Is he the one; Matteo Riddle

PART THIRTY FIVE

Now it was Fred's turn to spin. I laid back and relaxed. That was until after landed on me. I looked at him and he looked at me. Everyone went silent. They knew he was like a brother to me. "Um, yall can skip if you want." Blaise said.

"No!" Lavender yelled. "The rules of the game is to kiss whoever the bottle lands on. She can't skipped."

"But you didn't kiss Y/N." Lorenzo added.

"Yeah, because i'm in a relationship." She said looking at Matteo. "I have to be loyal." Matteo smirked.

"Whatever. Im not a pussy so i'll do it." I said standing up. Everyone's eyes were on me. I walked over to Fred. "Mama didn't raise no bitch." I said while leaning down and kissing Fred. Not as rough as I did to Harry. But still pretty rough.

Matteo had a smirk on his face. I don't know why, what did I do to make him smirk so much? When I turned to walk away away I licked my lips and winked at Matteo. Who winked back at me. I could immediately feel my cheeks get hot, I don't know why either. I've lost all feeling for that dick. I hope.

I walked back over to Harry and sat next to him. "Is my face red?" I whispered. "Yeah," Harry replied.

Just great.

"But it's always a little red." He said.

"How would you know?" I asked.

"I look at your face a lot, I guess."

"That's a bit creepy." I laughed.

"Oh, uh, no, I-I didn't mean it like that." He stuttered.

I lightly slapped his shoulder and laughed. "I'm only teasing Harry."

(For some reason I can perfectly imagine Hermonie saying that in a british accent-)

We both laughed a little and I turned back to see Matteo frowning, almost growling. I smirked before looking at Harry's hand and taking it into mine. It was all hot and sweaty.

He clamped my hand tightly before releasing it a little bit. I turned back to see Lavender leaning into Matteo and kissing him. Except he put his hand on her waist and pulled her closer, kissing her slowly, yes so passionately.

Like the way he used to do to me.

At that very moment my heart shattered. And I never understood why till now.

I still loved him.

After everything he's put me through, I can't manage to get him out of my head. Anytime I think about something, it all leads to him. But he doesn't lead to me.

I suddenly feel my eyes water up and notice Matteo staring at me, breaking my heart even more. Before I knew it I was in tears.

I lost.

I lost.

I can't do it. I never can. I thought I could be strong, I'm a death eater. I'm supposed to have no feelings. What did I do wrong.

Everything. You do absolutely everything wrong.

"I need to get out of here," I said to Harry before standing up and bolting out of the room. Everyone was watching me have a complete breakdown. It was embarrassing. I'm such a baby. Crying of a boy.

Pathetic.

I run. All I can do is run. Who do I go to? Matteo was my go to place. And now, now he's-

"Y/N!" I break out of my thoughts when I hear someone call my name. A familiar voice. I turned around. And that's when I saw.

Matteo.

He walked up to me. Just a couple of feet from me.

"What? Couldn't handle the sight of me and Lavender?" He asked cocky. "Why?" I asked.

"Why what?"

"Why did you change?" I said, breaking into more tears.

"Because, you made me change."

"No." I said, starting to get angry. "A broken heart is what changes people. Who broke you?"

"You. You broke me."

"No." I said once more. "I fixed you. And you broke me."

"Is that what everyone is telling you? That your not the problem. I am?" he asked.

"No one is telling me anything."

"Seems like Potter is."

"Me and Harry are just friends." I said, feeling bad. I just put on a whole show practically proving that we were more than friends. I'm so pathetic.

"You seemed pretty happy with him." Matteo said changing his tone of voice."

"No, i'm not Matteo. I was happy with you." I said almost losing it. "No matter how much I hide and conceal it I can't erase it."

"The move on."

"I can't!" I yelled.

"Why not?!" He yelled back.

"Because!" I yelled, finally letting it out. Breaking free. "I love you, not because of what you have but because of what I feel. I care for you, not because you need care, but because I want to. I'm always here for you, not because I want you to be with me but because I want to be with you! I'm not saying that I think of you constantly but I can't deny the fact the each time my mind wanders, it always finds some way back to you!"

Matteo stood there, speechless. This face expression changed a lot. Almost like he was actually feeling something.

"You made me feel that you really liked me. And then you just left, just like it was nothing! It's like, you wrote your name in permanent marker on my paper heart and now you've left and I can't erase the damn ink stain! There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds. I wish I could give you my paint for just one moment. Not to hurt you, but so that you could finally understand how much you hurt me!" I said letting it all out.

Again Matteo just stood there. Again, speechless. This is when I realized I had moved myself closer to him.

"Say something dammit!" I yelled crying again. "You don't even care that i'm pouring out my heart to you! Im begging you to come back. Why won't you listen to me?!"

That's it. I couldn't stand it anymore. I couldn't.

"Please Theo!" I begged. "Don't leave me." I said bawling. "I promise I'll be loyal, I'll never leave you, we can do anything you want, and- and-"

And before I knew it, Matteos hands were on my waist, pulling me closer to him. Then he kissed me. Roughy and passionate. Just the way I like it. I leaned into the kiss more and shut my bloodshot red eyes.

I missed this feeling. I missed being in Matteos arms. Holding me against his warm body. Chest to chest. I felt a tear go down my cheek. But it wasn't mine. Matteo was crying.

Matteo stopped kissing me and rested out foreheads together. I opened my eyes to see tears streaming down his face.

"I'm so sorry Y/N. I never wanted to leave you. I love you. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry for being a horrible boyfriend. I'm sorry for everything. I just want you back." He spoke fast.

I placed my hand on his cheek causing him to open his eyes.

"Then you can have me." I said.

We leaned in to kiss again, until we were interrupted.

"Y/N?" I turned to me stunned and frozen in fear.

Harry.

Well yeah, that's the end of the chapter haha. im lowkey thinking of quitting this book. it's so bad, no one rlly reads it, i have no ideas for it, and it takes a lot of motivation to start writing it. but i may just take a break. hope yall enjoyed!