My Hot and Naughty Love

Chapter 11 - CROSSING THE LINE

Bakit kaya hindi pa pumapasok si Cleofe? Tsaka sino yung lalaki nung isang araw? Nung nakita ko sya'ng niyakap ng iba at umiyak, I had this weird feeling inside. Like I'm having butterflies in my stomach. Ewan, di ko maexplain.

After class, I think I saw Cleofe papunta ng auditorium. I wasn't really sure coz hindi sya pumapasok tapos bigla sya pupunta ng school's auditorium? And what's that? May dala sya'ng itim na parang bagahe? Is that... a violin? Anyway, sinundan ko sya.. Hindi pa ako nakakapasok ng may marinig ako'ng tunog.. tama.. tunog nga ng violin.. Then I saw her, standing in the middle of the stage.. I didn't know she was playing the violin. I sat at the very back of the seats, madilim naman so I guess hindi nya ako mapapansin..

The way she played the violin is like a spell to me.. I was hypnotized.. The music was intensed.. She's sweating like there's no more time left to play.. At ng matapos sya.. bigla sya'ng napaluhod sa stage and she began crying... It just broke my heart. Simula ng makita ko ang scene na yun, hindi na sya naalis sa isip ko. The performance was worth a thousand audience but no one was there to see it. No one but me.. It was brilliant. It was great. But one thing's bothering me... why was she crying? Is it because of me??

Next morning on my way to school, nakita ko si Cleofe bumaba ng itim na kotse kasama nanaman yung guy na yumakap sa kanya. Pumasok sila sa isang Flower Shop. I wasn't thinking and just decided to stop by.

"So you're ditching class just to go on a date?" pa smile ko pa'ng sinabi

She was wearing a white dress and had this sunglasses on. Hindi nya ako kinibo ng biglang dumating yung guy na kasama nya.

" Cleofe let's go" sabay akbay ng guy kay Cleofe

"Teka. Boyfriend mo? Ang bilis ah.. Iba ka talaga." hindi ako makapaniwalang ang bilis nya'ng makahanap ng ipapalit sa'kin

"May problema ba?" sabay tingin ng masama sa'kin ng guy

" Don't mind him, tara na." pag iwas na hila ni Cleofe dun sa guy

Pinigilan ko siya at hinawakan sa braso..

"Can we talk?" i said

"Not now Eros" she answered

"After we talk i'll leave.."

Sumenyas si Cleofe sa guy na kasama nya na parang ok lang ang nangyayari. Lumabas kami sa flower shop , at nag usap sa may tabi ng sasakyan ko.

"Get in" pinapapasok ko sya sa kotse

"Sabihin mo ng gusto mo'ng sabihin. May mas importante pa ako'ng dapat asikasuhin.." tanggi nya sa'kin

Ha! Sya pa may lakas ng loob kausapin ako sa tonong yan. Akala mo kung sino sya'ng nasaktan the last time we were together but look who found a reboud first. I can't believe im having this conversation with her.

"Ok. I was right about you. Iba ka nga talaga. Akala mo kung sino ka'ng nasaktan the last time na magkasama tayo. Pinamukha mo sa'kin na masama ako. Pinahiya mo pa ako sa harap ng maraming tao. But look who's with someone else now? Ang bilis mo naman pala makahanap ng kapalit.. And for that, you're starting to look like a slut to me."  it just slipped my tongue

PAKK!!! 

For the second time, she slapped me again! This time mas malakas kaysa sa una. Then just before she turned her back on me, I saw those tears running down her face. Damn! Me and my big mouth!

I skipped class. All day nasa bahay lang ako. Weird thoughts running through my mind. That was the first time I made her cry. Was I too harsh? Last time naman na sinampal nya ko hindi naman sya umiyak ah. Di ako mapakali, I can feel these butterflies in my stomach. Then after some moment.. Sh*t! Naghahallucinate yata ako? I keep seeing Cleofe's face crying. That same expression she had awhile ago. Sa ceiling. Sa TV. Sa Unan. Sa pinto. God what's happening?! Kahit saan ako lumingon nakikita ko sya! I ran through the bathroom to wash my face. Then sa mirror! It's her again! Waaaahhhh!!!! Why is this happening to me?! I need to go out! I need to see other people, I think masisiraan lang ako ng ulo dito!!!

