Stone Heart { Daniel Ricciardo x reader }

Chapter 1

"I am losing my mind around you, I am losing my soul, my control .. Whenever you're walking into the room, you become my all world"

It could have been words said by someone in love with you, but these words were from him. Your best friend, and you were so close that the love between you was this intense.

These were the words however that he had pronouce to you just before he ran away from you. Running away from what you were building. He made you believe everything was possible with him, that you could conquer the world as long as you were together.

This was all a lie and he broke your heart in millions pieces,turning it into dust and you couldn't pick up the sand to build a heart anymore, so you've built a rock instead.

You never opened up to anyone else after him, nobody was like him and everyone reminded you of him so you stayed away, living a lonely life.

One thing you couldn't stay away and decide to not renounce was your passion for motoracing, he was the one that introduced you to it and now it was the only thing you kept that was his. You never missed one of his races and every time no matter how hard the rock fell to the ground again, you endure the pain and keep watching.

It's been years now since he left to join Europe to pursue his dream, and you've been suffering since day one. He could have asked you to wait, ask you to join him and you would have dropped anything for him. You became a woman that wasn't letting anyone come near close to your heart, your rock covering the empty shell in you. Daniel took it with him when he left, he stole it from you and you had no way to have it back. We only got one heart, one chance for it to beat for someone and he blew it.

It was the first time after so long that your mind has pronounce his name, recently it has been harder, your heart was having a sort of crisis where your mind keep reminding you memories of him, adding it's own recipe of "what if" ... daydreaming scenarios of what could have been a future together.

"I am losing my mind without you, I lose my soul, I lose control over my heart .. As you left the room, you destroyed my whole world."

So after years you were finally deciding to put what you have been feeling on paper, you needed closure, you needed to move on, you were about to hit an age where you wanted to have a life, find that control back and you were ready to try everything to do so. Writing Daniel a letter wasn't part of the plan at first, but as you walk one day around the street of Perch you've crossed paths with his mother. Lovely Grace remembered you right away, telling you all about her prodigy's son and all you could do was to pretend it was okay when your heart had been crying out since the moment he left. She invites you to a coffee at her house, a place where you haven't stepped foot in since forever. Nothing changed but some stuff was added. He was everywhere and how handsome he had become, mature, breathtaking, confident. What have you become compared to him ? It was like you grew up on one leg instead of two, missing an important part in you. Grace even gave you his phone number and address, thinking it was a good idea for you to keep in touch since you were inseparable as kids, as you find out that her son never told her how you two end up things, if you could call that ending.

So here you were, writing the hole he had left in your heart when he went away. At first you didn't want to tell him, you just wanted to give him news of you, not expecting an answer from him. Your brain obviously decided overwise and that last sentence came, a shadow of his own declaration, your version of it. For years you didn't cry, writing this made you and tears fell hard on the paper,blurring some words freshly written.

It tooks you weeks to send it away, to post it and you were already regretting your choice the moment that letter left your hand to fall in the mailbox. It was too late now, you were wishing he wouldn't respond or even better, for the letter to never arrive at the destination. You didn't get the closure you wanted and that hopeless sensation was now fullying your whole body and soul.