XAVIER'S PRECIOUS ✔ {Editing In Process}

The letter

Xavier's P.O.V

It has been exactly one month since she declared her love for me and that too in front of everyone. After Sapphire, Erica is the only one that matters to me. I know most of you guys will think that I am tarnishing my first loves memory by moving on and finding someone else, but think of it from my perspective.

When you lose someone so special, you feel broken and shattered. Suddenly, everything reminds you of that person you held so dear to your heart. Trying to hide those memories every day, you soon realize is exhausting. You have to try and find an excuse to keep living because if you don't, there is no one there to keep you sane and to stop you from going off the wagon. You try and find something to keep you busy and most times it work, but then night falls and you feel lonely with only the moon to keep you company. You fall victim to your thoughts and only you can barricade them. Night strikes and all you want is for that person to be beside you, you want them to hug you and to tell you that everything will be okay. You fall asleep with tear-stricken eyes, a wet pillow, and a hallucination only to be awakened in the morning ready to do it all again. You yearn with everything you have for them to come back. You want them to love you just like they used to. You want things to never have changed. You want to turn back time.

It takes a toll on someone, constantly hitting rock bottom every day and trying to pick yourself back up again is not an easy task. Trying to pull yourself back from the deep ends of your misery so that you don't worry others. Finding someone who loves you just as much as you love them is a blessing. You can't carry those scars for the rest of your life and what makes it easy is that I know Sapphire would be happy for me to move on. I don't have to feel guilty. She will always be in my heart as the first girl who captured my heart, but it is time for me to move on and begin another chapter with Erica.

It's true that time heals everything; life gives you a second chance to be happy, to be loved, we are just too blind to see it so that we can grab the opportunity. They don't come all the time so you have to make the most of it when they do come by. Grab the second chance to live, grab that second chance to love because it is a blessing in disguise.

And I did grab that opportunity. Just because I love Erica it doesn't mean that I will forget Sapphire. She will always be there, inside my heart. Always.

Tomorrow's a big day – our wedding.

Erica will finally become Erica Manhattan. My wife and most importantly mine.

Hectic does not begin to describe these past 2 months. Who would have thought it would have been so arduous. On pen and paper, inviting guests, getting her mom's approval and taking care of what she wants seems like pretty straightforward tasks. But they are far from that.

I want this day to be about her, so everything needs to be one in her favourite colours and brands. I want this to be perfect for her. Apparently she doesn't have a favorite brand but she always dreamed of Gucci. But when I suggested purchasing items from there, she immediately rejected that notion. She wanted the wedding simple, but it's not really that easy to have a simple wedding, especially if you're a Manhattan. But that's what my girl want so that's what she's going to get. Today, she has gone dress shopping with her mom, my mom, Elizabeth, Olivia, and Alisha.

And I'm standing outside the shop waiting for Luke with Conner and Zayn. He's late because of some work. I didn't want to invite Conner but Erica said that it would raise suspicions so she insisted that we invited him. She didn't want anything to spoil her wedding. According to her, the past can be left in the past, and I agree with her.

''Hey!'' I heard Luke's voice from the end of the road.

''You're late man.'' Conner frowned.

''Sorry, had some work.'' Luke gave me an apologetic look.