Moments - Larry Stylinson

Chapter 9 - Harry POV

I know I was meant to update yesterday but I wanted to do it on Lou's birthday. Happy Birthday Louuuuu! Thanks for always being there for  us fans. We love you more than we can imagine and it's impossible to believe that you are no longer the tiny teenager in the pic above! (well you are still tiny but you're 30! :(

When I woke up the next morning Louis was gone. I was surprised to be honest, I always woke up before him and then he dropped me at work before heading to uni. I sighed, he was really angry and we had to sort this out. Begrudgingly, I made my way to work, my mind in a fragile and exhausted state. I worked to my maximum capacity before leaving the café and giving my keys to the person on last shift for closing up and making my way home. Though I doubted, Louis would come to get me after this morning, I still messaged him telling him not to come get me because I had left early. He saw the message but left it on read. I couldn't take it. I was so emotionally frustrated, I just balled up sobbing before leaving another voice message for Jessica. My heart was aching the way it did when Jessica left and after so long the thoughts started creeping on me. The thoughts of me not being good enough, of not supporting my friends and boyfriend, the thoughts about me being selfish and unwilling to help those I love. I suddenly missed Gemma. I didn't want to worry mum right now but Gemma was someone I knew I could call any time of the day, even 1 am in the night but - things weren't the same anymore. I was just going to muster up the courage and press the call button when Louis walked into the house with tear stained cheeks and an exhausted look that probably matched mine. Behind him, walked in Niall and Zayn both looking furious and I knew I was in deep trouble.

I discretely wiped my tears away and if any of them noticed I had been crying they clearly didn't care. That's when Louis spoke. He started off in a false angry tone but it ended raw, insecure and broken, "Are you cheating on me? Am I not good enough for you? Did you find someone else you love more, perhaps Ed or someone called Jessica?" And the pain in my Lou's voice hurt and I shook my head. "You've got it all wrong. I love you Lou more than I have loved anyone or anything in this world. You can ask Ed, my Mum, anyone, Lou. I wouldn't cheat on you in my worst nightmare even." Niall was the one who spoke, "You told us to ask your Mum and Ed. I bet Anne herself doesn't know you're cheating on Lou and you really feel Ed is a valid witness, he's the one you are cheating with."

I'd never felt more lost. There was no way to explain myself but tell them the whole story but I couldn't, I wouldn't be able to. I was going to tell them by the end of this week but now I didn't know what to say. "Oh yeah, and we found this phone in your side drawer, Harry." Niall sneered. I gulped and my face paled. It was Jessica's phone. Even after these years I kept her phone and recharged the sim so that I could hear her voice mail, so I could hear her speak again, like old times. Niall continued, "And the owner of the phone must have surely spent a good while here, considering that there's a charger too." Niall's face was furious and Louis looked broken. Even Zayn who was usually not so reactive looked livid. "I'm not cheating on you, Lou please believe me."

Louis opened his mouth but shook his head and Zayn spoke, "Harry the evidences point against you. Explain the phone, explain the way you tell Ed you love him, the reason you both hug like the other means the world to you, why Ed seems to know everything about you when he's just a friend but your boyfriend doesn't know you. You've literally hidden everything from the guy you claim to love - you didn't even tell him you sing and the only reason you let him meet Ed is because Ed chose to meet him."

I sighed, all their points made me seem like the bad guy and I wish the ground could swallow me up because I felt weak and dizzy and I needed someone, Ed, Jessica or my sister but no one would come. Ed was preparing for tour and the other two options were straight no's. I was about to speak when Niall said, "Oh and we decided to check the phone out since you graciously provided us with the phone charger. There were over 500 audio recordings from you, just you. We only heard the first one and then stopped because we had to comfort Lou who couldn't stop sobbing." Louis winced as though he remembered the message again and I wondered what the message had been. I'd got Jessica's phone only after she left so it must have been something I said while missing her. Niall opened the phone and I asked, "How did you get the password." Niall shrugged and said, "Hacked in" Curse him and his computer skills. He played the recording. At first, all you could hear was my sobbing, ugly loud sobbing then I said, "Why did you leave? I miss you, I can't believe you left me alone Jess. You promised you'd always have my back. You still left. Was I not important enough. I loved you Jessica, still do. You were there for me when I needed you. Why did you give up on me now." The voice mail ended with my sobbing and I felt my chest rip in two as I remembered the day Jessica left. I could barely breathe and nearly stumbled before supporting myself on the wall. After a few moments, I composed myself and I looked up only to see Louis' expression full of betrayal and I had never felt so lost or empty before.  Niall however, continued his points, "Now Harry we could perhaps believe that she was an ex you broke up with and are now over but today just 15 minutes back there is another voice message for that bitch, Jessica." The way he spat her name made my blood boil and instinctively I said, "Don't speak about her that way." Niall cocked an eyebrow, "Hmmm, still in love with her aren't ya." It felt like my worst nightmare, I felt as though I was drowning and couldn't breathe. The very Niall who was such a sweet chap, funny and friendly to me was now accusing me of cheating his best friend. And he wasn't on the wrong side because if I found such evidence against Ed's girlfriend I'd be worse.

All paths were closed and only one option remained. "Sit down, all three of you. Just be quiet and I'll tell you everything. I'd promised myself that I'd tell by the end of this week but I guess I don't have any option. Just let me call Ed once, I need a confidence boost."

Niall nodded but demanded I keep the phone on speak and don't tell Ed that others are listening. Ed picked the phone on the second ring to my relief. "Hey Ed," I said masking my pain, though I guess it wasn't effective. "Haz what's wrong?" He asked and I was about to protest when he said, "And don't even tell me that nothing is wrong. I've been you best friend for 20 years give me some credit." Oh well, I'd have to tell him straight in, "I'm telling Lou, Ni and Zayn." I could hear Ed smile, "That's wonderful mate they deserve to know it." I hummed in agreement and then said, "I'm scared." Ed tutted, "Really, if Lou is half as supportive and wonderful and amazing as you say then there's no need to worry." From the corner of my eye I could see Lou blush slightly and I smiled a bit, slightly embarrassed because yes I do talk about Lou a lot but I couldn't help that he is the best boyfriend ever. "Alright Ed, I'll just go for it. I'll call you when I'm done. I warn you now I might need some severe cheering up and distraction."

"Alrighty." Ed said cutting the phone and I looked at the three lads sitting near me. All three looked slightly calm, knowing that there probably wasn't really anything between Ed and I. I sighed and started my story.

Fookin' long chapter that was... I know Niall seems rather harsh in this but honestly, I think a protective Niall would be a dangerous enemy to have... so Opinions on the chapter?