His Sins

CHAPTER - 34

AVNEET'S SIDE:-

Avneet's POV:-

After celebrating my birthday with my family, I went to my room. I love my family a lot. I can even give my life for them. But there is still a piece missing in my heart. I know who is that piece, who can complete my heart. I really hate him, I loathe him, but I love him more. I don't know why I never could bring myself to him. I still love him a lot, and I hate myself for that. 

I really need to sing to let this out. With that I went to the music room in our mansion, and closed the door, so others can't hear me. I went to the grand piano palced near the wall, showing our garden, and a swing.

 With his thoughts in mind I closed my eyes, roam my handa above the keys and began playing.

You promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn
Sang off-key in my chorus
'Cause it wasn't yoursI saw the signs and I ignored it
Rose-colored glasses all distorted
Set fire to my purpose
And I let it burn
You got off on the hurtin'
When it wasn't yours, yeahWe'd always go into it blindly
I needed to lose you to find me
This dancing was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeahTo love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love meI gave my all and they all know it
You turned me down and now it's showing
In two months, you replaced us
Like it was easy
Made me think I deserved it
In the thick of healing, yeahWe'd always go into it blindly
I needed to lose you to find me
This dancing was killing me softly
I needed to hate you to love me, yeahTo love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love meYou promised the world and I fell for it
I put you first and you adored it
Set fires to my forest
And you let it burn
Sang off-key in my chorusTo love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to hate you to love me, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
I needed to lose you to love meTo love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeahAnd now the chapter is closed and done
To love, love, yeah
To love, love, yeah
To love, yeah
And now it's goodbye, it's goodbye for us

As soon as I finished the song, I heard a throat clearing behind me. I turned around and here was standing my eldest brother, my second father, with two cups in his hand.

I didn't need to guess what was in that cup, I know it was my favourite hot chocolate with lots of marshmallows.

He moved towards me, crouched own , after keeping the mugs on the nearby table, he wiped my tears, which I had no idea about. After that he just hugged me and pressed me tightly in his chest.

Kartik - What happened princess (softly)

Avu - Him.

As big B heard this, he tightened his hold on.

Kartik - What about him (he spats him with venom filled in his voice)

Avu - He still effects me big B, I still love him and I hate myself for that. Why did he do this bhai, why? Am I not lovable? Am I ugly? Am I not enough? Why big B? why?

And with that the dam broke out. Big B kept rubbing my back, and kept saying soothing words in my ear.

Kartik - U are a very pure soul princess. It's his loss that he lost such a precious gem like u, my little one. And never say u are not lovable, I love u , mom and dad loves u, naira loves u. Everyone in this family loves u dearly. U are like our air, we love u a lot, heck I know mom, dad, both chaha and chachi loves u more than any other of our siblings. And u are the most beautiful girl in this entire universe. U are enough, make this clear U ARE ENOUGH. If any boy can't see that then it's his fault, not yours. So never underestimate urself.