Professor Romanoff

Chapter 55

After a while I end up falling asleep. I just want all of this to be over and to be in her arms again.

I wake up the next morning and decide to stay where I am. I stayed in Wanda's bed with her. I love her and Carol, they're like the sisters I never had.
"Hey, how'd you sleep?" Wanda asks, waking up.
"Absolutely shit. I miss her." I admit.
"I know, it's gonna be hard." she replies, hugging me.

Wanda and Carol go downstairs to get breakfast hesitantly. They didn't want to leave me but I need some time alone. I go to go on my phone but Nat and I is still my lock screen. I put my phone to the side and sit in silence. I don't know how I'm supposed to get over this.

After a few hours I go downstairs to get some food. I'm starving. I stop at the door as I hear voices. Sounds like Bruce. Ugh. I watch from the door frame unnoticed.
"She clearly wasn't right for you, Tasha." he says to her. She's sitting down and he's standing up, his arm around her shoulder. He's getting way too comfortable with that nickname. It was my nickname for her. Please don't be in love with someone else.
"Don't call me that.." she mutters. That brings solidarity to me.
"Let's just go to my room, we can watch tv." he says.
"I'm sorry Bruce, I can't." she tells him, getting up and leaving towards me. I stand there, unable to move. She looks me up and down, eyes puffy, she scoffs then walks away. She's deprived of her 'Tasha' necklace, like I am my 'Y/N/N' necklace. The breath gets stuck in my throat as I feel my eyes tear up as I watch her. She's cold. Normally she's so loving towards me. The love is still there... I hope. I don't feel hungry anymore. I also need to take my iron tablets but I can't bring myself to go into the same room as Bruce.

I head back upstairs and go back to sleep. I don't wanna be awake, I'll end up overthinking.

Wanda POV:
"I'm worried about her." I tell Carol as we get back into our room, Y/N asleep.
"She's lost without Nat. We should tell her what really happened." Carol replies.
"We can't, she'd never trust us again." I say.
"She's only gonna get worse Wanda. Maybe we should do something about Bruce. What the hell was he thinking? He's gonna end up tearing this team apart, Y/N's worth ethic has already depleted." she explains.
"You're right. We should leave it for a day to make sure she's feeling better." I sigh, realising that Carol is right.

Y/N POV:
I'm pretty sure I slept for the whole day. I wake up to see Carol and Wanda watching a movie on Carol's bed..
"Hey, how are you feeling?" Wanda asks, looking over at me. I shrug.
"Are you hungry?" Carol asks. I shake my head. I think I'd be sick if I ate.
"Do you wanna watch movies with us?" Wanda asks. I nod and she extends her arm. I lay next to her and Carol
"Thank you." I say to the two.

Natasha POV:
It just doesn't make any sense to me. We were so good together. I loved- no... I love her so much. I'm not one to beg, I normally cut my losses, but I need her. Seeing her around the compound isn't doing anything good for me. Bruce has been trying to help but I think he's doing more harm than good. Clint's the only one who is doing anything to successfully distract me. I think Bruce is just trying to use my vulnerability to his advantage. I can't be with him. Everything he did to Y/N before is a major red flag.
"Hey, how was your food?" Clint asks as I enter his room. I've been staying here since the events of yesterday. I don't think that Y/N has been in there since either. I can't hate her, no matter how much I want to. She's made me weak.
"It was fine." I reply, sitting down on the couch in Clint's room. "I think I'm just gonna go to sleep." I say.
"Okay, sleep well." he replies with a smile.

Y/N POV:
I decide to go for a walk around the compound as most people are asleep by now. It's 1am. I get some leftover pizza that Wanda and Carol left for me.
"Midnight snack?" Someone says. Tony.
"Geez! You scared me." I say.
"Sorry, couldn't sleep. Guessing you couldn't either?"
"Nope." I say as I slump into the seat next to him.
"What's on your mind, kid?" he asks.
"Stuff with Nat." I reply shortly. "What about you?" I ask, biting into the pizza.
"I have a week-long mission to give to someone on the team. I have no idea who to give it to." he sighs.
"Me." I say.
"What?" he asks, shocked by my willingness.
"I need some time, I think this will help. What is it?" I ask.
"Some basic information grabbing in Australia." he says.
"Easy. I'm down." I say.
"Are you sure?" he asks. "It'll be super boring." he adds.
"100% sure." I reply.
"Okay then. You leave tomorrow." he says before getting up. "Night Y/N." he says.
"Night Tony." I reply.

The next morning I get up early. I've been borrowing some of Carol's clothes since I haven't gone back into mine and Nat's room. I think she's been staying in Clint's room. I'll be able to grab some stuff without having to interact with her.

I enter the room and start to pack some of my clothes into a suitcase.
"Oh- I'm sorry..." Nat says. I spin around to see her in the doorway.
"I- needed some c-clothes." I stutter.
"I was just gonna grab my toothbrush, but I'll come back later." she says before turning away.
"I'm done anyway." I say, taking my bag and leaving. She probably was gonna ask where I was going but I didn't stay.

"Thank you for doing this Y/N." Tony says as he hands me over some keys to a quinjet.
"Of course." I say, flashing him a semi fake smile.

I arrive in Australia and go to the safe house that Tony set up for me. I hide the quinjet in a forest and unload my stuff into the house. It's quiet. I don't know if I like that. I shuffle my playlist on Spotify as I begin to look at the list Tony gave me on what I need to do. This is gonna be fun...

A/N: I have nothing to say except for I'm sorry.

ANYWAY, thank you for reading!

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