Not my favorite chapter as it's in a different writing style. There's a lot of ff where y/n is in boten I want to see one where it ends like this.
Warnings: $uicide, anorexia, depresseion.
She was forced into boten.
She didn't want to be their slave.
She didn't want to be a fuck toy.
It was fine in the beginning.
They treated her nice.
Black cards.
Aftercare.
Cuddles.
But they got worse and worse as time went on.
Or maybe she was becoming more aware.
They all loved her.
But they were murders
The top gang in Tokyo.
Love isn't something they express so openly.
Hitting.
Threatening
Mental abuse
She suffered.
She wanted to go home.
But she had no home.
It began with her not eating much. They didn't notice right away as she always pushed it aside by saying
"I already ate" or "I'm not hungry"
Sometimes she ate only to throw it back up.
"Y/n? Your getting skinny. Your ass is going to disappear." Kokonoi said more as a joke but he did notice how little she was eating.
Good. She thought. Maybe if the less attractive she got then they'll finally kill her.
She didn't even care about getting out or escaping.she wanted to die more than anything.
"Princess one more round." Would turn into the whole night. Usually this isn't something she would complain about as it pleasured her as well as them but everyday? With their kinks and desires?
It was hard.
Mikey was the one who brought her into this.
She liked Mikey but he would have times where she was scared of him, or that's what she wouldve said in the beginning.
He had issues. So many of them.
To many of them for her to fix. She tried in the beginning. But he pushed her away like he did to everyone else.
With Sanzu he knew how scared she was about being left alone. Abandonment issues and anxiety was all she knew from a very young age.
He ,despite his drugy and manipulative personality, was there for her. She reminded him of how he was when he was as a child. Scared. Hurt. Alone. So he wanted to help. But he only made it worse.
The Haitani brothers were okay. During sex they didn't give a single fuck but Rindou gave good aftercare. Ran would shower with her and take her out on little dates.
but they knew what she liked and what she didn't like. So if she was to anger them they would use her abandonment issues against her by leaving her alone for days on end not letting anyone near her.
Panic attacks
Heavy breathing
Crying
Shaking
Bleeding
Throwing up
Chills
All things she experienced.
With kokonoi he once moaned another females name over and over again to the point where she couldn't even enjoy the sex.
"Akane~"
He would moan then after he would spoil her with money. He overall wasn't as bad as the others.
There also was Kakucho. He treated her better than everyone. Sure occasionally there was rough treatment or rough sex but nothing that she couldn't recover from.
After 5 years of this she had enough. She was the shell of the person she used to be.
Her smile
Her laugh
Her energy
Her full of life eyes
All disappeared.
No amount of money or sex could ever get it back.
she layed in the bathtub multiple bottles of pills around her. She swallowed every last one. 34 pills was all it took. Her lifeless body laid in the glass bathtub. A small smile on her face as she was finally freed.
It took them 2 hours to notice. It was when Sanzu went in to look for his missing pills, no one answered his knocking so he just barged in. He looked everywhere in her room until he went into the bathroom. His eyes laid upon her lifeless body.
"Y/N!! Hey wake up please!! Get up!! Fuck! RAN RINDOU! SOMEONE!" He screamed not knowing what else to do. Everyone soon came in and all saw the scene.
"W-why.." Mikey mumbles. There it goes another person he cared about,
Dead.
They didn't expect this. Sure they knew she wasn't doing so good but for this to be the outcome?
They would have done something sooner.
At her funeral they stood at the casket. Only a picture left of her smiling face.
When was the last time she looked like that?
When did she laugh last?
When was she happy?
Was she ever happy?
no.
She's never been happier then she is now.
She laughed at the way they looked and how some of them shed tears.
Nothing made her happier than seeing them suffer.
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Romansa" you would be prettier under me~" ᴡɪʟʟ ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇ ᴀɴɢꜱᴛ, ꜰʟᴜꜰꜰ, ʟᴇᴍᴏɴꜱ, ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴍᴜᴛ. ʀᴇQᴜᴇꜱᴛ ᴏᴘᴇɴ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇꜱ ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇᴅ: ᴛᴏᴋʏᴏ ʀᴇᴠᴇɴɢᴇʀꜱ, ʙᴜɴɢᴏᴜ ꜱᴛʀᴀʏ ᴅᴏɢꜱ, ᴊᴜᴊᴜꜱᴛᴜ ᴋᴀɪꜱᴇɴ, ʜᴀɪᴋʏᴜᴜ, ɢᴇɴꜱʜɪɴ ɪᴍᴘᴀᴄᴛ, ᴇᴛᴄ.
