How can I forget? | BILLIE EILISH

𝒯𝒽𝒾𝓇𝓉𝑒𝑒𝓃.

Billie's Pov-

Today's the day! My album drops in less than 24 hours and I couldn't be happier. 

I'm...happier than ever. See what I did there ;)

Anyways, the party started at eight and ended a little after midnight, so we had quite a long time for celebration. Laura and I found the perfect outfit for the night, and I was eager to wear it and show it off to everyone. It fit my curves and my body excellently.

My family all planned to meet up at Finneas and Claudia's home before we left for the venue.

I've spent literally MONTHS planning this out with Spotify and finally it's all come together.

But...

I had a feeling Jess wasn't going to be there, which did dull the mood. I tried not to miss her and want to be with her, but fuck it was hard.

I saw her in everything I did. 

I heard her say 'is that smart?' more times than not.

She was everywhere.

* * * *

"Billie, Billie, over here!" Photographers shouted. I glanced over into several cameras and gave them my typical face. The one where I don't smile, but you can like...tell that I'm happy to be there.

Cameras flashed and everyone shouted my name. Again, the venue was like a dream. Everything was placed perfectly and the fans were adorable.

As it got darker, more and more people started piling in and Jess was nowhere to be seen.

"Hi, babies!" I said happily, greeting a large group of supporters. They were all so gentle and kind.

"Billie!" One said peacefully. I smiled at her lightness. It was nice to be around my supporters and them be chill about it, not bouncing off the walls, y'know? 

After visiting with them, I went off and found some of my friends. They all hugged me and told me they were proud of me and how far I've come since my first album. So did my mom and dad. They've always been my biggest fans. 

Later on, music from Happier Than Ever and my first album played through speakers while people sang and danced along. Wow. They were all there for me? And my music? The shit I do for fun? They were all there for that?

"Billie!" Claudia shouted, making me jerk my head towards her.

"Heyyy," 

"Ugh, it's so pretty here. I'm so beyond proud of you babe, you and Finn are just so damn talented!" She expressed. 

"Stooop," I whined. 

Claudia smacked my arm and found my brother, who was somewhere else.

"Billie, go up and say a few words, not you're full speech yet, but just a few improv words," My mom instructed. I smiled and nodded my head. 

There were stairs leading up to this bridge-like thing where the speeches were going to be. I walked up to them, causing the crowds of people to cheer.

"Hi, guys!" I spoke, following it up with a chuckle. "How are you? Are you guys doing okay?" I asked.

The crowd went crazy, telling me they were in fact okay.

"Let's see," I began, "First of all, I just want to thank every single one of you for hyping this shit up so far, like it ain't even out yet and y'all are so pumped about it," I took a short breath before continuing, allowing me to think about my words, "Ummm...second of all, I just want to tell you all that I love you so so so much, and I'm so thankful for all of youuu," 

Fans and friends and friends or family were all there, screaming about how pleased they were with my brother and me.

Ugh, the album release party couldn't get much better. I was surrounded by the ones I loved the most, doing what I love doing the most. 

Except performing, I didn't do that, only because...well, it's just a release party.

Then, more photographers and 'interviewers' pulled me away, continuing to snap pictures of me. 

"Here, Billie!" The shouted.

And before I knew it, I was being shoved into the rooms so they could get even more pictures. 

Like always, I gave them that look. The 'don't fuck with me' type thing.

* * * *

A few hours later, we were nearing the time for pre-album speeches. 

Ahhh, the album was about to be released to the public. Woah. It felt surreal to even think that, much less actually do it.

"Are you excited?" My mom asked, nudging me on the arm. I beamed and nodded my head.

"Well, duh!" 

My mom giggled and wrapped her arm around me. "We're so proud of you, Billie," 

"Thank you, mama, I love you so much," I said, now pulling her into a bear hug, "Wouldn't be here without ya!"

We pulled away and separated. I walked alongside the pool that no one had gotten into, which I didn't figure anyone would. It was there for decoration basically.

I pulled my eyes up and saw her standing there. My heart rate increased as we spotted each other. I ran to her, maybe too fast.

"Jess?" I asked. She threw her arms around my neck whilst I threw mine around her waist.

"Surprise!" She laughed. I pulled away from her and studied her face. It was still the same face. Her eyes were stunning and her eyebrows were still the shape that everyone always wanted. She didn't have to wear any makeup because her face already glowed perfectly.

"What are you doing here? Like, Woah, you're here and I didn't think you were going to come because you were upset and - you came anyway, I-"

Jess interrupted my rambling by kissing my lips. Shit. I kissed her back immediately, and she could tell how bad I wanted it. Hell, if you watched us, you could've seen it all go down. 

I pulled back and smiled widely. "What was that for?" I asked.

"Because you wouldn't make the move. Now, it's my turn to be in love with you,"

I was so confused at her words. 

"Wait, what?"

"Billie O'Connell," Jess announced, "Will you do me the honors of being my girlfriend?" 

I gasped and nearly started tearing up. This girl made me soft as hell and I didn't like it.

I loved it.

"Well, yeah!" I said, still trying not to fangirl.

Everyone cheered us on, making me quickly realize we were in public. With fans and paparazzi. 

There's absolutely no way she asked me out? She was my...girlfriend? Finally?

"Billie! Five minutes!" My mom shouted, pointing to her watch. 

11:55 PM

"I have to go do a speech, so give me like...well, five minutes," I said to Jess, who nodded in response. I softly pressed my lips onto hers and smiled once more before leaving.

I darted back up to the stage and began my speech. The final speech.

A/N- I suck at slow burn... sorry if these recent chapters aren't the best, there's better stuff coming hopefully!!