Life and other shit in general

Do monk/poets exsist?

Vera's POV: he's here!!!!!! Ahhh I'm so nervous. This is a good idea right? Yes yes this is a great idea. Harry's a nice boy. I like him. But Alfie's face won't get out of my brain!! Right V stop your not thinking about him today. Go get the door you twat. Breathe. Breathe. It's only your first ever real date. Ugh. "Hey Harry". There that was normal. Sensible. Good. "Heya beautiful thought you said you was guna look ruff?" Is he serious? I look like I've just walked out of the homeless shelter. "I do. Look at the bags under my eyes Har I look like I've done 10 rounds with rocky" 😑 "don't be silly you look gorgeous as always. Come on let's go" ooo he's got his arm around my waist. Getting butterflies how cheesy. "So where we going Harry?" "Well I was thinking as we're both hanging cinemas and some nandos? Or we can go bowling or something whatever you want Vera" ahhh he really is too cute. But fuck bowling in these shorts. "Cinema sounds good".

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Alfie's POV: "no Simon I don't wana see anyone today. I feel like shit I'm hanging"
"Don't bullshit me alf your upset cause of Vera, come round mine now"
End dial..
What does he want?! Why can't everyone just leave me to my misery. It's always been the same il avoid something until he decides to squeeze it out of me.  Arrr no point avoiding it Si will just ring my mum and tell her everything. Defo do not want that :/

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"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU FUCKING IMBECILE!!!!!!!!!!!YOU BIG WANKFART" Ok so i deserved that. wait, what? "whats a wankfart Lil?". Bad move, her faces is changing to a sorta purplish colour. "You! why did you say that to her?? are you stupid you've probably ruined whatever chance you have. arsehole!!!!". Simon thankfully steps in. " Ok Lilybird i think he gets it he's fucked up". Lilybird?? Oh my god their on pet names already. their defo guna be one of those annoying loved up couples that stay together forever. i know i derseve the evil looks Lilys giving me right now but it just hurts so fucking much right now dont even wana talk about it. "Right alfie we need to fix this. you need to tell her everything. i mean what happened with Mia aswel". Simon looks nervous. he dont usaully bring up mia. he knows i dont like to talk about it. but i get his point i need to just be honest with V. But im scared shitless. what if she dont want me? fucked up, complicated, manhore...yup shes guna jump straight into my arms. "but what if it doesnt work si? i mean i fucked it up so badly dont think shes ever guna talk to me again". Lily's face softens, "Alf if you want her you gotta try right? I know she likes you if she didnt she wouldnt be this upset". I hope shes right. Cause if not im totally bollocksed. "Ok so what do you recommend i do? Should i go round hers again? she might have calmed down?". suddenly they both look sheepish. Simon never looks guilty. its usally me thats done wrong. what am i missing here?? "what? what is it??". Simon speaks first "umm err ok dont freak out but shes, umm shes on a date with ..Harry". WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bastard!! the jealously bubbles in my stomach like posion. She left me so she could go get ready to be with him. he could be touching her right now. my vera. shes mine for fuck sake why can he just fuck off?!? cant take this flash backs of them last night replay through my head. his hands on her arse. her toungue in his mouth. him kissing her neck argggggg cant deal with this. i leave Lily and Si where their standing and run out. Need to get out of my own head. feel like my hearts guna bust. any more of this crap and im defo guna crack up. think i could be heart broken. again. shit i said i wouldnt do this to myself again!? i should be a poet cause ive enough fucked up crap in my life to write about. maybe i will become a monk poet. living of musli.......yeah right thats guna happen!

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Vera's POV: This is really nice. Its been soo long since i went on a proper date thingy. harrys being so sweet i feel bad im being really bad company. but cant stop thinking about fuckface flanders! his face after i slapped him... feel terrible now. but he did deserve it. maybe. maybe not. urrr i duno need to stop thinking about alfie right now. not when ive got a sex beast like harry on my arm right now. "so princess what do you wana do first cinema or food?" princess? oh god he did not just call me that. what a cringe!! still hes being sweet so il let it go even though i hate when people call me that..dad used to call me that. "umm cinemas?" he grins. god hes so fucking sexy wana lick his face. wow. lick his face Vera? really? "My mum warned me about girls like you, you just wana get me into a dark corner so you can have your wicked way with me" he winks. oh god im blushing. hate that i always fucking blush!! "iii umm..no i just though ttthat" he wraps his arms round my waist and pushes me towards the cinema doors. oh jesus hes nibbling on my ear again!!! sweet baby jesus my hormones are going crazy. he stars whispering into my ear in his sexy husky voice "dont worry though vera im not some innocent little virgin, you can play with me all day i promise i wont tell my mum". oh my lord this is guna be an intresting couple of hours. so glad i put my sexy knickers on. wait what vera hes not even guna see them?? aleast i dont think so.....