Love Me Till The Limit - Newt x Reader x Thomas

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"Love, you're having a panic attack calm down." My breaths were lodged in my throat and my blood was rapidly pumping to my head. My lungs seemed to have shrunk 10 sizes.

"Listen to my voice, okay? Can you do that for me?" I shake my head side to side, to busy trying to rack my brain for a plan on what to do.

"Take deep breaths, in through your nose and out through your mouth." Newt whispers as makes me look at him, taking my head in his hands and instructing me to stare into his eyes. Somehow this worked and I was able to do as he said, slowing my breathing down and focusing on moving air into my lungs.

"What am I going to do?" I seriously ask, wanting him to be able to have an answer. I didn't want this baby but knew I couldn't get rid of it without putting my life at risk. I guess I answered the question myself, it was my responsibility to look after and protect this child. There was nothing else I could do, my options were very limited.

"That's wonderful. I'm going to have a baby in the middle of an apocalypse, who's father is dead, and figure out how to raise a child by myself. Oh my god, I'm going to be a terrible mother." In that small amount of time I had been through a series of emotions. Insanity, shock, sadness, anger, and many others that weren't even on any spectrum.

"Hey, no, you're going to be a wonderful mother. Look how well you've taken care of your sister all these years, and you wont have to take care of this baby alone. I'm right here, your sister is here, hell even Minho cares about you and he doesn't care about anyone but himself." I crack a smile whilst whipping the tears that were still streaming down my face. So much had happened in the past 24 hours that it made it almost ironic I found out now.

"Is everything okay in there?" I hear Cora question followed by a soft knock. I could barely hear Minho on the other side telling Cora to ask if I needed a hug. Newt was right, I had all these great people along side me. When I opened the door Minho nearly fell into the bathroom, he had his ear pressed up against the door in an attempt to hear anything.

"You guys are going to be an Aunt and Uncle." I considered Minho to be my annoying big brother and I'm sure he felt the same about me. It both took a few seconds for them to get the underlying message but both engulfed me in a hug when they finally understood. It was nice to have a distraction from the constant reminders of Thomas, I needed to accept he wasn't coming back.

"Are you guys ready to leave?" Jorge asks, confusing us all.

"To go find Marcus so he can lead us to the Right Arm." Jorge further explains, we all act like we understand what he's talking about and follow him down multiple flights of stairs. Cora hands me 2 granola bars once we get to the bottom.

"One for the baby and one for you." She was already taking over the role as my caregiver, even though I was doing just fine. Along the way Newt never left my side, when I stopped to puke he held my hair back and practically shoved water and food down my throat ensuring I was getting enough fluids and vitamins.

"I swear you and Cora will not ever leave me alone for these next 9 months." I tease, it was sweet how after everything he was still there when I needed him. Seeing Thomas and I together must've been hard for him to watch and yet here he was.

"Didn't realize it was a bad thing to care about you."

"Don't get soft on me now, pretty boy." I reply, using the his nickname that I gave him back in the glade. It seemed like forever ago but in truth it had just been a couple months, if that. We keep walking as I keep my eyes forward, but out of the corner of my vision I catch him staring at me while smile softly to himself before looking down at his shoes. I bite the inside of my cheek, keeping myself from smiling just as he did.