October and April (Bk 2 Of The Valhireya Series)-rewriting

Eight

Cade

I could see how visibly uncomfortable she felt throughout the day. I admit that I didn't make it easy for her either but, to my defense, I haven't made her submit to me either. Still, her blood is now linked to mine. From the moment she signed the contract, it was inevitable that we would get to this point. It's difficult to be around my kind even without a contract. After all, we are the perfect specimens, made to torment people by bringing out their deepest needs and desires. Having a contract signed takes the level of yearning to a whole new dimension. Being denied the connection is painful for both her and me. I should burn the contract, but I can't. Just the thought of not seeing her every day is maddening. I ask myself why I can't let her go every day and I can't find an answer. Maybe it's the fact that I am a selfish bastard, but right now, seeing her run away from the dining room, I don't care anymore about any of these things.

"Miss Lu..." My words fail me as I turn her around and see tears pooling in her eyes. I feel mad at myself for letting it get this far. I wrap my arms around her and hear her small gasp. She hides her face in my chest but her body doesn't relax. I can hear her short breaths as she tries to calm herself down. I run my fingers down her back, trying to soothe her and she stops breathing altogether. Fuck! Why does she have to be so responsive to my touch? It makes me want to claim her even more. My body sings for her as well. I have never felt this way before for a toy, not after Reyna. They always felt the connection to me, but I've never felt any special connection to them.

"Ida..." my voice comes out a bit too husky. Her small fingers grab my shirt as she hears me say her name and her entire body tenses even more in my arms. I close my eyes and stop resisting her. I let myself enjoy her perfume, the way her hair touches the skin on my neck, the way her body shivers under each of my finger strokes, how her shaky breaths and gasps sound. My hands stop on her hips as I place a kiss on the top of her head. She finally raises her beautiful face to look into my eyes and I let go of all control and kiss her.

She tastes so sweet it's driving me insane. I kiss her with all my hunger and she doesn't resist me. If anything, she kisses me back the same way. I press her against the wall and she lets out a soft moan, driving me crazy. My fingers dig into the flesh of her hips, bringing her closer to me, trying to get some sort of friction and satisfaction out of it but there is none. There is only the frustration of not being inside her right now. I groan against her lips as she slows down the pace until we finally stop.

Her breath fans against my lips, making me want more. One kiss was enough for her to get me hooked. She got my body feeling like I haven't fed in days. Her eyes finally open and she looks at me with that innocence of hers and that is enough for me to take a step back. Jan is right. I will ruin her. I will take away her light and drag her into my dark world and this is not something I want for her. But if I could have her just once...

Idalia

My body screams at me for stopping him. Why did I do it? Why didn't I just give in completely? I want him so bad that everything hurts. The pulsing feeling in my abdomen is driving me insane. The feelings are too much and it feels like I can't breathe. But I can't allow myself to feel this way for him. It will only make things harder.

"I need to go!" I panic and run outside.

I sit on the stairs in front of the door and wait for him to join me, but he doesn't. A couple of minutes later, Jan arrives.

"What are you doing out here in the scorching sun?" He asks me and I plaster my polite smile on my face before looking at him.

"I needed a small break from everything." I tell him honestly. He raises his eyebrow.

"Did he do something to upset you? Cause I can kick his ass!" He says earning an honest chuckle from my side.

"Nope. He is just his normal demanding and misterios self." I tell him and he gives me an honest smile.

"Don't let him get under your skin. He is just too stressed out. Why don't we all go clubbing tonight? Take some steam off?" He asks and my face falls down.

"Mmm... I don't know about that!" I tell him.

"I won't take no for an answer! I'll text you the details a bit later. Feel free to go home and relax for the day. I got this!"

He enters the house and I spend another couple of minutes on the doorsteps. Maybe he will come after me. Just maybe... but he doesn't. My heart aches in my chest as I finally stand up and walk towards my car.

"Jan probably keeps him busy. And it was just a kiss, Ida. Just get over yourself!" I mutter to myself as I get in the car. You jave a job to do!

I guess I'll just have to wait until tonight.