Life and other shit in general

Awkward..

Lily's POV: oh Vera. Poor sod. Alfie is such a stupid prick. Wanted him to do the right thing! I told him what do to and he fucked it up. And as for my big brother. Wow. Like wow. What the fuck came over him?? Is he really maturing at the ripe old age of 18?
V rang me a second ago crying her eyes out. She explained the garden situation the argument everything. It's just so fucking complicated. Pity everyone involved. Poor Vera she just don't seem to realise the effect she has on alf. Poor Alfie, hopelessly in love with Vera but still hung up on the past. Poor Harry he don't even understand the situation he's got himself in just for liking a girl.
Feel so bad. I knew Alfie was there. We all did except for V. I didn't get the chance to tell her she was with Harry all night. I didn't wana make a big thing about alf being there, why would I embarrass her like that. Bless her she asks me how my night went. So I explain to her everything from start to finish...
'So im ready to go, just waiting on Si. God I was so fucking nervous v! I was pissed already 😂 so anyway Si knocks on the door and I open it. He rekons hey sexy was you waiting for a hunky man to come your way? I said yeah do you know any 😂. Anyways we get in the cab and no action he's making small talk. So we get to the party and he's talking to me in the corner of the kitchen and he leans in. So im thinking this is it! But no he bottles out and looks down at his shoes. So I grabbed him by the neck and pulled him in to me and just kissed him! I duno what came over me guess it was the drink. So anyways he goes for it tongues and everything god he's a good kisser! Anyway make a long story short he's asked me to be his girlfriend officially!!! (At this point she starts screaming something sounded like oh my fucking god but can't be too sure) so I said yes obviously. I needed a wee then so I said go wait in the sitting room and as I'm going upstairs Alfie comes down. He seemed a bit distracted so I stopped him and said hey what you doing. Don't even think he heard me so I grabbed his arm and asked again. I swear I know his a dickhead but he looked ready to cry. He reckoned to me have you seen V. I was no why. And he started shouting she's with Harry Lil! Their in the garden wrapped around each other. She don't want me she's with him. I wudnt blame her who would want me and all this sorta shit. (Vera started crying again at this point) I gave him a serious talking to bare in mind I was very tipsy. Told him straight up Alfie if you want her you gotta tell her. You've already upset her by ignoring her you need to fix up big time. He said he would but obviously made the whole fucking thing even worse. Nob head. Anyways I came into the sitting room after that, everyone was sitting down chatting. You went out to get a drink and just didn't come back. Harry wanted to go look for you but I said il do it incase you was with alf. Both of you were gone missing. And you weren't answer your phones. We was guna call the Feds only for you text me! After that the party dried up so I asked Si to go home. It was fucking scary felt like an adult. We was in the cab kissing and that, and he touched my boob. I was like wow simon slow down you gota work for that shit. We went back to his house. He was the perfect gentleman. Offered to sleep on the sofa but I ain't even guna lie I wanted to be with him so I asked him to stay in the bed with me. I'm a slut I know! We didn't do anything just kissed and his hands wandered abit but hey you can't blame him mine did too. We fell asleep like that and I only woke up about 20 minutes ago. I rang you straight away. That's my story of last night'
I still can't believe everything that's happened in the last 24 hours fucking mental. Think I might end up losing my virginity to simon. I can't contain myself when I'm near him. It's like there's a magnet at the pit of my stomach dragging me to him. Can not believe I'm no longer single?!?? My hunky sheckshay boyfriend is in the kitchen making breakfast. Badly. But still! Thank fuck his mum and dad and crystal is out. That would have been awkward. Fuck meeting his parents. After that comes babies and marriage. Balls to that!! "Hey Lil come in the eggs are burnt!" He's such a div.But his my div😊. "You are such a shit cook Si! I'm guna get salmonella..." He's face drops. Oh I feel bad now he went to so much effort. "I'm joking simon they look great". Ok it was a lie. A big lie. "If you don't wana eat them we can go cafe?" God he's so sweet. Don't think he knows how to insult someone. Whereas I on the other hand do it on the daily. "No this is fine Si! You got ketchup?" We sit down to eat and he gives me a funny look. Swear this boy can read minds. He always twigs went something's up. " so you guna tell me what happened with Vera? I know you guys got a girl code an all but Alfie's still not answering the phone. I was talking to his mum so I know he's ok. But still that ain't like alf to ignore his phone. His mum rekons he was in bits last night rang her at all hours to come and pick him up. She said he was sitting in some random park crying his eyes out?" Oh my god he musta tried to follow her?! Jesus Christ this boy and girl need to sort their shit out! " oh Si he's fucked up big time.....