Secrets (Zayn Malik)

Chapter 10

“Perrie?!”

My eyes widened as I saw her with a shocked expression. “I…I didn’t know you were coming today.”

Zayn looked at her in shock and confusion. “Why aren’t you on tour?”

She was about to answer him when she looked at me. “You’ve been crying? Aly why are you crying?”

And at that moment, guilt took over my body as I saw her concerned expression.

“Aly, why are you tearing up right now? What’s going on? Zayn what’s wrong with her?”

“She’s…She’s been through a rough time.”

“Don’t tell me Andrew’s out of jail?! Alyson, babe talk to me.”

I’m such a slut.

I’m such a bad friend.

I’m a backstabber.

I can’t believe I did this to her.

I’m such a whore.

“Here, let’s go into the room and talk, yeah?”

I need to tell her. I need to do it.

I nodded as I wiped my tears away.

“Okay, we’re alone. Talk, tell me what happened.” She told me as she closed the door.

“I’m so sorry…” I whispered as I cried.

“Aly, what are you sorry about? You haven’t done anything. If anything, I should be the one apologizing for not being there with you through everything.”

Guilt. More Guilt. More and more guilt.

“Now, tell me what’s going on? I thought you guys were staying in Doncaster for another few days?”

“I…Perrie…I’m…I’m adopted.”

Her eyes widened at my words as her hands flew to her mouth. “Oh my god!”

“I couldn’t stay there anymore. I just couldn’t. I started yelling and screaming and I just couldn’t take it.” I cried.

“Hey, it’s fine. It’s fine.” She said as she hugged me. “Cry all you want because it’s normal to cry. But please Aly, don’t push your family away. Adopted or not, they love you so much.”

I shook my head as I cried. “They lied.”

I lied.

“You just need time. You all need time and it will get better.”

“Perrie…I’m…I’m such a bad friend.”

She pulled away and looked at me, confused. “No you aren’t. Alyson you’re everything but a bad friend.”

“I am. I am a bad friend. I’m so sorry, I’m so so sorry.”

“Stop apologizing.”

“I need your forgiveness.”

“For what? You haven’t done anything!”

“Yes I have!” I cried.

“Whatever it is, it’s probably not that big of a deal, so don’t worry about it.”

“It is a big deal. Perrie…before I tell you anything, I just want you to know that I’m so so sorry and I honestly had no clue to what the hell I was doing when it happened.”

She looked at me in confusion. “You’re scaring me.”

“Pez...I…Me and…me and Zayn…we…we were drunk…and we had no clue what was going on and he doesn’t even remember and I’m pretending that I don’t remember so he doesn’t feel guilty about it because it was probably me who started it and I’m so sorry. We were both drunk and we just…it just happened! We…we…we had sex.”