Life and other shit in general

You win some you lose some

Alfie's POV: I've never in my life felt like that. Never. Felt like I got a kick in the balls by King Kong. There they were just walking along his arm wrapped around her both of them laughing. His arm around HER waist. Vera, my Vera. What the fuck. Wanted to go over there and fuck his shit up. Can't believe it even me and Mia breaking up didn't hurt this bad. And I made it 10 times worse. I blanked her. The look on her face keeps playing through my head. She looked like is slapped her. What a dickhead I really am, it's not her fault how is she to know I'm half in love with her? I've never said anything. I knew this would happen. V's far to pretty for someone to not take notice. But Harry he's a prat...
I could be over reacting. He might just of wanted a chat. who you bullshitting alf he didn't want a chat. He wants her. "So Harry how was school". Seriously mum I wouldn't talk to me right now wana go on a homicidal rampage. "Fine mum same as always". Dad starts talking bout the footy game tomorrow. Mum doesn't answer him. She's too focused on me. she reminds me of Si. She notices too much. He cottoned on today. Once we were outta the lunch hall he pulled me to one side. "What the fuck alf?? What's going on with you and Vera? That was soo akward a minute ago and don't say nothing cause your lying if you do". Si's my best friend. Since we were 7. I can tell him. I trust him better than anyone else. "She was with Harry Si". My voice breaks. God I'm so whipped. "They was walking round the back field his arms around her". His faces drops. "Alfie man you sure this ain't some sorta misunderstanding??" I wish I hadn't seen it it's burned into my brain now. "Na man ask Tez he saw them aswel". Tez saw something was up but new better than ask. Si's just a stubborn bastard. "What did you do when you saw them?". "Nothing Si she waved and I ignored her. I know it was wrong I'm sorry I did it now I just got disgusted at the sight of them. Mother fucker! so pissed right now". Simons face drops. This is it I'm getting a bollocking. "Alfie man seriously you ignored her?!? She is never guna talk to you again. You know what girls are like you've hurt her feelings."
"ALFIE!" Mums shout interrupts my train of thought. Didn't realise I was day dreaming. "What's up with you today. You haven't touched your food?" Well mum Ive upset the only girl I truly give a fuck about. I feel like an arsehole. I'm such a dick. "Nothing mum Jesus get off my case!". Her faces drops and she turns away 😔. Great not only have I pissed Vera off I've upset mum too. I gota get away from women. can't apologise now. I can't even think straight."I'm not hungry". Childish I know but yes I do storm into my room. Fuck it I'm in the mood to get high. Time to ring my man Tez.
Ring ring ring ring
T: alf?
A: T-man! Watcha doing?
T: fuck all gees in mine what's up?
A: just in mine was guna swing by your place we bun a zoot?
T: yes yes Alfie! Been too long since you had some green 😏
A: I know too much stress lately gotta be done il be bout an hour
T: cool in a bit

Lily's POV:
L: he did what?!?!? He kissed you V oh my god fuck!

Rang Vera as soon as I got in home. Sorry I'm a nosy cunt just had to know what happened today.

V:It weren't a proper kiss Lil, I've kissed George more passionately! Still though it was sweet most boys would have went for the kill. So nervous about tomorrow he reckons there'l be more. Should I kiss him?

Oh this girl thinks wayyy too much she never says fuck it yolo.

L:Yes Vera kiss him! Be a hoe for once. What happened with you and Alfie today by the way? He was being really funny at lunch, then you left and he jumped up about 5 seconds later.

She's gone quiet. Alfie if you've upset her il rip your dick off well see how far you get then...

V: it was awful lily. He made me feel like a prostitute or something. Me and Harry were walking along he had his arm round my waist. I saw him and Tez walking past so I waved right? He looked at me like I was something stuck to his shoe. He didn't even wave back. Don't understand why he was being such an prick about it?