believe it.

 The love of my life thinks that I'm a 'piece of crap'. All these years, I've been fell in love with a man, who doesn't love me truly - or actually I'm not that sure. Have he always hated me, or what kind of storm is this? Why he'd hurt me so much? He has helped me to be more braver, and not that awkward. I felt so loved with him before - but not anymore. I don't have any emotion or anything like that inside me anymore. Only a shell of me has stayed. Or actually, I've some emotions inside me - but they're all negatives. Hollow, mentally broken, empty,shattered,cheated and played. I could keep telling all of them, but it'd take way too much time.

 I lied to you. I still do have one emotion left, which isn't that negative - love. Even when he has played me, and crushed me to the ground. I can't take my feelings away from him, or the memories we had. He owned me, and I owned myself to him. I gave all I had for him, as he did same to me. But then, he took himself above, and pushed me away. I tried my best, but it simple torn me apart - as it did us too. There's definitely some reason, why he'd treat me like a trash. If he changed in one night, there's something dusk going on. 

I still love you Felix, all the bottom of my empty and shattered heart.

I can'l approve him in the same bed anymore with me - I doubt he'd want so. I've to get rid of him and he's face. But as I thought about that, I got another tear on my cheek. It's going to take a long time, but it's the only reason to see, if he really loves me.

''I did it..I FUCKING did it!'' I heard a man voice yelling pretty..happy? That was it.. The anger and aggressiveness took a control.

''NO'' I shouted in pain.'' PLEASE NO MORE!'' I cried, with a mix of rage. Even when I haven't any heart anymore, I still felt a huge crack and pinch. I began to treble up, holding my chest. Then I headed to the bedroom, trying to not fall down.

''Shit...Marzia! Wait!'' I head him swearing and some footsteps. Then the door opened. I didn't want to look my back. I tried to walk faster, which sort of went right. He killed all the attraction.

''Hey, Marzia..Please stop!'' He prayed, hearing a footsteps coming more and more closer me. Oh, so now he's interested?

 I kept my way to the bedroom, still hearing Felix slumbering behind me. My brains said that I should just move on, but my heart told me to turn and hug him. This time I listened my brains, keeping my way hardly in the bedroom. As I entered in there, I headed to the closet.

''Hey.. listen..'' He pardon pretty desperately - I didn't listen. I searched for a coverage and pillow. I didn't glance at him, my body wouldn't let me. All my mind was focusing is just get him out. As I finally found them, I had to gaze into his eyes. He looked very, penitent and sad. I kept sill my face pretty cold and mad, even tho it just simply broke me inside - for the hundredth time.

''Take this, and GET out!'' I shouted 'quietly' and forced him to take the coverage and pillow. Then I pushed the pile, so he'd go out of this room.

''Please Marzia, I want to talk to..''

''Oh, and now you're interested about me?'' I interrupted. I walked backwards, and was right about to close the door right in front of him. I gazed again into his face, which looked really surprised and begging.

''Don't you get it? You hurt me. You crushed me and all my love.'' I began again to cry, But then, he picked his phone, and opened it. I guess it buzzed, but is it really more important right now? I bridled, twiddling my head.