Dearly Affair

CHAPTER 26

CESSIA

Hilliona sent me the address and I'm still here inside our house due to my daughter don't want me to go out. Kailangan kong umalis, dahil iyon ang sabi ni sa akin ni Hilliona. She wants to discuss some matters with me.

I get my cap, the long-sleeved shirt and the pants. I wore those as protection to the sunlight. Dala ko rin ang pouch ko, pero naiwan ang phone. Lalia will have to used it while I am not returning back.

Agad akong bumaba ng makarating na ako sa tinutunguhan. I feel this placed so strange, ang mga batang naglalaro at ang sinisingaw na init ng araw. The season become so dull, far from what I had saw this morning.

Nakita ko si Hilliona na kumakaway pa sa akin mula sa malayo. Ang maaliwalas na itsura nito habang ang suot nitong hindi nalalayo sa kulay ng balat niya. Ang buhok nitong nakalugay ngunit hindi ganoon na kahaba.

I smile at her and walk forward to make a progress. My sentimental keeps on building a paradise but a dead, full of despair, the thunder within the sharp edges. Ang mga sangay ng bawat pangyayari na parang nakikita ko ngayon.

I don't like feeling this whenever I'm seeing someone far. She gave me the address and it is too far from my house. Sinalubong ako nito ng malawak nitong ngiti habang ang mga matang walang kakislap-kislap.

I want to know. I want to know why I'm seeing this kind of too strange scopes within this ascend. The strategy of becoming paranoid are inevitable as some were just flow in and straight away to leak all the may possible happened if not now, it could be later.

I am scared now. Mas hinawakan ko pa ang pagkakahawak ko mula sa nakalaylay kong damit. I do see that mere place are in stray now. I wanted to see it, i wanted to look at and watch it.

"Let's take a sit, Cessia" masayang sabi nito.

"How are you?" I'm in frighten, I'm in an extreme shrunken distraught that can squeal the essence of instinct. Hindi ako sigurado pero mas gust ng katawan ko ang mahiga na lamang.

"I'm o-okay.." I am not eligible to let her see how my voiced are against to her queries. Because now, it makes me more feel in horrible place.

"I invited you to be here because I want to have some tea with you. Hindi tayo ganoon na magkakilala, but I am here and you are sitting over there. Can we share at least moment regarding our daily life?" I am busy Hilliona.

Hindi ako ganitong tao na hinahayaang bungkalin kung ano ang nasa likod ng pagiging ganito ko sa labas. I am not making this conversation turn to vain yet making it more conservation to my hunch.

"I do only work, hindi ako madalas na pupunta sa kung saan maliban na lang kung appointment" I said while seeing her sipping her tea. I am not fond at eating into fancy restaurants while the person I am used to be with is unknown and deadly mysterious.

Natatakot ako na hindi lang ito nag-iisa. I'd rather to have my journey alone than this seeing the community being severe upon attacking the fellow behind.

Nagpaalam ako sa kaniya na pupunta na muna ako sa comfort room. I need to stop this feeling. It's becoming more huge the Hilliona looks enjoying being with in this field.

Gusto ko ng bumalik. I only want to hug my daughter while sleeping. I want to take a nap while I'm trying to think how to solve this messed within given but without formula.

The solution must be abstract yet absurd. I want to illustrate throught my own way upon accumulating all the traces that can bear with me this time.

"Shall I trust her?" I ask myself while looking my reflection on the mirror.