one love, two mouths

Realization

We said our goodbyes and started walking towards our cabin in total silence. I don't know how i felt after kissing her, it felt right? I don't like her. I don't. I can't. 

Fuck.

I like Catra.

The realization made my eyes widen. "Are you good?" Catra asked me with a worried look on her face. I quickly straighten myself out as i told her that i'm fine. 

I could tell something was bothering her, was it because i kissed her? I asked her if she's good and she responded with 'i'm fine.' I don't know what that's supposed to mean. "I'm sorry." I apologized. I see her turn around in confusion. "For what?" She asked genuinely confused. "Because i kissed you." I replied with. I see her sigh before continuing "It's not that i was fine with it and nothings wrong i'm just really fucking tired and i think i drank too much." She said rubbing her eyes. Adora? drinking? "You drank?" I asked with a surprise. I see her turn around in embarrassment "When you weren't looking." She said a bit ashamed which made me laugh a bit. "Damn Adora didn't think you'd had it in you." I said laughing. I see her roll her eyes before answering. "Shut up." She said playfully. We laughed a bit before getting back to the cabin. I let her in and i could tell her head was probably pounding. "Let's get you cleaned up." I said with a giggle. "I'm fineeee." She said annoyingly. "No you aren't now let's get that makeup off." I said seating her in a chair nearby. She sat down and just started giggling. Is this what Adora's like when she's drunk? Dork. I grabbed some makeup wipes that i found and went closer to her. I slowly went to her eyes and took the makeup off. Except she made it difficult by moving. "Catraaaa." Adora groaned. "Adora." I answered the blonde back. "Your like really pretyy." She muttered and giggled. I was taken back, she thinks i'm pretty? "You think i'm pretty?" I asked with a little smile. "Mhmm.." She muttered once again. "Well thank you." I said trying to hide the fact that i was blushing. She was drunk, it didn't mean anything. I finished getting her makeup off. "Okay now go shower." I said. Before i knew it this dumbass was taking off her clothes. I turned around to see her in her bra and underwear. "Not here!" I managed to stop her before she took anything else off. She silently nods before going in the bathroom. I heard the shower turn on, good. I sat down myself and started to take my makeup off. I was so tired and i drank a bit but i wasn't really drunk. A headache? Sure. But not drunk. I finished taking it off and dumped the wipe in the trash. I suddenly turned around to see Adora in only her towel. "Can i have some clothes please." She said frowning. At least she wasn't THAT drunk. I went over to her clothes and grabbed a tank top and some shorts. She thanked me before going back to the bathroom an changing. A few seconds later she came back and immediately plopped on the bed, groaning. "Go to sleep princess." I said to her. She nodded and i leaned in and kissed heron the forehead. God she's so pretty and cute and- No. No no no this can't be happening. Fuck! I can't like Adora, i can't. Do i? Oh my fucking god i do.  Shit. I started panicking, i sat down on my bed trying to calm myself down. Fuck i like my best friend. I sit back up, i can't think about this i need to just shower. I managed to calm myself down and got in the shower, i took a shower and got dress and laid back in my bed. I looked over to her again. How can i not like this girl? Fuck. Those were my last thoughts before drifting to sleep.