Completely Different (ONE DIRECTION)

Chapter 8

SONG I LISTENED IS OUT OF THE WOODS BY TAYLOR SWIFT X

COMPLETELY DIFFERENT ||•c 8
KIM's POV

Tears start to gather in my eyes and I stared at the pictures in panic. I am speechless. I don't want him to find out like this. I know I haven't planned on telling him the truth too soon but not like this.

"I can explain, Lou-"

"EXPLAIN WHAT? THAT BLOOD IN YOUR CHEEK? YOUR SCARS IN THE BACK?!" his voice raise and I can't find my voice to snap back at him.

For the first time in my life, I don't know what to say. I can't find something; some explination fit for this.

"Thinking of another lie again, huh, Kim?" he looked at me in disgust and I cried harder when he continued. "Is Kim even your name?"

"Did you want money? Did you want fame? Do you want us all dead? Do you want to heartlessly pull the trigger in my forehead? Come on!" Louis kicked the chairs and I flinched at every move he makes.

He's talking so fast in between sighs, groans, that scream out disappointment, disgust and pain. I have never seen him like this, this is too much for me. I wiped the tears off of my cheek and look at my palms. I do have a bloodstain, just a little but I know for Louis, it's already a big deal.
I opened my arms widely to hug him but he pushed me away. I cried, I could only hear the echoes of my cry inside the stadium.

I stepped forward to try to touch him but he flinched away and yelled, "Don't get your filthy hands on me!"

"What?" I am surprised. Really surprised of what he just said. Cant this go any worse? I stepped back and squat down, still crying my eyeballs off of their cages.

"How did I even trust you," he said in disgust. Every syllable of his words shoot daggers in my heart. It pains me to see him like this, to even hear him say all this shit against me. But who am I to even blame him?

"I was being true to you-"

"So is Kim really your name?" he cut me off and I stare at him with wide eyes. I can't tell him my name, I can't risk his life. He has much more in his life than I will ever have. If he'll know my name, it would be to soon for his end. I don't want to see him, lying in front of me. I don't want to be the cause of his fall.

"Louis, I-" I can't tell you.

"See? You can't even tell me your fucking name! How did I even.. How.." He broke down in front of me for the second time.

I can't tell you, Louis. I'm so sorry.

"You're not who I assume you are, right? This is all one big fucking act?!" he threw a plastic bottle out of frustration.

"Louis everything that I..."

"It wasn't true right?"

"Louis! Will you quit on cutting me out? I'm trying to say something here! Don't you want that? Don't you want an explaination to all of this!?" I raise my voice and cried.

He didn't say something, he just looked away. It kills me to see him with all the pain clear in his eyes. The disgust, the disappointment, the loathe. I couldn't even see those innocent, loving blue orbs I adore. All I see is plain blue.

"Louis, my name isn't Kim," I started by answering his question. He was about something but I 'shh' him and bit my lip, closing my eyes trying my best not to break the tone of my voice when I continue. "I'm not Kim Austin and all the pictures you saw are true. But I'm here for a reason.. and that is to protrect you. Not only you but all of you. Zayn, Liam, Niall, Harry.. Lux, Lou, Sandy, Josh.. Even Paul and the rest of the crew. "

My voice broke and I covered my face in embarrassment. I don't want to cry anymore yet time and fate are against that.

All I wanted for the past few days is to be normal. To clear and patch the broken stitches up... my broken stitches. Why is it so hard? Why is it so hard for me to just carry on with my life? Is this the thing they called Black Karma? Well, it really is a  bitch right now.

"But all I showed to you and rest of the crew are true.. Louis, I love you.." I cried much harder when he closed his eyes in annoyance and anger when I told him I love him. "I really do."

My voice broke to pieces and I myself broke down in the ground with my scattered pictures. One confirmation is all I'm going to say..

"But your father, I did-"

"SHUT THE FCK UP AND LEAVE!" he pointed at me and I cried again. I didn't, Louis. I want to tell him I didn't. "LEAVE!" he repeated.

"Louis please," I beg.

"Shut up and leave with all your bullshit," a tear escaped his eyes and I couldn't find my voice.

[ELOUNOR BROKE UP, ZAYN LEFT, AND I DONT KNOW HOW THE FCK SHOULD I CONTINUE WITH THIS. AHA ! I WILL JUST LEAVE THIS. SORRY X]