Glass Girl ~ Melix → Book 1

Never Forgotten [CH10]

                    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Marzia~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's now over.

 I don't know, should I be proud of myself, or bang my head against the wall. I was curled into the little ball, resting my forehead against my knees. I still can't believe, that he still tried to apologize me, after all that he has done. I'm not his little toy anymore. I've shed way too many tears for him, bawling for my life, and wishing that he'd someday he'd hug, and never let me go - this all was just my little imagination. But still, after all he has done to me, I still love him. He still has the special place in my chopped glass heart. If I could combine all those sharp pieces, they'd form a picture of Felix. He was all I wanted for my life. All the attraction to him was gone. My whole world wasn't spinning around him, as the earth spins around the sun. But sadly, I had to separate from the orbit.

''Hey, Marzia..'' I heard a broken voice. Then, a back was punched against the door, where I was leaning. It was sliding, like I did before. I was able to answer, but I didn't want so.

''I know that you're right behind me, right next to this door.'' he said, swallowing loudly before continuing.'' And you're listening to..me'' The words were trailing, as he finished the sentence.

''So, I guess I can tell this to you. The whole story, how this happened.''

''I'm listening..'' I muttered, against my knees. My curiosity woke up, as I wanted so badly know, what he has done.

''Okey, good.'' He confirmed, sniffing afterwards.

''Everything started then, when I told you about two weeks ago, that I'm going out. It wasn't that day, when I didn't come home for a night - I guess you still remember it. And, I've to admin, I lied then already. I didn't met the bros - instead I met Lauren. But yes, as you knew already, I visit the market, to buy some food, and your little treat. She had spam my twitter, Facebook, every single social media thing. I had talked to her for two months, and then I decided to met her in person. As we met, she seemed like a nice and healthy person.''

< We talked about everything - including you. She wanted to go to bar, but I was thinking about you. I didn't go to bar with her - I wanted to be with you. She understood, and let me away. Then, I was already here, with you.

< Then, the next morning, I decided to talk to her. She wanted to meet me again. I wasn't sure, but I said yes. Then, the nightmare started. As we immediately met, she was already dragging me to the bar. I didn't want to drink any alcohol, but I did - She was soldering me. And then, I was already drunk. She guided me to the her place, and I slept there.

< As I woke up, I started to walk in here. As I walk by, I felt something weird. And this, is the worst moment - I didn't felt anything toward you. In fact, I actually hate you. I wanted you to get away from you. And, as you already knew, I was incredibly mean to you. But trust me, it hurt me as much, as it hurt you.

< And then the things got even worse. I only realized it now, when you got so angry to me - I had fell in love with Lauren. And, for these two weeks, I've only just talked to her, and visit in her place, and sometimes even spend my night there.''

'' What did you do, when you were in there?'' I asked, hopefully surprising him. I was scared to know it, because it's not hard to guess..

''I-I..'' He yanked, sounding pretty uncertain.

''We drink, alot. And...''

''Afterwards had sex''

 My mind just blew up. My heart wouldn't form a picture of Felix anymore - it's form an axe. It's the symbol of rage, and just beginning war. I couldn't believe it, and I wouldn't. All these years, I've been with a liar, who easily fells in love with another person. There's no way that this could be forgotten.