Warnings : ⚠️⚠️⚠️
-mentions of death
-y|n dying
-sadness
-depressing thoughts
Genre : really sad but also so beautiful idk
Enjoy 🦋
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Y|n pov :
Four years ago I lost my Mother to cancer . I lost my father to cancer 2 years after my mother . I was alone and I had no one to talk to . I felt helpless and lonely . I started self harm . I didn't wanted me to be happy . When my parents weren't the to be happy either then why should I .
An half year ago I started loosing hair . Dumbledore knows about my problem . He is using a spell that lets me look as if I still have my full hair . Him , professor lupin and Snape have been taking care of me bed since I told them . Those three helped me stay alive . All the time . Professor lupin always comes over at night bringing me chocolate and reading books with me . He is teaching me what I can't learn at school when I'm dead . He knows I wished to be a professor when I was younger . So he's teaching me everything I could of learned , if my time wasn't ticking .
Snape is helping me emotionally , I talk to him as if he's my dad . Some nights when I couldn't sleep , I would go to his room and talk to him all night . We would eat ice cream and talk about how we both hate Umbridge laughing a lot at that .
Dumbledore is helping me stay alive . There's not much he can do anymore but he tried his best . I'm thankful for his help . I wouldn't have made it without him either .
I never cared about dying , ever since my doctor told me . Until I met him . He doesn't know . I didn't want him too . But he starts noticing at my weird behaviour.
Draco and I are dating since some months , I Love him so much . I'm basically living in his room by now . He never noticed since there wasn't much to notice , but I have left only about 2 weeks the smallest things are starting to get hard for me .
My doctors told me today . I'm gonna tell Snape later tonight and lupin after class tomorrow since he wanted to go out and eat dinner with me , knowing that I love pasta .
I can't keep my eyes open sometimes being extremely sleepy . I stopped eating , all I'm eating now is when I Draco is with me so that he doesn't get suspicious.
My hair spell stops working sometimes so that I have to get to Dumbledores office asking him to refresh it . Even he looks sad .
Today I'm out with Draco in the back yard of our school he made us a Picknick .
He got me all my favourite things and smiled brightly at me . I know I will have to tell him since next week I will have to stay at the hospital . I look at him and smile running into his arms giving him a bone crushing hug . He smiles before picking me up and kissing me . " My my look at you , you look so beautiful dear" he says in a old English way .
I smile brightly before spinning around showing him my dress , " you like it " I say looking up at him hopefully . He nods "I love it . And I love you " , he grabs my hand sitting down on the soft blanket he placed on the green grass looking up at the sky .
"Look Draco Theres the Draco constellation " I motion over us . He nods and smiles , " You remembered " he says softly pushing hair of my face kissing me .
"You know " he starts " 30 years back from now we will sit outside with our kids and show them tge exact constellation " he smiles at me . His smile Fades as he looks at my face .
At the mention of living life with him I break down . I will have to tell him now .
I stand up sitting on his lap crying into his shoulder . He looks at me worried, "Have I said something wrong , baby what's wrong " he says sadly . I look him , " Draco we won't be able to have kids " , he looks at me and takes my hand , "y|n that's no problem , we can adopt kids or we don't need kids , I love you for who you are my queen " he mumbles before kissing my cheek softly .
