itoshika month (shikatani x itome)

December 3: Stargazing, but not quite(fluff/angst)

A bright star twinkles in the sky, catching Shikatani's eye.
"Ooh, look Itome-kun! A star!"
Itome nods, eyes resting on Shikatani, "yes, i saw it. it...reminds me of you."
The star burns brightly, among the little tiny stars like dying embers peppering the shiny black night sky.
Shikatani isn't focusing on the star. He looks over at Itome, not a care in the world, cream-coloured hair draped over the prickly half-cut grass. The soft lilac-greying eyes stare up at the sky, transfixed on the little stars. Shikatani can almost see it twinkle in his eyes, pupils molded into the shape of the stars. His posture, his eyes, his hair, his cool demeanour...reminds me of...oh.
Of fucking course, that's why they're together. It's because Itome reminded Shikatani of Shou. If he had been more careful, if he had not let rage and desire take over him, if he had held back, none of this would have happened, it would be Shou's bright eyes staring back at him, he wouldn't even be here, he would be in Aokou, he would be enjoying the time spent there, he would be-
Itome was just a substitute for Shikatani. Just like how a non-caffeine drinker would swap his piping hot black coffee for hot chocolate or how a little kid would substitute a doll for a teddy bear if they felt like snuggling up to something soft, but Shikatani's plight was a lot different. He was pretending Itome was Shou, to get rid of his past troubles. He was useless, he was such a self-absorbed bastard, he—
"Shika-chan?" Itome lays a hand on Shikatani's shoulder. "Are you ok?"
Shikatani wanted to brush Itome off, but he ended up falling on top of Itome.
Shikatani falls on top of Shou. Taken by an irrepressible wave of desire and needy want, he tugs at Shou's fly, trying to undo it as Shou watches on with a terrified gaze.
Shikatani begins to cry, burying his head into Itome's shoulder. "Don't cry, don't cry, it'll be okay..."
When Shikatani is done crying, Itome flips him over and rests Shikatani onto his shoulder. The stars seem slightly blurry as Itome begins to become clearer to Shikatani.
Shikatani disentangles himself from Itome's firm grip.
When Shikatani looks up, it's not the star he sees. It's Itome.
And he's perfectly fine with that.

(A/N my fics are getting shorter. i'm running out of ideas and getting more and more tired trying to think of more ideas. i'm so sorry that my note isn't as cheerful. this fic is also inspired by an anonymous writer on ao3 that wrote a fic "hanabi". you should check it out.
anyway, i really need your help. i'm all out of ideas. please recommend story scenarios. the recommendations will be of invaluable help. -hu tao)