He's Not All Bad- Book 2

Lost in confusion, like an illusion

JUSTIN P.O.V.

Well let me tell you a story about a girl and a boy, when she's around he feels nothing but joy........

Truth is, that's not how it happened with me and Sel. It all dated back when Scooter my beloved manager hooked us up for publicity, and yes I did say publicity you know to boost our popularity. I guess Scooter thought that if we faked being a couple would make both of our careers bigger, better and stronger.

He was right except from my side of the story it wasn't fake, it was real, I felt something for her, its still there but I don't know if I can really trust her anymore. She proved to me that I can't by going to TMZ, I don't want to see Emily hurt. ABout Emily.... it would be a change to date a belieber, I know you all want to see that happen but its going to take a while, my feelings are mixed up right now. Its hard to say whether I love Emily or whether I love Selena but I have to choose one. On the other hand Drake, my stepbrother he's back to being the arrogant person I've known my entire life, I was wrong about him too, I've been wrong about a lot of stuff actually, there's a 95% chance he's going to hurt either one of them and I can't let that happen, I won't. Despite my feelings I will get angry, I will lash out, I will feel depressed sometimes, I will do crazy things but this doesn't define who I am, this isn't me.

You all see me as the guy that pee in mop buckets, got arrested for DUI driving, got thrown out of a bar, smoked weed. I'm also known as the guy who sang as a girl when he first sang "Baby", or the guy that is gay and is a faggot, I'm the guy that is also known as stupid and a dumb cunt not to mention also the guy that should be deported back to Canada. People even filed a petition for it to happen but it didn't. The thing is in life there will always be haters but haters won't stop me from doing something I love and that's music. Not many of you see me from who I am, I have a kind heart, I love people and that's how my mother raised me ever since I was a little kid growing up I was thought to be generous to others that's why I give back. How I really feel inside? Well no one really knows but me. Look at it this way, I get judged, critized, put down on a daily basis but what am I left to do? I have to ignore it, being famous isn't easy at all, take it from me, its really tough knowing that the whole world is waiting for you to fall, but I won't fall, I won't let haters let me fall.  I'm kind, sweet, loving, I have a heart, this is who I am

Selena: *knocks on the door*

Justin: GO AWAY!!!

Selena: Justin I need to talk to you

Justin: I don't want to talk to you, go away

Selena: I'm not leaving till you open the door

Drake: *walks by* I thought Scooter said to leave him alone

Selena: Shut up

Drake: Whatever Selena you'll get what's coming to you

Selena: The fuck, Justin open the door

Justin: *goes to the door and opens it* I told you to go away

Selena: I need to explain

Justin: 5 minutes.......... Go!!!

Selena: Kate..............