Secrets (Zayn Malik)

Depressed

I know im annoying u guys with all this shit but i honestly have no one else to talk to.
Everything thats going on is so much to take in its honestly killing me like i honestly cant take people sending hate to zayn. I just cant. Its so hard for me its as if someone is killing me and ive never felt this way before.
I dont want zayn to flop.
Ill buy his album 500 fucking times if i have to get it to number one.
He's not coming on twitter because this is all too much.
Naughty boy is taking it too far but so is the fandom. He's sending the hate back.
But putting that song out like that. Even though i like it, it was a low blow. He's ruining zayns career and if u go on my twitter u can see me BEGGING him to stop because he's ruining my baby's life and its killing me.
Im so depressed its not even funny. Ive never felt this way before and i cant handle it anymore. I lose myself in these stories because i go into a world where im happy in but thats just for a few hrs and then im back to this shitty reality.
Zayn leaving the band is too fucking shady for me. What people cant get through their fucking minds is that he did not say he wanted a normal life. Fucking modest wrote that and during that interview, it was fucking edited. And he cant say what he wants because theres a contract that forbids that. But people want to be dumbasses and send him hate like that. U want to say 4/4 then go ahead. But im not even gonna fucking say 4/5 because im done. I think the only thing thats keeping me sane is the fact that zayn still has a twitter but if he deactivates then that'll be the last straw for me.
Just a few fucking months ago, people were defending naughty boy and calling him an amazing producer and should have his song kon "four" and now they're blaming him? Wtf are they blaming him for? People need to fucking grow up and so does naughty boy.
This whole situation is fucked up.
The fact that there was no interview for the rest of the boys after zayn left? The fact tht all that hppened was a phone call? Seriously?
Im so upset right now. I just wish i can go to the time zayn felt like he wanted out and just be with him and show him everyone he's ever saved or affected. I love him so much its unhealthy.
But thank you to naughty boy and to this fandom for doing this.
But thank you to Louis for sticking up for us without crossing the line.