Afterglow- Steve Rogers

Part 13

I collapsed onto the bed, my head hitting the pillow. Steve sat at the edge if the bed removing his tie.

"I'm sorry about everything" Steve apologized for probably the one hundredth time.

"I know, and I said I understand and forgive you" I said.

Steve shook his head most likely dissapointed in himself.

"I hate hurting you" Steve sighed.

"You can't love without being hurt it's impossible" I replied.

Steve nodded in agreement and came to lie down next to me. His blonde hair splayed around his head like an angel. He looked angelic.

I turned on my side, to look at him his eyes fixed on me as I ran my fingers through his hair. It had grown quite long.

"You think I should grow the beard back?" Steve asked his hand rubbing over his face subconsciously.

"Oh definitely" I replied.

Steve chuckled in amusement at my rather fast answer.

"What? You look ridiculously hot in that beard" I said.

"Ok, ok I'll grow it back" Steve laughed making me smile.

Steve turned over to his side so he was facing me his arm draping over my waist. A small smile spread across his face.

"I remember Tony always telling me I needed to get a life, find someone" Steve said.

"Glad you took his advice?" I questioned.

"Definitely, I always wondered how Tony did it with Pepper the two were constantly arguing, yet they always went back to eachother. But now with you I understand it, I understand how they made it work" Steve said.

"And how's that?" I asked.

"It's simple, just like Pepper and Tony we are soulmates Y/n. I just feel like we were destined to be together" Steve said.

I smiled and rested my hand ontop of Steve's.

"That's so cheesy" I teased, despite the heat spreading across my cheeks.

Steve blushed and shook his head at me, biting back a smile.

"But I agree, you were meant for me Steve" I sighed.

"I love you so much" Steve replied gazing into my eyes.

"I love you too" I said.

I tilted my head forward, resting my forehead against his.

"There's something I want to give you" Steve said.

"What is it?" I asked.

"In the morning" Steve said, I rolled my eyes.

"Seriously you're making me wait" I complained.

Steve laughed at my impatience and shook his head pulling his head back. He rolled over onto his back placing his hands on his stomach.

"So impatient" Steve teased.

"You absolutely suck Steve Rogers" I teased.

"Using my full name I must be in trouble" Steve teased.

He wrapped his arms around my bodu and pulled me ontop of him. I laughed and brought my hands up resting them on his chest, resting my chin against them. Steve propped his head up with one arm keeping the other arm on my waist.

"Yes you are, I hate you" I said a smile playing on my lips.

"I hate you too" Steve rolled his eyes playfully.

I shook my head and lay my head down on Steve's chest, his steady heartbeat filling my ears.

"Are you seriously going to sleep ontop of me?" Steve questioned with a laugh.

"Yes" I replied nuzzling my head against his chest.

Steve let out a small chuckle and wrapped his arms around me holding me ontop of him as his eyes fluttered shut.

"Thank you for today Y/n, I wouldn't have been able to do it without you" Steve said after a few minutes of silence.

"I'll always be here for you" I said.

"Always" Steve repeated.

I opened my eyes and turned my head so I could look at him.

"Always" I repeated.

He smiled, his eyes fluttering shut. I lay my head back against his chest, Steve's heart now beating slightly faster causing me to smile.

Steve's heart began to slow and calm down, leveling out as he fell asleep. I looked up to see his sleeping figure a smile appearing on my lips.

His eyes were shut, his mouth slightly ajar. He looked so peacefully. Soft and quite snores escaping past his lips as his chest rose and fell.

I entangled myself from his arms, careful not to wake him. I rolled onto my side, now lying on the matress but still keeping my head on his chest.

His chest more comfortable then any pillow. Steve's heartbeat comforted me, it always has.

Apart of me was still pissed at Steve from this morning but we're human we think we are doing the right thing but we're not.

I gripped onto Steve's t-shirt and held him close as if he would turn to dust at any second, like the roles were reversed.

It may sound crazy but it's not. We live in a world where half of the universe can vanish at any given moment and that was terrifying. Living like at any moment the person you love or even you could just be snapped away in a second.

But that's just tought me to love him more. Steve went without me for five years and now we both live with the constant fear of abandonment. It is dangerous to put all your love into one person, not being to go on without them but in our lifestyle it's reality. Both of us having lost so much it makes sense.

"I love you" I whispered to Steve as my eyes finally fell shut.

Forever and always.