Sorry that it took me so long to write thissss but anyway there u go~~~>
Warnings : Really sad Depressing
Enjoy loves
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I let her go . I had to . I hate myself so much for it . I never deserved her . Never
That was not why I did break us apart though . It was because I loved her too much . I loved her but I couldn't I shouldn't .
I had a girlfriend . Whilst I was best friends with you , I had you before I had her . You helped me . We're there for me . Yet I'll let you go because I knew you deserve so much more than me . You deserve more than a death eater someone who cannot provide for you who doesn't deserve your good heart and your pure mind . You're a wonderful person who doesn't deserve an idiot like me you deserve someone who can love you who can appreciate you who can give you the world like you deserve angel .
And I couldn't do that so I'd let you go . I'm sorry every time I'm saying in the hallway or whatever I'm saying here my heart is shattering . I'm looking at you as you are looking at me but then your eyes wander off to someone else not wanting to see me . It's understandable who want to look into my eyes after what I've done to you I've hurt you .
I tried not to hurt you yet I did probably more than I could've if I would've told you who I am now and what is pressuring me.
What are you didn't know is that I felt so much for you I love you more than I love myself which is why I had to let you go you have to understand that but I know you will never because I'm too dumb to tell you too much of a jerk .
I hate myself for it . I just took other girls after I had you try to get you out of my mind .
I thought that girl that was easy to have and she just wanted me for a quick fuck so I of course took her .
It's a bitch move , but yet here I am . Blaise tried talking to me as did some of my other friends like Theodore .
And they help me through this rough time if there's only much that they could do . And did thankfully I'm really thankful for them helping me when I probably did not even deserve the help .
I'm not good for you you are so much more over me you deserve the world darling .
You deserve the world and I couldn't give you the world said to let you go so that you can find someone one day that can give you the world . I'm a broken piece of shit and I'm in so much pressure in so much pain I feel depressed hurt and alone . When you were there I never felt like this I feel different things . I felt loved and appreciated I felt like I could take over the world just by looking at you .
I can't put anything into words there is so much going on and so much that I don't even know about myself .
I'm sorry darling . I'm sorry .
But I love you I always love you and every decision I've ever made was for you . Because I loved you .
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This one isn't as good as I wished for it to be :(
