Life and other shit in general

Just when you though things was bad..shit gets worse

Alfie's POV: think my heart has stopped. I doesn't seem to be working? I can't feel anything. Not sad, not angry.. Nothing. I'm actually glad cause I imagine if seeing them arm in arm hurt seeing his tongue in her mouth would be extremely painful.
I don't smoke but when I've had a few I will have the odd fag. I'm a social smoker you could say. So when Olivia (some girl I was basically using for the night) offered me a fag I said yeah. So we walk out into the garden. I hear a giggle. I know that laugh anywhere. It's her... With him. Their close. Very close. His hands are on her arse. I should have turned away when I spotted that but like the fucking idiot I am I didn't. I carry on watching oblivious to anything Olivia was chatting shit about. Think she walked back in at some point, who cares. His kissing her neck. Ugh think I'm guna get sick. My bellys turning. He stops at her tits. He would want to dickhead. What does he think this is a free for all? Shit he's coming back in. I gota go. My brain is in over drive right now. Can't look at that smug bastard I swear il knock him spark out. I find my way back to Olivia. "Heya babe". She's pissed she's screwing. I don't even give her time for a smart comment. I just wana forget what I saw. I lock on to her mouth and stuck my tongue straight in without being asked. I'm a prick I know. Just wana get away from it all. She doesn't complain anyway. She's pissed drunk I suppose she don't care. My hand finds it's way into her knickers. I'm not even being gentle. I know I'm using her. I'm thinking of Vera right now. She's wet already. Shit this girl don't fuck around her hands are in my trousers rubbing my dick. I slide a finger in. Then another. She moans in my ear. Feel shitty cause this ain't doing anything for me at all. I wana hear Vera's moans in my ear. I wana feel Vera's wet pussy. "Hey Alfie come into the toilet I got a surprise for you". Hmmm what the fuck is my surprise??
A blowjob apparently. She pushes me to sit on the edge of the bath and pulls my zip down. She's trying to be really sexy going slow, looking into my eyes all that shit. My body responses even if my brain ain't interested. She's whispering "god your cock is so big I love it". Fuck me she's horny. Oh man I can't lie about it as pissed as I am that feels good. She's rolling her tongue around my helmet. Then she takes the whole length of me. Jesus that's hot. She looks up at me and giggles. Olivia I might be saving your number. I grab the back of her head and push it further in. I'm being a cunt. I wouldn't normally act like this. The poor girl. I'm taking my frustrations out on her mouth. I thrust into her mouth. She slides her hands down to my balls. Oh I'm guna cum. Fuck me I'm guna cum. "Arrrr Olivia babe I'm guna cum. Do you want me to grab a tissue?" Ok I haven't completely turned into a complete arsehole. She looks up at me. She really does have pretty eyes. "No I wana taste you". That's it I'm gone.
Damn. That was good. Feel bad now I've used this girl. She's tidied herself up and is just staring at me now. I wonder what Vera's doing now.. No no not thinking about it. I suppose I better replay the favour "Come here Olivia" she lays down on the floor and slides her knickers down. Fuck she's dripping wet. I kneel down, slide two fingers in. Shit she's tight. Her moans are so fucking sexy. She's grabbing my hair, biting my neck. This girl is game. I lean down and lightly lick her clit. She moans louder. Someone's guna hear us. Fuck it it's a party anything goes! I get to work sucking, nibbling And licking her to an orgasm. "Oh Alfie I'm guna fucking cum I'm guna cum!!! Oh fuck me Jesus Christ!!"...
Bit awkward now. I mean she's a nice girl. Maybe I could like her but not right now I'm too fucked up at the minute. "This was nice Olivia, you wana gimme your number? Il give you a ring?" That's the most I can promise her. "Yeah sure we'll get together sometime?". Only for sex if I'm honest. "Defo babe". Well done Alfie another girl to add to your list. Just the wrong girl...