So I got my car keys and went out. Don't know where I was going, I just drove off. On my way, I saw Cleofe again. Going inside a funeral home. My curiosity made me want to take a look. Ano'ng ginagawa nya dun? So I followed her. She was sitting near the coffin. Still wearing the same dress she's wearing awhile ago. Andun rin yung guy kanina na kasama nya, nag eentertain ng mga dumarating. Teka.. Kaya ba sila nasa flower shop kanina?? Kamag anak nya ba ito'ng guy na to?? It seems like... Then nabasa ko ÄLFREDO FAJARDO . Could this be her?? F*CK! Stupid! Ang tanga ko talaga!! 

I want to give my condelences pero di ko magawa. After what happened kanina, nahihiya ako'ng lumapit. Damnit! I should've known. Tanga Eros. Tanga! I definitely crossed the line this time.

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*CLEOFE

Mayamaya, may nagdeliver ng funeral flowers ..

"Galing kanino?" I asked Ethan

"Walang nakasulat.."  he answered

Lumalalim na ang gabi, isa isang nagsisialisan mga bisita. Si Mama umuwi muna sa bahay para magpahinga. Si Tita Ida andito pa rin, umiiyak sa tabi ng kabaong ni papa.

"That's enough" pagkuha ni Ethan sa beer na iniinom ko

Hindi ko na binawi.. Alam ko naman na nakarami na rin ako.. 

" You'll get pass through this." as he patted my head

"Kailan kapa dumating?" paiba ko ng topic

"As soon as I heard, kinabukasan nag book ako ng flight pauwi"

" Are you staying for good?"

"That I don't know yet.."

ilang segundo lang ng katahimikan, di ko na naman napigilang umiyak.. umiyak ako sa balikat ni Ethan. Im just so glad he's finally here. I was 11 years old at that time nung umalis si Ethan papuntang America para dun mag aral. Kinuha sya ng father nya at dun sya tumira. Nung una nagsusulatan pa kami pero lumipas ang dalawang taon, tatlo, apat, hanggang sa tumagal ay nawalan nalang kami ng communication.. Hindi ko na rin napansin, nakalimutan ko na rin pala sya.. But seeing him right now, i'm very much thankful. Though ang dami ko'ng gusto'ng itanong sa kanya, kung bakit matagal sya'ng nawala at kung paano naging buhay nya dun, it wasn't just the right time. But I have to say, he grew up better than I expected. Very presentable, charming and handsome. Siguro may trabaho na sya ngayon dun sa America. For more than 10 years wala ako naging balita sa'kanya. Ayoko naman magtanong kina Papa noon dahil galit pa ako. I wish Ethan stays for good. I really need him right now.

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*EROS

Nakita ko'ng dumating na ang Sympathy Flowers na inorder ko. Hindi ko na pinalagyan ng pangalan, baka hindi tanggapin ni Cleofe. I stayed nearby. Sa may convenience store lang ako sa kabilang daan tapat ng Funeral home. I just watched her all day, nag aassist ng mga dumarating na bisita, minsan lumalabas at nagtatago sa gilid para umiyak.. Inabot na nga ako ng gabi eh.. Then I saw her drinking ng biglang nilapitan sya nung guy.. Ano kaya pinag uusapan nila? Ka ano ano nya to'ng lalaking to? Until she burst into tears again and hugged that guy. DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG. Ano to'ng naririning ko? DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko, tibok ba yun ng puso ko? Ang lakas ah! Waaaahhh!!! Ano'ng nangyayari sa'kin?! Sh*t I dont know why im still here! Last look Eros. He was hugging her so tight. DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG DUG. Waaaahhhh!!! Ayoko na!!!