KABANATA 13

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by bilibili21

by bilibili21

Underwater

Icarus and I are fine. We are happy with each other. Of course, like other lovers, we also quarrel. Yes, just like ordinary lovers.One day we had a big fight. I knew it was superficial but I couldn't help but ask him which he couldn't answer.Ang anak ng kaibigan ni Mommy na naging matalik ko na rin na kaibigan ang pumasok sa bahay. Hindi naman ganoon katagal noong una kaming nagkita ngunit naging napakalapit at komportable kami sa isa't isa.

A worried face appeared on me when I opened the door. Kiera seemed to be just running to come here just to see me.I frowned and gave her a questioning face.Wala kasi kaming usapan na magkita ngayon dahil may klase pa ako sa hapon.

"Kiera? what are you doing here?"
I asked her. It was really surprising because I had never seen her like this worried.

"I'm not going to flake anymore. You need to know and see it. I can't stand being fooled by your loved one."

I was confused and nervous. I felt something bad. I don't think I should hear or know it now.

"What are you saying? a-what? I do not understand you Kiera."

"Here," sabi niya at kinuha ang phone niya sa bag niya.Abala siya sa pag-scroll ng kung ano sa phone niya bago niya ipakita sa akin.

It's as if cold water poured on me from what I saw on Keira's phone. My chest hurts from what I see.

I could see a woman I had never known or seen was cradling Icarus's thighs.I saw the woman reach out to kiss Icarus. Icarus held the woman's waist so they wouldn't be outbalanced.

To support the woman in her arms. I didn't even see Icarus' face but I know that he responded to the kiss.

Naiiyak na ako.Hindi ko malaman kung ano ang aking gagawin.

"Ang video na ito ay nai-post kagabi at sa tingin ko ay alam mo na.But seeing from your reactions alam kong wala kang alam kahit isa."

And that was it.I keep calling Icarus pero hindi niya sinasagot.Walang tulog, walang tamang pagkain. Palaging puyat sa gabi.Iyon ang naging routine ko araw-araw.

Nagplano na akong umuwi sa dagat.I mean,what's the use of staying here if I'm ruined. The man that I've love left me.I have a happy family and loving parents, caring siblings but all of that is lacking. I am tired of thinking that I am okay, that I am happy.

But when I was about to leave it was a great sin that should not be committed.Hindi ko itatangi na si Icarus at ako ay walang mangyayari.

Bilang isang girlfriend na gustong ibigay lahat ng gusto ng mahal mo ay hindi mo maitangi.You love that man and you want to let him be.

But today I realize that,ang pagbibigay sa iyong sarili ay hindi ang tamang pagpipilian.Mag-iwan ng puwang sa iyong puso. Parang hindi ka nirerespeto ng lalaking mahal mo kung hahayaan mo siyang makuha ka nang hindi iniisip ang iyong nararamdaman.

Two red lines....I'm done

To the underwater,to the people who live there.Please spare my life and my child.Please.....